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May 22nd, 2018

Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 17
Country: United States

Signup Date:
July 28, 2017



05/09/2018 11:04 PM 

You've Got Me Looking in Through Blinds

I speak in tongues to feed my ego but it does nothing to satisfy the hunger in my hands, head, and heart. 

05/07/2018 01:30 PM 

I Close My Eyes for a Second and Pretend It's Me You Want

Meanwhile I try to act so nonchalant... Mr. Beckett had it right when he said "Love me, or leave me, or rip me apart." I'm wa(it)ding in the water. Tie the anchor around my ankle or throw me the lifesaver. Anything for you to glance over the hull. Wouldn't it be nice? 
We can hide in the daylight. The moonlight exposes us for what we are. The sun sees me disinterested. The moon sees me desperate. Cue the guitars and the trumpets. 
You're like spring. A fool might wonder if you're ever really there, but a voyeur always knows. Ivy grows in your eyes. You leave flowers sprouting in your trail. Sprightly as a twitching rabbit's nose, begging to act, but afraid of attention. I always notice. 
See you tonight with an empty bed and a crowded head. 


05/04/2018 12:46 PM 

A New Outlook?

When I first started this blog, I didn't expect anyone to read it, so I was very open in venting about certain things. As time went on, I realised that some people were actually reading this and became self-conscious about what I post. This completely defeats the purpose of this blog. I wanted a place where I could post sappy things about what I'm feeling. But then after awhile, I started getting embarrassed. I want that to change. I'm gonna start just posting exactly what I'm feeling and I don't care how sappy it is. I don't care if you think I'm naive, or emo--because guess what? I am--I'm just going to be honest. If you don't like what I write about, then don't read it. I'm making this for me, not you. This may not even be a real problem, but it's just a heads-up for people who may feel this way. Because guess what? My next post is going to be about one of my unrequited crushes. I see him (almost) everyday so I feel this everyday, and that means I'm going to vent about it on here every day. That's it. If you think I'm cringey, fine. I don't care. Just allow me to have an outlet for these conflicting feelings.

 kisses and stitches, abby. 

04/30/2018 12:57 PM 

When You Walk in the Room

 Warning: Sappy, longing love 
This isn't about Huck. It's about someone else. The complicated one with the barrier between us. Remember? I said there were two people I was infatuated with. I justify it by saying that they're very similar-- practically the same beast, except this person is much more eccentric. And much older than me. Oh dear, I hope I didn't give too much away. My one nightmare is someone I know finding this blog. If you know me in person, you're reading this, and you know who it's about, I know it's wrong. I dare you to stop the heartbeats and the record spinning in my head. Anyway, this will just be a short little blab because I saw him again today and my heart fluttered. He smiled so much today. He smiled at me. He talked to me. 
But I'm jealous of her, because she has you. This is really embarrassing for me, wasting my time thinking of you, pretending I know you. I only know the front you put on. I don't know your dreams or secrets. I just sit here and wonder with a warm chest. Oh, the humiliation of a naive teenage girl reaching for the forbidden fruit. Yikes, did I actually say "forbidden fruit?" I better go before I embarrass myself even more.
The approaching spring will melt winter's ice. But I liked it. It preserved you. It preserved us. 

 kisses and stitches, abby 

04/30/2018 10:20 PM 

Music Survey

So, one of my "friends" on here posted one of these on her blog and I thought I'd give it a shot because it looks fun. It'll also articulate what kind of person I am and the extent of the music I like. 

A song you like with a colour in the title.
Black Mamba by the Academy Is...

