Berger read a quote from that damn article, and I'm really growing sick of this article he keeps going to (it's too relatable), and went "it's easy for survivors to get caught up in self-blame" (Tal Young). He compared it to when I tried to kill myself, and when Buck died. That I'm blaming myself for what happened. But- who else's fault could it be? It has to be my fault, hell, it was my doing that i killed myself! What I said to Berger still stands. "I am never going to be forgiven for that, never!" (Guest, 175) Why should I forgive myself for something so horrible, and why should anyone else forgive me? The peices arent being put into place correctly here. And with Buck, God, Buck. If maybe i had just held on, done something, anything! Its all my fault. If people knew how it went down, they'd surely blame it all on me, and they should. I dont know if I will ever forgive myself for my brothers death. Anyways, sorry to be so dark. Im gonna go. Maybe il go try to play a new song on guitar. Or do some homework. Bye.