01/21/2021 12:28 PM  Cedar Point or Bust 2021 Current mood:  eccentric      So, I applied for Cedar Point Ride Operations yesterday! Their recruiting team set up my interview for Monday at 10am, my time. I am so excited to, hopefully, work there for another season. I don't have children and my husband and I have no problems being apart for 7 months, he of course would visit me for vacation but other than that, we would just phone each other and video chat!      I am really hoping to be working Steel Vengeance this summer. It is Mean Streak reimagined! I worked the Mean Streak crew one season so I would love to come back and work Steel Vengeance! Gosh, I haven't been back to Cedar Point since 2011, my last season. So much has changed! I promise that if I am employed there, I won't take anything for granted! I will be taking pictures and enjoying time with new friends! Just thinking about what could be has got me so full of energy and excitement!      Some things I am sooooooooooooo looking forward to are: Employee ride nights (3 rides are open for unlimited riding for employees and it is a party in the park with free food, games, face painting, and contests to win prizes), working with a crew and getting crew shirts and hoodies, Going into the park on days off and enjoying rides for free, seeing the 4th of July fireworks no matter if I am working or off, employee only bar where many memories have been made - not to mention my public intoxication misdemeanor I earned there (oof, I learned my lesson though), moving into the dorms and decorating my part of the room, having roomates, being free, and just plain old making memories.      Some of the places I want to go to outside of Cedar Point while I am there are: Ghostly Manor (365 day haunted house), Norwalk Raceway, Put-in-Bay, Kings Island (which as an employee of Cedar Fair, I get in for free as well), and anything new I have yet to experience since I have last been there. Last night, I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about how I want to decorate my part of the room. I already know I want to put string lights up and pictures of Ryan (my hubby) and me! And posters of Gerard Way and the band! I have my locker planned out to be super cute.       I love the dorm life! I love having roomies! My hubby and I want to always have roomies living with us. My momma lives with us! When we move into our first house, we hope to have other roomies! But, that's one of the reasons I am so excited for the season! Roomies! I love being around people who share the same interests as me. And trust me, if someone didn't like roller coasters or the atmosphere an amusement park brings, they wouldn't be working there! Cedar Point is where I found out who I was! My dad kicked me out when I was 19 and all I had was Cedar Point and the friends I made there. I was free! I became the person I am today, developed my own world views, and became my true self! There is so much freedom in that!      If you are young and have nothing planned for the summer, or if you have a job you hate and are 18+ (18+ in order to live in dorms, anything younger and you'll have to be local), I promise you, you will not be disappointed! The experience and the memories you make! The freedom you have, while also learning responsibility! The last time I worked for Cedar Point, I made $7.75 as an Assistant Team Leader ($7.25 as a normal ride op) and now they are paying $12-$15 an hour. It is easy money! Fun money! Yes, you will most likely work overtime a lot, but there are always people like me who want to work your hours. So, say you are working 1130am-close and I am working open to 6pm. I will most likely want your hours and ask if you would rather go home at 6pm or stay for your entire shift! I am always chasing that money and with Cedar Point, it is so easy to do! And fun!      If you made it this far, first off... thank you for reading! If you have any questions, I am full of answers! 0 Comments

