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07/08/2019 01:49 PM  myspace questions yaaaaay Current mood:  bouncy everybody loves 2 talk about themselves What were you doing an hour ago? Driving to work  When did you get up today? EH I set my alarm for 9:30 but didn't really get up until 10 or 11 lol Is there anyone that could make your day if they showed up at your house? OH absolutely. Unfortunately either they're too far away or probably wouldn't randomly come over to surprise me :( Do you live west of Ohio? nope! Do you live east of Colorado? Yes! Does your middle name begin with a A, M, or S? nope How old was the last person you rode in a car with? 24 What color was the last vehicle you were in? black! Do you have big plans for the weekend? Probably swimming. And crafting and painting things.  How many of your top friends have tattoos? oh jeez i have no idea lemme know guys  How long have you lived at your current residence? my whole life fam  How long has your ex been your ex? I have many exes, the last one ended...4 years ago I think? When was the last time you were up at 5am? Probably within the last few days. I've had trouble sleeping  What was the last movie you saw in theaters and who did you go with? Probably the last Avengers movie, went with my brother, boyfriend, and boyfriend's buddies  When was the last time you went bowling? Ooh I think it was last year for my boyfriend's birthday How about swimming? a few weeks ago! Have you ever been to the Grand Canyon? no not yet The Eiffel Tower? no but i would loooove to  The Great Wall of China? no but another one id love to see When you go fishing, do you make someone else get the fish off the hook? Haha I used to go fishing as a kid and I wasn't too afraid of getting them off the hook but I was bad at it so my dad usually had to help How old were you in 1999? 1 lmaoo How many funerals have you been to this year? I think one When was the last time you spent a night stargazing? I did that last night! Are you taller than 5'6"? i'm pleading the fifth on this one  What was the last thing you cooked? vegetables and rice it was bomb Who were the last three people to call you? Mom, boyfriend, and best friend What were you doing last night at 10pm? Watching a show about UFOS Did you go to daycare when you were little? Nope, my mom stayed at home with us for a few years Do you have a favorite pillow you always sleep with? YES I have two I have a My Pillow and a Pusheen pillow When was the last time you slept in someone else’s bed? When I stayed over at my boyfriend's momma's house  Are there any candles in the room you’re in? no i'm at my office :c we need candles though If you turn around, what is behind you? the rest of my office lol Would you dye your hair hot pink for $50? oh heck yes i'd love to try that Have you ever had someone like you that you didn’t like back? yeah :/ Do you usually fall for people who also fall for you? Luckily more often than not. But it doesn't always end well Do you have any step or half siblings? nope How many people have you kissed in the last 48 hours? kissed my momma on the cheek and kissed my boyfriend a lot!! If you switch ‘e’ with 'a’, 'n’ with 'c’, & 'l’ with 'x’ what’s your name?           Still Sam lol Would you ever visit a nude beach? lol I actually have When was the last time someone gave you a compliment? yesterday! my boyfriend is sweet  Do you take any prescription meds? ugh a whole damn lot  What color is your underwear? I had to check lmao pink Who was the last person you dreamt about? AN old friend who I don't talk to anymore... it made me sad because I miss him and in the dream he said he missed me too and he wasn't mad at me and everything was okay.. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? I actually don't know I think it belong to my mom  Where was the last place you spent more than $50? hm... haven't had much money lately so I don't know. Groceries probably Where is your favorite place to be kissed other than the usual place? forehead c:  Do you hate getting hickeys? on the contrary, i love em  Who was the last person to hug you? boyfriend Are there any buttons on the clothes you’re wearing? just my jeans! How about zippers? still just jeans  What percent of your day includes music? a whole lot. I listen to music at work my whole shift, and at home I sit outside and listen to music as much as I can. Also in the car.  