12/05/2020 07:14 PM  just friends!! YALL WILL NEVER BELIVE WHAT HAPPENEND LAST NIGHT, omggggg it was awesome, okay so my parents went to a banquet so they were gon for like 5 hours so i tell this omne guy i met that my oarents are leaving so he asked me if i wanna hang out mind you im not supposed to get into car with boys and ive never "snuck out" before so im really hessitant becuase like i really big and alot of boys dont like that and also ive havent hung out with a guy for like 4 years idek. soon enough im like okay whatever like what the worst that could happen i shoot him my address and hes like bet omw the whole time im like gonna throw up becausue im so nervous about meeting this guy my heart is beating out of my chest like im not okay the he text me "im here" and i start freakig out but internally so im walking out of my house like omg omg omg plz im litterly shaking. i get into his car and the anxiety litterly just leaves my body, it was so weired i felt calm. i was like hey and he was like hey how are you and his voice was ssssoooo nice and he smelled amazing so hes like you gotta spot and im like yeah so i tell him directions LEMME TELLYALL THIS BOY WAS DRIVING HELLA FAST I WAS LIKE OHHH OKAY IM GONNA GET INTO A CAR  ACCIDENT TODAY!!! but thank god we didnt crash...kinda hiot but whatever i wont let him have the satisfaction!! anyways we park and hes liek im not gonna smoke today im like oh okay well if you not smokin then i wont thats fine anyways we talking about music and out favoriute artist thrn we just talking to ttalk i see him trying to like scoot closeer to me but im like ehhhhh lo key got butterflies. so we jjust talking about everythung and hes was so funny like he was makin jokes i swear i was laughing the whole night. he was talking most the time but i didnt mind cuz his voice was nice and im more of a listener anyways. we are just chillin , just vibin yk crackin jokes laughing i had alot of fun, its so funny cuz i tod him i can onkly stay out for 30 min cuz my parents...I WAS OUT FOR 1HR. JUST VIBING FOR 1 HOUR AND HIS ENERGY DIDNT EVEN CHANGE. but unfortunatly i  had to say bye cuz my parents were coming back soon (even tho they came back 4 hours later)  and hes like "oh you gotta go home" and i like "yeah ion wanna leave but my parents are gonna be home soon" like ir really did not wanna leave i was having a fun time haha so he drives me home and im ike yk thank you for hanging out with me and picking me up and hes like "yeah you wanna hug?" BITCH I SAID YES REAL QUICK!!!!! and he hugs me TIGHT ASF i almost burped i swear it was hella tight like okaaayyyyy. but yeah that was my night, i hope we hang out again becuase i reall did enjoy his time. i wish we wouldve made out but you win some and you lose some.  1 Comments

11/05/2020 01:30 PM  potential new S/o???? pt.3 Current mood:  annoyed litteraly fawk him, hes so boring litterly all he does is talk about himself he never askes me anything, and our convos last maybe MAYBE 30 SECONDS AND WE TALK TWICE A DAY, i can never find a good guy. litterly we were supposed to go on a date (mind you we knew about this weeks in advance) and 2 days before hes like " bring your friends so my friend does nt have to 3rd wheel.... IM SORRY WHAT??? NO ONE EVER SAID WE WERE BRINGING FRIENDS LITTERLY IF HE TOLD ME AT THE JUMP THAT HE WANTED TO GO ON A DOUBLE DATE HE COUNDVE SAID THAT I WOULDNT BE PISSED BUT THE FACT THAT YOU CAME TO ME 2 DAYS BEFORE WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GO IS BEYOND ME... and then the day before hes like oh im bringing like 2/3 friends ...WHEN DID THIS TURN INTO A FAWKING FEILD TRIP???? that was litterally the last straw and now i have been leaving him on read and ion think we have talked in like a week and i feel nothing. I honestly dodged a bullet, but anyways there was this new guys and him and i connected so fast and he was so funny, but then he was like "im not dating a highschooler" like sir im 18, and i dont act like a highschooler.... but ig ill hit him up after graduation..... but we are still good friends and i feel like he lo key got feelings for me 0 Comments

09/30/2020 01:59 PM  potential new S/o???? pt.2 Current mood:  confused the guy and i are doing okay, we have kind of ran out of things to talk about so it gets awkward at times but i love to talk to him, i would love to talk to him all day if i could but  idk... he  doesnt seem as interested in me as i am in him, i feel like he doesnt open up or care as much as i do and i want us both to put in the same amount of effort. althoguh he did say that he talks about our relationship to his friends and i think thats a big deal, but  then again maybe not boys like to gossip anyways. i think im gonna  start holding back more. i  think i  annoy  him  at times i dont try  to i just  have  alot to say, i think i got comfortable too fast and thats never good, time to try  out my  differnet  personalities  on him  and see which one is more effective....JOKING!! but  maybe  if i leave now the damage wont be so bad in the end.:////  then again i like the feeling he gives me, i havent felt it in  a long time, and i acually do care about him alot but its f***ing complicated. 0 Comments

09/27/2020 12:10 AM  potential new S/o???? Current mood:  flirty so i met this new guy, hes acually really sweet and i always enjoy talking to him. but im litteraly so awkward around him liek i never know what to say and i dont really know if he likes me back. but today i did post a video of myslef and he said i looked "SO BEAUTIFUL" LIKE OMG OMG OMG i litterly started cheesin so hard haha. i really hope he isnt a temporary person even if we dont date i still want to be friends with him. we have been talking all week and i honestly miss the feeling when i would get up and check my phone  to see if that certain person texted me and now its back, im acually excited to get up in the morning...OHH i almost forgot litterally the 3rd day in. (i think) we talked on the xbox like a phone call and... OMGGGGGGGGGGG his voice is so absolutly attractive and like i was so f***ing awksward n stuff.  we  havent  talked over the xbox since but were supposed to call eachother tmmro, so im very very excited  for that. though i dont want to be becuase. i feel like everytime i get a little too excited evrythubg goes to sh*t, and i want hims to stay as long as possible (if he wants to ofc)  but yeah  i think thats it... well goodnight 1 Comments

06/25/2020 03:49 PM  at my aunts Current mood:  annoyed i don't wanna be here but yk the vibes  0 Comments

06/24/2020 12:26 PM  he wasn't there Current mood:  annoyed the cute guy at my job wasnt there and i also almost got scammed at work so thats awesome, now im trying to learn how to do thin brows, i love how i write on this like i have an acual audience... if you come across this ignore it lmfaooooo   0 Comments

06/23/2020 12:50 PM  kinda figured it out Current mood:  blah ive spent too much time working on my theme for this page i think i need to go to bed 0 Comments

06/23/2020 04:39 PM  gtg to work Current mood:  hopeful i have work in like 20 min, hopefully it will be a good day!! well if it doesnt that cute guy will be there heheh  0 Comments

06/22/2020 04:07 PM  Help Current mood:  annoyed litterly cant figure out how to choose my profile layout so im kinda gettinng fustrated  0 Comments

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