01/09/2021 12:17 PM  23 - The age I was when I took my first drink! Current mood:  vibrant      Ok, so I never drank alcohol before the age of 23. June 21, 2009 I was working at Cedar Point! It is one summer I will never forget! I made the schedule for my ride crew, so I made sure I got off at 1:30pm so I could go home and get ready for my big birthday! I knew I was gonna drink and get trashed! I had 3 days off, contracted (which saved me job but that is later in the story), just to anticipate a hangover or feeling awful!      So, I was in my dorm, getting ready! I wore a sparkly white dress that was a halter top! Oh the dress was gorgeous! I also had a pink phone case that had a rhinestone playboy bunny on it! That will be important later too! I got dressed, did my hair and makeup (which wasn't much, just eyeliner and gloss), and then headed over to my friend Talon's apartment. It was in the same area as my dorm. It was Cedar Point employee housing. He had a bunch of people over there already and that is where I learned about pre-gaming! They were taking shots of 151! There was one other girl there at the time, Stefani. Everyone was making a fuss about never seeing a girl take a straight shot of 151 without puking after. I kinda figured they were just saying that to get us to take a shot. I had no idea.      So Stefani and I took them up on that! We both took a shot. She actually puked! I felt like I wanted it, but I held it in. I played it off cool. No one knew I wanted to puke. I even talked myself up, drank about half of my coke and poured 151 in it so it was full again! I drank a few drinks and then it was time to stand up for something. Once I stood up, boy I was in a whirlwind! The room was spinning! At that point, I got a text from another friend to come to his room for something special. (He's gay so it wasn't sexual lol). He had some real absinthe! Cedar Point hires internationals and someone one was able to get in some absinthe. Let me tell you, it was gross! Even with the sugar! He told me it should taste like chocolate cake! NOT! Hahaha. I only took one shot.      I went back to my friend's apartment and we were playing games and drinking. Then, about 9pm, we went to our employee bar and we started dancing and drinking. People were buying me drinks and introducing me to different shots and cocktails! I remember at exactly 11pm, I was drinking a beer (I forget which one) and I looked at my watch. I remember saying, "Wow, it's only 11 o clock and I feel great!" That's the last thing I rememeber. I had blacked out!      The next thing I remember was sitting on a curb with a police officer asking me questions. My hands were folded together and every answer I gave, my head was nodding with every syllable. I remember thinking that I would not lie to the cops. I was beyond honest. I also remember my crew that I worked with standing behind the cops, and my team leader telling the cops she would get me to my bed safely and make sure I got to court. The cop had taken my work ID badge and I had to go to court the next morning to get it back.      So, they escorted me to my dorm and to bed. I woke up and had no idea what to wear to court. I was still in my dress. My roommate was getting ready for work and suggested that I just wear my work uniform. I was still very drunk! I wouldn't say hungover, because I know what that feels like now so I know I wasn't at the time. And the hangover hadn't started yet. I had no idea where the courthouse was so I went to work and asked my boss to drive me to court. He did, but said I had to figure out how to get home. I said ok, all that mattered to me was not being late for court.      Something to note is: I did not have my phone the morning of court. I had lost it at some point during the night at the bar! I get to court and the judge decides to go in alphabetical order. My last name began with Z. So it was going to be a loooooong morning. Thank goodness I didn't have to work that day! I ended up falling alseep in the court because I was still soooooo soooo sooooo drunk. I woke right up when I heard my last name, or the butchering of it. It's a long polish name. I stood up and walked up to the judge as requested. He asked me, "Was it worth it?" I replied, "All up until I was arrested!" SO he asked me to set my hands out, palms down. This was so weird lol but now it was so funny! I did as he asked, he slapped the tops of my hands gently, in a playful manner, and said, "Don't let it happen again!" He told me to pay a fine and I would be good to go. $92 dollars.      Now that was over, I had to figure out how to get home. I didn't have a phone. I didn't remember how I got there. And all the other Cedar Point employees that had to go to court as well were gone, since I was the last one to be called. I didn't know anyone in court either. So, I asked some random person if they knew where the dorms were and if they could point me in the right direction. They did and I began walking. It was a really hot day! The headache came instantly as I walked outside! The nausea! The icky feeling. It was the worst. It was a 3 mile walk back to the dorms in the hot steamy sun! Once I got home, I went to bed!      Once I woke up, I went to ask my friends what happened, because I had no clue. They told me that I was throwing money all over the dance floor. I was flashing the bartender, who wanted me to, for free drinks! That's when I lost my phone! No one knew if it had been found tho. They said once the bar closed, I was crawling around on the ground meowing at people. Then, we walked over the employee bridge that leads from the bar to the dorm parking lot. I had fallen and couldn't get myself back up. So that's when the cop found me and got me up and then sat me back down safely on the curb in the parking lot.      Almost 12 years later and I have never put myself in that position again. I always made sure I had someone to drive me to and from and that my friends wouldn't let that happen again. Or, I just didn't go out to drink and stayed inside in our dorm or apartment and drank! So much safer! I never got in trouble again! 0 Comments

