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mood swing
so i was in love. whatever. so more than half of everything i've ever written was with your hand guiding my pen. what does that have to do with anything? you don't love (me) the way that i love (you). nothing that is said can be said with a shout even whispers are too loud i have to close curtains and lock doors before i can dare to dream of you the truth is whoever i meet i measure them with the ruler of you because you are the gold standard
actually, i have a bat i'm hitting and hitting and hitting but you lost all your blood a long time ago and the carpet is brown now you've been lying here or what is left of you has been lying here and housekeeping is banging at the door but i slipped the receptionist a twenty so they let me keep this room for as long as i want you haven't moved in weeks but i swear i see your body twitch out of the corner of my eye and i start hitting again you, of course, were not twitching. because you haven't moved in weeks. sometimes i wrap my hands around my neck to see what it feels like to be you other times i wrap them around your neck to show you what it feels like to be me i oscillate between begging you to wake up and smothering the pillow over your face none of it matters, of course, because you haven't moved in weeks. but the actions help me to make up my mind whenever i do that, i'll let you know
abby
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