RJZ R.I.P. 10/24/61 - 10/31/2020
Category: Real Life
Current mood:  crying

     My dad was still so young! He passed away through the night. I don't know anything much more than that at the moment. This week is going to be hard. We had a relationship that was up and down. We fought with each other. But we were repairing our relationship! We were on a good path, so I don't have any regrets. He was involving me in his new shop he reopened and sharing pictures of the cars he was working on. He told me of all the surgeries he was going thru and updating me on how he was doing. I had just talked to my step mom asking about him the day before he passed and he was doing ok. He was in a lot of pain though. 

     I just got off the phone with my step mom and she wants to get an autopsy done to see if his death was related to the surgery he just had, and whether the surgery resulted in a blot clot that moved to his brain, but she can't afford it. I have made calls to as many people as I could. I tried finding my uncle Mike, and I think I did. Found a phone number and called, in which his voicemail had his voice saying his name. I didn't leave a voicemail though, I just text him saying who I was and to either call me back or my step mom.

     My dad was a good man! He had his issues, but who doesn't. He was a damn good father! The one thing I keep telling myself right now is how he is in heaven with Kyra Jade, my daughter that passed away! And with his dad who passed away a few months ago as well. So, Kyra Jade has a nana (my hubbie's mom), grandpa Z (my dad), great grandpa Z (my grandpa), a kick as great aunt (my aunt Nancy), and a cool uncle (Ryan's brother). All lost this year. 

     I am tired!