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heaven knows i'm miserable now
born a catholic, die a catholic this traitorous heart and these traitorous hands that come together to conspire against my head too terribly alone and too blinded by desperation to see anything clearly in front of me if my eyes glance away for just a second, my idle hands start to build cathedrals i have to tie my wrists with thorns just to restrain subconscious movement and every time they dig into my skin it reminds me of what it's like to worship a fallible god
born a catholic, die a catholic i fear that devotion may simply be in my nature baptised to search for the next prophet no matter how much i try to shake it, i cannot resist adoration a horrible, horrible habit and it is a long three days to wait for your resurrection. but i'm outside the tomb with hammer and nails, ready to condemn you again and again
i see now it was instilled into me in youth to await a messiah to absolve me of sins a person to bring salvation and ever-lasting life though this time, he collapsed on the way to the cross no simon and no veronica a tragedy, that you could not even be martyred for the cause. no, not even half the man of those who came before you— the crucified whose egos seep from their hand wounds
but every poem needs a subject, and every poet needs a muse. at least i was able to get some use out of you.
abby, the holiest of holies
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