11/01/2020 11:28 PM  RJZ R.I.P. 10/24/61 - 10/31/2020 Current mood:  crying      My dad was still so young! He passed away through the night. I don't know anything much more than that at the moment. This week is going to be hard. We had a relationship that was up and down. We fought with each other. But we were repairing our relationship! We were on a good path, so I don't have any regrets. He was involving me in his new shop he reopened and sharing pictures of the cars he was working on. He told me of all the surgeries he was going thru and updating me on how he was doing. I had just talked to my step mom asking about him the day before he passed and he was doing ok. He was in a lot of pain though.       I just got off the phone with my step mom and she wants to get an autopsy done to see if his death was related to the surgery he just had, and whether the surgery resulted in a blot clot that moved to his brain, but she can't afford it. I have made calls to as many people as I could. I tried finding my uncle Mike, and I think I did. Found a phone number and called, in which his voicemail had his voice saying his name. I didn't leave a voicemail though, I just text him saying who I was and to either call me back or my step mom.      My dad was a good man! He had his issues, but who doesn't. He was a damn good father! The one thing I keep telling myself right now is how he is in heaven with Kyra Jade, my daughter that passed away! And with his dad who passed away a few months ago as well. So, Kyra Jade has a nana (my hubbie's mom), grandpa Z (my dad), great grandpa Z (my grandpa), a kick as great aunt (my aunt Nancy), and a cool uncle (Ryan's brother). All lost this year.       I am tired! 0 Comments

10/10/2020 01:06 PM  Just thinking out loud... Current mood:  contemplative So, to this day, I have never done drugs or smoked a cigarette. Cigarettes, I will never touch though. But there are some drugs that I have always wanted to try. Is that bad? Even today.... I want to try them. But I won't ever because I am sooooooooooo afraid to get caught some how and lose my job and future. But like, part of me knows that I wouldn't get caught. Some of the drugs I have always wanted to try but never have are: mushrooms, weed, x, and other hallucinogenics. Not anything like coke, heroine, meth or anything crazy like that. I do think weed should be legal everywhere for recreational use! I have always believed that. First and foremost, it has so many medical benefits, is great for people who may have depression, MS, anxiety, seizures, and cancer. But, I think weed is something that we as humans should not be judged on for smoking or using it for edibles. We should be able to smoke it without fear of losing a job. I think it would make the world a better place.  Edited to add: I also have a VERY addictive personality which is why I also choose not to use any drugs. Because if I enjoy the feelings I feel while on the drugs,, I will most definitely continuously chase the high. I know my weaknesses. I won't challenge them. 2 Comments

10/04/2020 05:36 PM  Death Among the Living Current mood:  crushed      My husband's mom passed away yesterday morning. When Ryan told me, I cried. I was angry. I had so many questions that will never be answered. And then I realized... I had never cried for anyone in my family who passed away! I was never hurt by it. I didn't know my family. Sure, I have tons of happy memories, mostly with my cousins my age... but my family was not close with me. My grandpa passed away this year and no one even told me where the funeral would be! Like, I was not allowed to go to the funeral!      I obviously cried when our daughter passed away! But, how is it that I cried so hard for someone I knew for a short period of time comparitively to my family? His mom and I were very close. We had many deep conversations. She lived with us for a few years! I truly, and deeply love her! I cried so much! She was so young, 57 years old! We don't know how she died yet, just that about 36 hours before, she said she wasn't feeling good!      I am so angry! I refused to say good bye to her when she decided she would move to Texas with her dumbass selfish boyfriend. This guy refused to stop smoking around her while she was going through chemo and radiation and after when she was cleared! He just kept smoking inside the house around her. Then he got super sick himself, due to smoking. He lost his job and could no longer afford living where he was. She he went to Texas to live with his mom. She went with him! I didn't want her to go. I didn't want her to leave Ryan, her son! I knew it was a bad idea!      I firmly believe if she hadn't left, she would still be here, happy! Breathing! She said she wanted to move back the last time we talked and we wanted to buya house with enough room for her to move back with us! That was our plan! But, now, we get to await for another container of ashes to put next to Kyra's on our dresser. 2020 officially sucks! 0 Comments