A song you like with a number in the title.
7 Minutes in Heaven by Fall Out Boy

A Song That Reminds You of Summer
Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard

A Song That Reminds You of Someone You'd Rather Forget About
First Date by blink-182

A Song That Needs to Be Played Loud
Boy Division by My Chemical Romance

A Song That Makes You Want to Dance
All the Small Things by blink-182

A Song to Drive to
Jamie All Over by Mayday Parade

A Song About Drugs or Alcohol
Don't Threaten Me with a Good Time by Panic! at the Disco

A Song That Makes You Happy
Nine in the Afternoon by Panic! at the Disco

A Song That Makes You Sad
Dangerous Blues by the Young Veins

A Song That You Never Get Tired of
Reinventing the Wheel to Run Myself Over by Fall Out Boy

A Song From Your Preteen Years
California Gurls by Katy Perry

One of Your Favourite '80s Songs
Come on Eileen by Dexys Midnight Runners

A Song to Play at Your Wedding
Love at First Sight by the Brobecks

A Cover by an Artist
I Wanna Dance with Somebody by Fall Out Boy (of Whitney Houston)

One of Your Favourite Classical Songs
(this isn't technically classical but whatever) 1812 Overture by Tchaikovsky

A Song That You Would Duet with on Karaoke
Mad as Rabbits by Panic! at the Disco

A Song from the Year You Were Born
Teenage Dirtbag by Wheatus 

A Song That Makes You Think About Life
Play Crack the Sky by Brand New

A Song That Has Many Meanings to You
I'm Not Okay by My Chemical Romance

A Favourite Song with a Person's Name in the Title
Tiffany Blews by Fall Out Boy

A Song That You Think Everybody Should Listen to
EMI by the Sex Pistols

A Song by a Band You Wish Were Still Together
Thank You for the Venom by My Chemical Romance

A Song by an Artist No Longer Living
Imagine by John Lennon 

A Song That Makes You Want to Fall in Love
Heart of Mine by the Young Veins

A Song That Breaks Your Heart
I've Got a Dark Alley and a Bad Idea That Says You Should Shut Your Mouth by Fall Out Boy

A Song by an Artist With a Voice That You Love
Belt by Say Anything

A Song That You Remember From Your Childhood
21 Guns by Green Day

A Song That Reminds You of Yourself
Golden by Fall Out Boy

 kisses and stitches, abby 

04/29/2018 01:05 PM 

A Few More Weeks

Ugh, I have so much homework today. I'll try to update tonight. Hope you're on the edge of your seat because I'm sure the next post is gonna be absolutely dull. 

 kisses and stitches, abby 

04/25/2018 03:56 PM 

Bittersweet News?

 High school stuff again 

I fell in love with the boy with a book in his hand and... and no one in his bed. My crush (who we'll nickname Huck) and his girlfriend actually did break up. Even though I won't act on my feelings (because he's definitely way out of my league and everyone who I've ever fancied has never liked me back), I feel relieved. But my friend kinda likes him too, and it's not fair. (This is a different friend from the one he asked to prom.) She's way prettier and skinnier than me, and it feels like she's the one that always gets hit on. Why can't she just let me have this even though nothing will come of it? I know I like him more than she does. This isn't one of those small crushes. I really, really like him a lot. He's rare. I've never met anyone like him before. She has guys all the time, and I get no one. I'm so miserable and my self-esteem is so low. I wish I could have something for once. I wish I could have someone for once.


04/23/2018 09:50 PM 

Just Suffering, Honestly

I have a monster headache. I love my history teacher, but he gave us 20 pages of notes. Twenty! 

  Also warning for typical high school woes!  

I'm kinda sad that no one asked me to prom (at least yet). I mean yeah, the guy I really want to go with has a girlfriend (I think... I heard a rumour that they maybe broke up. ) but he asked a friend of mine. I don't know why he didn't ask his girlfriend. Maybe it's because she's a college freshman and wouldn't want to go to a prom with a bunch of high school students. Or maybe they really did break up. But I'm really not jealous that he asked my friend. I mean, in a general sense, I am, but I know that they're just friends. Okay, so he didn't ask me, that's fine. But none of my guy friends asked me. I know that this really isn't a big deal, but I have low self-esteem and this doesn't really help it. It makes me think that there must be something wrong with me, like maybe I'm not pretty or skinny enough. Or I'm just unlovable. It's just really embarrassing seeing seemingly everyone going to prom with someone except me. ughhh

 kisses and stitches, abby 

04/19/2018 09:18 PM 


I'm gonna die alone. I love self-loathing.

 kisses and stitches, abby 

04/16/2018 08:07 PM 

Freeze Your Brain

blahhh... I wanna delete my emotions. Or at least try to forget. 

 kisses and stitches, abby 


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