07/16/2020 12:08 AM  Back Day 5: Also uneventful. Ooh! I went to the chiropractor and got my back did and also my legs were out of line w each other so they fixed that. I also got Starbucks so I was happy about that haha. I forgot to post and then remembered but then I didn't want to so I forgot again and now it's the next day technically but who cares. I'm feeling ugly and unmotivated  but too bad. Goodnight 0 Comments

07/14/2020 11:25 PM  Uneventful Current mood:  bored Day 4: Today wasn't very eventful. I snuggled my cats a lot cuz they were being really sweet. I also hurt my back. Again. Its somewhat of a reoccuring thing and its excrutiatingly painful in my lower right back and its hard to do much of anything. Even sitting or walking. Tonight I made pasta but didn't eat it because it wasn't for me haha. I recently saved a bunch of recipes of desserts I want to try. I've found a liking for cooking during this quarantine. I always kinda liked it but was always discouraged by my friend haha. Thinking back to 3rd and 4th grade we were really toxic for like 8 year olds. Sometimes I read my diary from 2nd grade. That year this dude I really liked moved away and I was "heartbroken". Pretty interesting. I never could keep a diary. I would either forget about it or lose it. I'm trying to remember what happened today but I can't really. I put on makeup for like the first time ever. Not the first time but you know like in a while. I haven't been taking good care of myself this quarantine. It's not even makeup. It's like hiding my bags because I can't fall asleep till like 5 in the morning also my cramps were so bad so that played a part. I hung a sock on the wall yesterday becasue it was really small and looks funny up there. That was random. Ok well I think that's it. Bye. Thats a disgusting emoji 0 Comments

07/14/2020 01:50 PM  mediocre day Current mood:  blank Day 3: It's a late post because I forgot but whoops oh well. Today wasn't as bad or lonely and I figured out why I've been extra sad and angry. It's that time of the month lol. Anyway today was better and i didn't fight with my parents that much. A friend fell through on her promise again which is fine i don't care too much. I watched a lot of Harry Styles tiktoks and clips. He really is like a perfect human. He has a sense of humor, is kind, talented. idrk and also he's british. I feel like british people are just like better in general or like people with accents. Because for people with american accents at least, american accents are normal. and so they're not as special speaking wise. I mean like accents just make everything a person says 10x better. Like harry niall or robert irwin lol. once i spent a day talking in an australian accent and then it felt weird to hear an american accent. It was like a little dip into an aussies point of view. the prime minister of new zealand is a badass boss. shes honestly one of the best people on this planet. she gets things done and isn't stuck up and isn't annoying AND isn't racist like some leaders... so all in all today was a pretty good day. but my mood was blank because the six day search for Naya Rivera, who played Santana (arguably the best character) on Glee's, body has seemingly been concluded. They found a body today at lake piru. today is also the 7 year mark or anniversary of cory monteith's passing. that seems a little odd that she was found on this day. Also her son got back into the boat at only age 4 and naya was a very good swimmer so the whole situation is really odd. I feel like a four year old wouldn't be able to get themselves into a boat from a lake without assistance. So i feel it was maybe a dangerous situation and naya quickly put her son back into the boat and then something happened from there. hopefully the autopsy reveals answers. It's just so sad. 2020 has been such a rough year. In some ways change is being brought about though, which is phenomanal (im not sure how you spell tht lol) but corona is just really taking a massive toll on america and we are only getting worse. I firmly believe that we will not get anywhere with the type of leadership we have as well as the decisions being made right now. Hopefully progress will be made. One of my dreams is to go on tour and do concerts. That would be so special for me. I think that would be the thing that would make me the happiest. But i don't know if people will ever be able to tour again, or at least the way they have in the past. obviously this will come and go in waves like the flu it's just dependent on when scientists find a vaccine. I believe they have some ideas that they are testing but right now it is heartbreaking to see people die from this virus. Like Nick Cordero. He lost his life recently after a very long battle with this virus. he seemed to be making progress but unfortunately passed after his body was just to weak. It also is infuriating to see people refusing to wear masks and calling this virus a hoax. I feel that if they experienced it first hand maybe that would change there mind but i think they are truly karens. Im putting that in the funniest way i can. bring some light and humor to the situation. I think that's enough for tonight.  0 Comments

07/12/2020 10:28 PM  kinda lonely Current mood:  sad Day 2: Sometimes I feel like my friends dont really care. I mean they probably to. I guess its more of a feeling of they dont want to be with me and would rather be with one of our other friends. Like personalized names for someone else but not for me. Which is fine i dont really care but then last night I was going through a list of my friends and thinking who should i talk to cuz it was somewhat of a rough day and i needed a hug. I was feeling super annoying and unwanted. i was at my friends house last night and i felt like she didnt rly want me there and kinda wanted me to leave which was fine i did lol. So i was going thru my friends ya and i was like nope can't talk to her shes talking to sumone else and wont respond to me. cant talk to her either i alr opened up to her and she made me feel worse. cant talk to her either bc she will annoy me and just smile about it. and so i was kiinda stuck because i was like wow i really have no one to talk to. so i started talking to this one friend and i said some pretty deep stuff and they legit said ok well i have to go to bed gn ttyl. wut? after i just pured myself out u have to go to bed? kinda rude but ok wutever. so then i stayed up till i was exhausted cuz i cant fall asleep cuz anxiety and panic attacks. then in the morning it was just like a lull day and my parents were rly annoying and my mom was rly bugging me and they kept yelling and i was super pissed so ya today was kinda ruff. 0 Comments

07/11/2020 07:10 PM  hi i dont really want to go to school. i want to do youtube kinda but i dont have money to buy an editing app and i don't have any motivation so yea. ive been listening to a lot of one direction and their solo music during quarantine. i really hope there is a reunion on july 23. their anniversary. maybe ill post a blog everyday. that  would be lame but i already am so y tf not. im fs gonna post on july 23 to see if one direction had a reunion. if they didn't ill be sad. they said eighteen months. i think its been a little more than that. 0 Comments

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