Have you had any fruit today? not yet, I brought an orange with me tho so I'll probably eat it soon haha Who is on your mind right now? an old friend  Do you keep a diary/journal? yeah, many at a time In how many years will you be thirty? 9 years oh jeez Do you set your marshmallows on fire when you roast them? i must admit yes Do you prefer your tea sweetened or unsweetened? usually unsweetened  Have you ever dated someone whose name began with ’D’? I don't think so  Have you ever kissed someone whose name began with 'K’? yes Have you ever hugged someone whose name began with 'E’? my boyf! What scent is your favorite perfume/cologne? I wear opium oil all the time it is my favorite scent to wear everrrr Have you showered today? no i am a greasy rat If you went on a blind date, and it turned out to be your ex, you would: depends on the ex lol When was the last time you took a nap? yesterday What are you plans after this? keep doing random sh*t at work  0 Comments

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04/10/2019 04:44 PM  Pain and Books and Writing and Other Things Hello there buddies. I'm back with an actual blog post now and not just get-to-know-me questions. There's nothing going on at work. I'm just listening to the radio and reading one of Richard Ayoade's books. I'm feeling very odd, like I might cry. Which is weird because I woke up feeling pretty decent. I might just be PMSing. Or just having a mood swing. That's not out of the ordinary. I've got about an hour before I go home. I think it'll go quickly.  Yesterday I felt like absolute crap physically. My punk ass pain condition decided to really let me have it (I'm in the process of weening off a medication that my body grew to rely on). I was not feeling confident that it would get any better, but when I woke up this morning I was pleased to discover that it had. Nothing too major, but slight improvements. However, just the diseases presence causes me anxiety. Knowing that at any moment it could spring up and attack me makes me never able to fully relax. Within the last hour or so I've started feeling a burning sensation on my face, particularly around my eyes. This has happened before. But it immediately started upsetting me. The more I panic the worse it gets, but I don't know how to just fully let go and chill. Guess I have to start practicing. Not having control of something is not something I generally like. This is just a problem I've always had. But I really need to start working on it. I need to convince myself that not knowing what's going to happen is not bad. Not everything unknown is dangerous.  Ugh, I'm just getting more nervous as the time goes on.  I think I'm gonna stop here. I'm sorry. I just don't wanna keep talking at the moment. 0 Comments

04/09/2019 07:45 PM  Another List of Questions Current mood:  frustrated 63 Annoying Questions Survey  1. Song that always makes you sad? Pieces of You by Epik High. Also, When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne and Desert Island Questionnaire by Conor Oberst.  2. Last thing you bought? With my own money, gas haha 3. Last person you argued with? My brother 4. Do you put Butter before putting the peanut butter on? Ew no why  5. One of your stuffed animals' names as a kid? Panda-E! 6. Did you ever own at one time a Barenaked Ladies Cd? Lol nope, never was my thing 7. Favorite day of the week? I'm gonna be basic and say Friday 8. Favorite Sundae topping? Peanut Butter! 9. Did you take Piano lessons? Yup, as a young child 10. Most frequent song played? Oh god I dunno lemme check Spotify, please hold. Okay so looks like it's either Choke by IDKHBTFM or Dig Up Her Bones by the Misfits 11. T.V. show you secretly enjoy? House Hunters, hehe 12. Would you rather play basketball or hockey? Hockey all the way 13. Date someone older or younger? I always dated people who were older 14. One place you could travel right now? I'd go to the mountains, I miss it up there.  15. Do you use umbrellas? Sometimes! If I remember one haha  16. Do you know all the words to the Canadian national anthem? Not at all haha  17. Favorite Cheese? Good ol' Vermont sharp cheddar  18. The Smith's or the Cure? Ooh that's rough, it really depends what mood I'm in. I like both bands, but I possibly like The Cure just a tad bit more 19. Do you prefer Blondes or Brunettes? No preference really 20. Best job you ever had? I'd say it was my first job working at a grocery store when I was 16. I made so many friends there and had so many great times 21. did you go to your high school prom? Yeah, and it was alright, but I liked going to the beach and getting drunk afterwards with my buddies much more haha 22. perfect time to wake up? Like 9:30am 23. perfect time to go to bed? 10:30-11:00pm 24. do you use your queen right away in chess? Not usually 25. Ever been in a car accident? Only once, we didn't get hurt but the car was totaled  26. closer to mom or dad...or neither? I'm close to both of them equally, but in very different ways. 27. what age is this exciting life over for you? The excitement is never over, friend. 