10/04/2020 05:15 PM  I Hate The Company I Work For! Current mood:  angry So, I called my boss to ask for tomorrow off, using a vacation day! My mother in law passed away and we cannot afford to take any time off to go to Texas and do anything! So, my hubby called to take tomorrow off to grieve, and they were more than happy to give it to him! I called my boss to ask to use a vacation day so I could also take the day off tomorrow to grieve with my husband and for myself since I was very close to his mom and I loved her like my own! He had no empathy or sympathy what so ever and said that I needed to call his boss and that I may not get it off because they were low on armed guards! So I called his boss, and he said it was fine without question or hesitation. He just confirmed my location and okay'd it! My boss wasn't even concerned at all and not willing to even give me any condolescenses. Like he doesn't have a heart at all! This is why I want to leave this company and do something better for myself! Uggh! 0 Comments

09/25/2020 08:55 PM  100 nosey questions survey Current mood:  annoyed ***100 Nosey Questions*** by longtallsally28 The Basics Name: Jozie Age: 34 Month of birth: June Any Siblings?: 3 Parents still married?: Nope Occupation: Armed Guard Do you like your job?: Now, I love it! Any pets?: 4 Hair color: Red Eye color: Brown Shoe size: 7.5 Any Tattoos?: 2 Any Piercings?: 10 Current mood: Annoyed Current wardobe choice: Sweatshirt and comfy pants What are you listening to?: Degrassi Who did you last speak with on the phone?: My orthodontist office What do you currently smell like?: hatred Last.... Movie you watched: Hocus Pocus Magazine you looked at: --- Thing you ate: Salad Book you read: The Truth Beneath the Lies T.v. show you watched: Degrassi Time you cried: Today Took a shower: Today Got a real letter (a.k.a Snail Mail): Every day! Ate at a restaurant (not fast food): Supposed to be today CD you bought: The Pretty Reckless What is/was.... The best thing to happen to you today?: Kisses from my husband Your most prized possession: Baby Yoda Your first vehicle: Dodge Avenger Your current vehicle: Toyota Camry Your favorite quote: Mothers, lock up your sons! You bedtime (on average): 10pm Your best trait/characteristic: My smile Your worst trait/characteristic: Depression Do You.... Store things under your bed: My work shoes Daydream: All the time! Have a computer at home: Yes, I am currently on it! Live in the city, suburbs or country: City Live in a home, apartment, duples or mobile home: Apartment Own a cell phone: Yup! Pay my own bill too Have a good luck charm: Nope! Collect anything: Baby Yoda stuff and books Attend high school or college: Graduated from both, going back for Chemistry Make good grades: 3.6/4.0 for my two majors Have You Ever.... Had a surgery?: 4 Had teeth pulled?: My wisdom teeth Broke the law intentionally: All the time! (lead foot) Ran away from home?: Nope. Broke a bone?: Fractured my ankle Cheated on a test/exam: Haha yeah! Had a friend pass away: Not that I know of! Been issued a citation/traffic ticket: 2 Been in an auto accident: Never as the driver Lied to someone: All the time! People can't handle the truth Been lied to: Duh! Who hasn't!? Your Favorite.... Place to be: Roller Coasters Place to visit: Cedar Point Place to chill: My bed Non-Alcoholic drink: Hot Chocolate Alcoholic drink: Jaegur bombs Type of food: Mexican Meal/Food dish: Jambalaya Dessert: fudge brownies Shampoo & Conditioner: I dunno, whatever is cheapest Toothpaste: Crest 3D White Salad dressing: Italian Ice cream: Ben & Jerry's Americone Dream Fast food establishment: McDonalds Color: Pink Season: Autumn Holiday: Halloween Perfume/Cologne: Juicy Couture Video Game: Plague T.V. show: Survivor Smells: Blownout match Article of clothing: Comfy pants Book: Lovers and players Children's Book: The Rainbow fish/ Chika Chika Boom Boom Candy: Carmello Car: Audi Do You Believe.... In Karma: Yes In God: Not the Christian version In Heaven & Hell: No That aliens exist (extraterrestrial variety, not illegal aliens): Yes That ghosts exist: Yes In horoscopes: Yes In others you know (family, friends, co-workers etc): sure In yourself: Yes Your Opinion.... On the death penalty: Keep it! On reciting the Pledge of Allegiance in schools: Needs to be recited daily On homosexuals in the military: In formation, you can't tell who is gay/les etc! The war in the Middle East: ... Schwarzeneggar...Governor or Terminator: Governor! He was awesome Current gas/fuel prices: Not bad compared to Bush era! Take this survey | Find surveys Pimp My Profile 0 Comments

