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hey guys... tonight is rough for me, i was watching persona and the second episode slapped me hard in that episode this young girl cheats openly on her old boyfriend that she finds boring how can i relate to that u may ask.... well i realised maybe my crush simply lost interest like her i wasnt deep enough i wasnt interesting enough or diverse enough i wasnt cool nor refreshing... but like him i found my crush mysterious, fun and flirty in the episode they first shared cute moments together before she changed to have fun as she said the doesnt own him anything legally who she talks to and is with is not his business i felt that it made me realise how i need to be more open and interstig somehow i dont wanna lose hope... its still hard after all theses low moments... i know i havent had a hard life, sorry for complaining for such shallow things but im hurting inside i never used to cry about such thing but now i almsot cant even see the keyboard with theses damns tears i dont know when exactly nor why my abandonnement issues started but... they are indeed my worst problem i think i can overcome confidence and my fears, but this problem is something that destroys my life completely, when someone i consider close leaves i have a hard time moving on my best friend did this to me last year he left me for new friends for no reason at least to my knowledge... i couldnt even focus on class anymore... maybe i need therapy prob not there's things more deep but i still would like to seek help... because i feel like im alone...
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