28. what decade during the 20th century would you have chosen to be a teenager? 80's probably 29. Favorite shoes you have EVER owned? Oh god this is hard... I had these bright red sandals for a while that I loved. My current favorite shoes are my red Chelsea boots. 30. Do you have an article of clothing you have had since you were in high school? Oh yeah, many. I didn't grow much  31. Were you in track and field? Lol oh no way  32. Were you ever in a school talent show? Yes, in junior high and I played flute  33. Have you ever written in a library book? I'm sure I have at some point 34. Allergic to? Just one thing in the entire world, and for some strange reason I'm allergic to guinea pigs 35. Favorite fruit? Apples 36. Have you watched sex and the city? Nope, never really had any interest 37. Baseball hat or toque? Toques more often 38. Do you shampoo first in the shower or soap? Shampoo first  39. Wet the toothbrush or brush dry with the toothpaste? You gotta wet it! 40. Pen or pencil? Pen 41. Have you ever gambled at a casino? Gambling ain't my thing but I've been to casinos  42. Have you thrown up on a plane? No, thank god 43. Have you thrown up in a car? When I was very young  44. Have you thrown up at work? Nope 45. Do you scream on roller coasters? Haha sometimes! 46. Who was your first prom date? Junior prom with my boyfriend at the time 47. Who was your first roommate? This girl who probably now hates my guts lmao 48. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk for the first time? Oh god I can't remember 49. What was your first job? At a grocery store! 50. What was your first car? A Jeep  51. When did you go to your first funeral? Oh I dunno maybe I was like 8 52. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown? 18 53. Who was your first grade teacher? I won't say his name but he was a very nice guy 54. Where did you go on your first airplane ride? Jamaica  55. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? I never did 56. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them? This girl Melissa, and we still keep in touch! 57. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parent's house? In a dorm at my first college, a nine hour drive away from home 58. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? Probably my boyfriend 59. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen? Hasn't happened yet! 60. What is the first thing you do in the morning? Pee probably haha 61. What was the first concert you attended? Aaron Carter baybeeeeee 62. First tattoo or piercing? First piercing were my ears when I was younger and first tattoo I got when I was 18 and it's on my ribs 63. First celebrity crush? Aaron Carter lol 0 Comments

03/27/2019 06:54 PM  MEGA QUIZ Current mood:  bored Bored so doing this fun quiz I found :D get to know me  1. Last beverage: Lemon seltzer 2. Last phone call: My momma 3. Last song you listened to: Some song by Alkaline Trio 4. Last time you cried: Hm... it's been a bit actually. Maybe two weeks ago? 5. Have you dated someone twice: Eh, in like junior high but I don't think that really counts 6. Have you ever been cheated on: Yep 7. Kissed someone & regretted it: Mhm. Multiple times 8. Have you lost someone special: Yeah. They're not dead, but they might as well be. 9. What are your three favorite colors: Purple, black, and red I guess 10. Met someone who changed you in the past month: Nah don't think so  11. Kissed anyone on your friends list: Haha no I don't know anyone on my friends list IRL 12. How many kids do you want: I don't know really, half of me just wants one little bubba to give all my attention to but the other half of me wants multiple kids and to have a big family 13. Do you have/want any pets: I have a dog, a cat, two mice, and a chicken! 