09/18/2020 11:20 PM  Somewhat put together! Current mood:  accomplished OK! So, short of paying someone to make me a dope custom layout for my profile and my blog... I am starting to get back in the swing of things in creating the aesthetic I am working towards. Sex and Emo! lol. I am a very emotional person, but unlike when I was in high school, I also live with depression. It sucks, but my creativity shines the most when I am in my depressed state. And I just love sex lol. With girls. With my husband! It's just amazing! So, I hope I protrayed that and showed you a bit of what my brain looks like! My Chemical Romance is one of my favorite bands as well! So had to have an MCR layout! Headed to bed. Gotta go to school.... erm work I mean... in the morning! 0 Comments

08/30/2020 06:21 PM  Living A Lie (A poem) Current mood:  apathetic I look in the mirror and see my reflection And all I want is to feel a connection. To the outside world, I may seem ok. But if you really knew, I'm fading away. The flame I had that once burned bright Is barely more than a flicker of light. Everything around me is dull and dreary, As my soul grows lone and weary. As I go on with this life. All I feel is turmoil and strife. I cannot tell whether my smile is real, So I look to my reflection to understand how I feel. To you my eyes seem happy and bright, But to read my mind would give you a fright. Long gone are the days of true happiness and glee. When my daughter passed on, so did a part of me. No one even suspects; I put on a good show. Everyone thinks I am strong, But that's only what I want them to know. Every day I wake up is a true struggle. I'd rather be somewhere else; let me walk through that tunnel. They say that only the strong survive, So I guess that's why I'm still alive. But every day I put on a smile, And wonder when I will walk my last mile. Life is precious I know this is true. And that is why I live like I do. So just know every day is a lie. Instead of smiling, I just want to cry. I wish I could show my true emotion. But that would cause you true commotion. I'm empty inside, but only you see The lies I live, and forever will be. The heaviness I feel will burden thee. Which is why I wish my soul was free. Free from the hurt and all the pain, And all the thoughts that put me in vain. And now I'm pushed up against the wall, Falling faster, please! Just let me fall! Once I hit the bottom, then you will see! Then, and only then, will my soul be free. No more hurt, and no more pain. Just the moment, I meet my daughter again. Author: Jozie Jade 0 Comments

08/11/2020 03:21 PM  Life After Braces: What I look forward to most! Current mood:  excited So, I have had my braces on since February 2019! I have had braces before, when I was 13, however they were removed after payments were not being made on them. So I decided, since I like to smile A LOT, I would get braces again and I would make sure I didn't lapse on any payments. And so far, I have never made a late payment! $250 a month is steep but worth it to me. My teeth are so important to me and my worst nightmare is having teeth knocked out or rotted out!   That being said, I could probably brush my teeth more. I try to do it every day, at least once, but sometimes I really am too tired to do it! I know! I know. But brushing your teeth is a process that takes 10 times longer than normal. You have to floss, and to get the string in, you have to sew it through the braces in order to completely floss between each tooth. And getting that floss in the tiny spaces in the very back of the mouth takes forever. Then I use the water pik to ensure everything has been dislodged, then brush my teeth, use listerine for a minute, and then the teeth whitening mouth wash! It takes me almost 30 minutes to thoroughly brush my teeth from start to finish! But, again, it is worth it to me. And when my braces come off, I intend on getting them whitened even more at my dentist.   No joke, typing 'dentist's made me think about when my next dentist appointment is. So I called and ended up moving it because it was at 11am and I work at 10am. So now it is at 7am! Man, gonna be an early day because I also work 10am to 8pm with an hour drive! Oh well. It is all worth it to keep my smile looking amazing!!!   Anyways, I want to list of some of things I can't wait to do again once my braces are off want! Like, getting my teeth whitened! Eating beef Jerry! Chewing bubble gum again! Man I miss chewing gum! Eating heath bars and skites/Starburst! But I am most excited to get my tongue repierced! Just being able to eat everything again without worrying about popping a bracket. Beef jerky is the one thing I crave most though. 0 Comments

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