kinda lonely
Current mood:  sad

Day 2: Sometimes I feel like my friends dont really care. I mean they probably to. I guess its more of a feeling of they dont want to be with me and would rather be with one of our other friends. Like personalized names for someone else but not for me. Which is fine i dont really care but then last night I was going through a list of my friends and thinking who should i talk to cuz it was somewhat of a rough day and i needed a hug. I was feeling super annoying and unwanted. i was at my friends house last night and i felt like she didnt rly want me there and kinda wanted me to leave which was fine i did lol. So i was going thru my friends ya and i was like nope can't talk to her shes talking to sumone else and wont respond to me. cant talk to her either i alr opened up to her and she made me feel worse. cant talk to her either bc she will annoy me and just smile about it. and so i was kiinda stuck because i was like wow i really have no one to talk to. so i started talking to this one friend and i said some pretty deep stuff and they legit said ok well i have to go to bed gn ttyl. wut? after i just pured myself out u have to go to bed? kinda rude but ok wutever. so then i stayed up till i was exhausted cuz i cant fall asleep cuz anxiety and panic attacks. then in the morning it was just like a lull day and my parents were rly annoying and my mom was rly bugging me and they kept yelling and i was super pissed so ya today was kinda ruff.