I've Received My Character Developement
Current mood:  eccentric

Um u know that part in every1s favorite coming of age movie where the pink haired manic pixie narcissist gets a summer fling indie boy for character development???????? Well now its my turn :)

Like actually though miss me with that "manifesting is fake that all bs" sh*t, if u think that i did not manifest this mfing dreamboat of a boy into my life u are WRONG. Are there red flags? Without a doubt. He did admit that he personally identifies with the Joker (psychopath type beat ngl). But he likes surf curse and 100 gecs and playboi carti and that's my trifecta so i will literally worship the ground he walks on until I get ghosted. 

I sound absolutely ditzy. Feeling certifiably insane. But like he's respectful!!!!!! so i will make this simp post on a fake myspace website. Its not like anyone is going 2 see this anyways. I could spill some social security numbers and I doubt it would cause me any harm. Which means I'm going to feel no shame for this online simping behavior. Respectful men get blog posts written about them 

i dont make the rules

But this is why I think i am kinda of batsh*t. Mans pretty much handed me his heart, he explicitly told me he liked me a lot on multiple occasions and when i, who doesn't know how to take a compliment, told him that he can't say things like that because i would catch feelings, he pulled a "no that's fine, i want u 2 catch feelings". Emotional vulnerability is hot. And he has made it very clear that he is both a great guy and someone who thinks I'm alright. But he hasn't responded to my text for, god not even that long. Its been 24 minutes. and I'm already spiraling into theories about how he secretly hates me and this is his way of blowing me off. Its terrible here. The goal is to hide from him that I am insane, and pretend I am a chill girl that doesn't take everything personally. So far I'm doing really bad at that though and Im pretty sure that in a pink Whitney stupor i flat out said that I was just... self destructive and crazy.

So cool. Im gonna ride this one out. Uh. Shoutout universe for a guy that looks at a 5' 10 girl with a mullet and thick ass glasses and says "wow, this one is nice"

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/////////////////////////////////////// FIVE SONGS IM LOVING RIGHT NOW /////////////////////////////////////////////////
*eleanor rigby ~ the mfing beatles*
*Ibitbt ~ 3l3d3p*
*party isn't over / campfire / bimmer ~ tyler the creator*
*yummy ~ ayesha erotica*
*sex for homework ~ mindless self indulgence*
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