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memories?
Current mood:
depressed
i fell in love on september 6th, 2014. i met him before that, and we never spoke. but thats the day i knew i was in love. i thought he was the prettiest person i'd ever seen in my life. over the years, we became best friends and we were inseperable. he walked me to class, held my hand, kept his arms around me, would stay late after school just to be with me, called me every night after he got off work. he meant the world to me and i think he knew i loved him but we never spoke about it. i graduated and time went by and we drifted but i still loved him. i had dreams about him regularly and sometimes we'd contact each other and find out we both had similar dreams about each other, strangely very often. at the end of last year, we became close again, and this time it got serious. we never even officially said we were dating, but he talked about us moving in together and having children and what our home would look like and what we would name our kids and how we would raise them and what we wanted for our future together. then he left me. suddenly, with no real warning. he just stopped speaking to me, left me on read when i asked what was wrong, ignored my calls, and eventually blocked me. the love of my life abandoned me.
but recently he's unblocked me and he hasn't said anything to me. i don't understand what he's doing. i don't know why he unblocked me. i have a horrible urge to message him because i still feel like he's my soulmate but the way he left me.... he made me feel worthless. i just went back and read our old messages and i feel sick. what did i do to deserve that?
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