14. Do you want to change your name: No, I actually think my name fits me really well! 15. What did you do for your last birthday: Had some buddies over, it was actually an amazing time 16. What time did you wake up today: Like ten am 17. Name something you CANNOT wait for: My birthday this year! I'll be 21. Also there are a lot of concerts I wanna go to this summer 18. Last time you saw your mother: Just a bit ago 19. Most visited webpage: I'm gonna say Tumblr 20. Nicknames: Sam, Sami, Shinny, and the boyfriend calls me bean 21. Relationship status: In a relationship 22. Zodiac sign: Leo! 23. Male or female: Who knows, bro 24. Height: 5’10 25. Do you have a crush on someone: My bean aka my boyfriend 26. Piercings: Ears. I used to have a lip piercing which I f***in looooved 27. Tattoos: I got like 7 I think, and more to come 28. Strong or Weak: I'd say I'm pretty strong, actually. But we all have our weak moments FIRSTS 29. First surgery: Never had surgery! 30. First best friend: Melissa! 31. First sport you joined: Tee-ball 32. First vacation: hm... earliest vacation memory is Jamaica  33. First school: Pre-School 34. First pair of trainers: Oh man... Converse probably? WHICH IS BETTER 35. Lips or eyes: Eyes 36. Hugs or kisses: Most often I'd say hugs 37. Shorter or taller: Taller 38. Older or younger: Depends. I've usually dated people who are older than me and most of my friends are older but not by much 39. Romantic or spontaneous: Both! 40. Sensitive or loud: I'm a very loud person but I do have my sensitive, quiet moments  41. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship, at this point in my life 42. Introvert or Extrovert: Extrovert HAVE YOU EVER 43. Kissed a stranger: Ugh yes, cite creepy guy who bought me beers at a show 44. Gotten a speeding ticket: Nah, but I've gotten a ticket for running a stop sign =_= 45. Lost glasses/contacts: Used to lose my glasses a lot, now I'm much better with that haha 46. Sex on first date: Nope 47. Broken someone's heart: Possibly 48. Been arrested: Nope! By some miracle 49. Have you turned someone down: Oh yeah 50. Fallen for a friend: Yeah 51. Moved out of town: Once, but then came back BELIEVE IN 52. Miracles: I think so 53. Love at first sight: Definitely possible, I think, but rare 54. Heaven: Some sort of heaven, yes 55. Santa Claus: Hehe not really 56. Kiss on the first date: Nothing horribly wrong with that 57. Angels: Sure 58. Yourself: Yeah! ANSWER TRUTHFULLY 59. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No  60. Been in love with someone you couldn't be with?: Oh yes  61. Ever cheated on somebody: Yes, and I'm ashamed of it to this day 62. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: Don't think I'd wanna go back in time to a point in my own life. I'd wanna go to like the 80's or something 63. Are you afraid of falling in love: Not really 64. Was your last relationship a mistake? yeaaaaaahhhhh 65. Do you miss your last relationship? noooooo lol 66. Who did you last say “i love you” to? Probably boyfriend 67. Have you ever been depressed? Got that classic depression babey 68. Are you insecure? In some ways 69. How do you want to die? In my sleep probably. Or OD on benzos so at least I won't feel it/be actually conscious for it 70. Do you bite your nails? Nah I hate germs too much 71. When was your last physical fight? Never really, though I tried to punch someone a month or so ago but got held back 72. Do you have an attitude? At times, yeah 73. Twirl or cut your spaghetti? Both! lol depends on my mood 74. Do you tan a lot? Never, I'm pale as f*** 75. Ever eaten food in a car while someone or you are driving? hell yeah 76. Ever made out in a bathroom? lol yes. A nasty bar bathroom. And in someone's house 77. Would you take any of your exes back? Maybe, if I wasn't with my boyfriend who I'm really happy with right now 78. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? I really don't know, I would have to think long and hard about it 79. What are your plans for this weekend? Going to a show! 80. Do you type fast? I think so! Could be faster though 81. Can you spell well? I think slightly better than the average bird 82: What are you craving right now? A donut :/ 83. Have you ever been on a horse? Yeah but I was a young kid 84. Would you live with someone without marrying them? I live with my boyfriend already! 85. What’s irritating you right now? Boredom and the fact that I thought I've looked rather fat all day 86. