I've been through too many guys in the last year, trying to fill the hole he left. I gave up on that and stayed single for about 5 months while I figured everything out and learnt how to be less dependent on having a partner.

I'm with someone wonderful now, someone who gets me, who isn't abusive but understanding and empathetic, someone I can be open with and who I can trust to be open with me. Now that I'm not in such a bad mental state that I'm constantly scared of my partner hating me or leaving me over the smallest of things, I can truly appreciate the joy he brings to my life. I love him wholeheartedly.

I got bullied a lot at college this past year, even by those I would consider my friends, about my style, the music I listened to, my hair, my interests, everything. So I changed myself. After being away from it all for a while, I realised that wasn't what I wanted and I didn't make that decision for myself. I'm more or less back to normal now, and I'm much happier. I'm learning how to not care what anyone thinks again.

Things at home are.. difficult. I try to grin and bear it, but it's getting worse. Tensions are rising. I only have one more year to go in this hellhole before I can escape to uni and freedom. I'm thinking of going to Birmingham and studying songwriting/creative artistry! Things are looking up in that sense, at least..

It makes me happy to be back on this site again, I feel safe to be completely myself on here.