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? Oh yeah 87. Does somebody love you? Yes! 88. Have you ever changed clothes in a car? Haha many times 89. Milk chocolate or white chocolate? white :3 90. Do you have trust issues? To an extent 91. Longest relationship? The one I'm currently in! It's been almost 3 years 92: Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you? Eh probably not 93. Have you ever walked outside in your PJs? Hell yes 94. Do you believe everything happens for a reason? I do, yeah 95. Did you have dream last night? Yeah! I dream a lot 96. Have you ever been out of state? Yeah 97. Do you play the Wii? I don't have one anymore 98. Do you like Chinese food? yessssssss gimme that fried tofu and rice 99. Are you afraid of the dark? Sorta 100. Is cheating ever okay? Nah 101. What year has been your best? I don't think I can really say 102. Do you believe in true love? Yeah 103. Favorite weather? Crisp fall weather 104. Do you like the snow? Yeah! 105. Do you like the outside? Most of the time! 106. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? Ehhhh depends 107. Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight? Probably lol 108. What makes you happy? Music I love, being completely comfortable, watching my favorite shows! 109. Ever been to Alaska? No but I totally want to someday  110. Ever been to Hawaii? No 111. Do you watch the news? Sometimes 112. Do you love MTV? Eh it's okay 113. Do you like subway? No, both the food and the train lol 114 Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? No! 115. Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Tell them thanks but sorry, I'm already happy with someone 116. Why did you decide to do this quiz? I don't have much else on lol 117. Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided them? Of course 118. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? Yeah! 119. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? My dad 120. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Boyfriend probably 121. Ever bought condoms? Of course, I ain't ready to get pregnant yet homies 122. Ever gotten pregnant? No 123. Have you ever slipped on ice? Absolutely 124 Have you ever missed the bus? I think so, as a kid 125. Have you left the house without money? Lol yes, poor life 126. Have you ever smoked cigarettes? I currently smoke 127. Have you ever smoked a cigar? Once 128. Did you ever drink alcohol? I do sometimes 129. Did you ever watch “The Breakfast Club”? A bunch of times 130. Have you ever been overweight? No 131. Ever been to a wedding? Yeah 132. Ever been in a wedding? Yeah! 133. Have you ever been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Oh god probably  134. Did you ever watch TV for 5 hours straight? Most likely at least once. I'm sick a lot lol 135. Ever kissed in the rain? Don't think so 136. Did you ever shower with someone else? Yeah 137. Did you ever fail a driver’s test? No 138. Ever been outside your home country? Twice 139. Ever been on a road trip longer than 5 hours? Yeah! Many times 140. Ever been to a professional sports game? Yeah, quite a few 141. Have you ever broken a bone? No 142. Did you ever win a trophy in your life? Yeah! 143. Ever get engaged? Not yet 144. Have you ever been on a diet? Yeah 145. Have you ever been on TV? Lol yes at a protest 146. Ever ridden in a taxi? Yeah! 147. Ever been to prom? Yeah! 11th and 12th grade 148. Ever stayed up for 24 hours or more? Yeah, sometimes I'm a real insomniac  149. Have you ever been to a concert? Many 150. Have you ever had a crush on someone at work? Oh yeah 151. Have you ever been in a car accident? Once 152. Ever had braces? Yeah, for years when I was a kid 153. Did you ever learn another language? Yes, two! 154. Do you wear make-up? Sometimes! Like every other day or so 155. Did you ever have your wisdom teeth taken out? No 156. Did you ever kiss someone a different race than yourself? Yes, boyfriend is a different race than me 157. Ever dyed your hair? Oh yeah I've been dying my hair since I'm like 13 158. Did you ever wear someone else’s clothes? I do all the time lol 159. Ever ridden in an ambulance? Once, recently actually 160. Ever ridden in a helicopter? No 161. Ever caught the stove on fire? No 162. Ever meet someone famous? Like one or two  163. Ever been on an airplane? Yeah! 164. Ever been on a boat? Yes! 165. Ever broken something expensive? Phones, definitely  166. Did you ever kiss someone before you were 14? Yeah 167. Did you ever find something valuable on the ground? Hm, I don't think so 0 Comments

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