12/06/2024 10:58 PM  HELP Current mood:  confused WHATS UP GIRLBOSSES AND BOYBOSSES AND OTHERBOSSES ITS YOUR BOY PAPERCLIP omg I’m dying Christian boyfriend and I have been dating for a bit now yay I love him smsm But there’s this new kid at school... And he’s really nice... And I actually feel cared about because of him... But I love my boyfriend soooo much and I feel like if I broke up with him lots of bad things would happen and I would cry a lot. This is HORRIBLE!! Not very goober of him. New guy is called Tangerine because he is a GINGER!!! But anyways he’s actually amazing and I feel like Christian boyfriend just isn’t the right person for me. BUT I also think he is and I’m just delulu or something. HELPPPPPP Thats all for now, have a Shaqalicious day! 0 Comments

08/20/2024 12:36 AM  MY LIFE IS KINDA GETTING GOOD AGAIN Current mood:  breezy WHATS UP GIRLBOSSES AND BOYBOSSES AND OTHERBOSSES ITS YOUR BOY PAPERCLIP I don't know if you guys remember that one guy I had to break up with (the one with the heavy Christian parents) but today is mostly about him. Every day is mostly about him. I love him. AND HE LOVES ME!!! THATS RIGHT FOLKS we've been flirting for a while and it's so awesome. I finally feel like someone actually cares for once. He's one of the only people who isn't mad that I can't get myself to fully trust him. He's so amazing. Just a couple more years and we actually get to date again. Oh also my ex and his girlfriend finally broke up which is PRETTY EPIC :P Anyways that's all for now, have a ravishing day (help I need new words)! 0 Comments

07/20/2024 06:07 PM  I BLOCKED HIM Current mood:  annoyed WHAT'S UP GIRLBOSSES AND BOYBOSSES AND OTHERBOSSES IT'S YOUR BOY PAPERCLIP I was scrolling through some old groupchat messages and I realized how horribly my ex and his girlfriend treated me, along with some other friends. At the time, I ignored these things because they were some of my only friends, but now I'm realizing it would've been better to have 2 friends than a bunch of people who hate you. They had all acted like they said nothing, and we were still friends. This hurt me so much mentally, and I'm still recovering months later. I have officially blocked him and his girlfriend, and I'm working up the courage to block one of my closest friends who had joined in on this. He was one of the boys that was friends with a lot of other boys, so he gave me more male friends. That helped me feel a bit more like a boy. He didn't do much, though it still hurt. I might just talk to him, if he doesn't talk to me in defense of my ex and his girlfriend first. This is why I have such major issues guys!!! That's all for now, have a sparkly day or smthn :P 0 Comments

07/20/2024 02:40 PM  HE UNBLOCKED ME Current mood:  blank WHAT'S UP GIRLBOSSES AND BOYBOSSES AND OTHERBOSSES IT'S YOUR BOY PAPERCLIP He unblocked me. During the week he had me blocked, I thought about everything. How he so easily started talking to my friend and then flirting with her while we were still dating. And he wonders why we fell apart. How every "ily" and "you're pretty" was all a lie. He couldn't even say I love you, that was too much. He had to say "ily". And he wonders why I never felt truly loved. I loved him so much. He was my first true relationship that actually felt real (at the time). And then he f***ing wonders why I didn't get over him in a day when he got with my friend. When he unblocked me, he messaged me about his girlfriend (who isn't much better). He talked to me about all the things she does that he doesn't like. They were going on a break. And then 15 minutes later the break was over and he stopped talking to me. He only unblocked me to talk when he couldn't talk to his girlfriend. F*** off. I've been tolerating him less and less. He will vent to me and I will try my hardest to make it better. But when I vent to him, he just says "idk". I'm not going to keep helping if you can't help back. I'm not going to keep listening to you bash your girlfriend but turn around and be all over her. She does this too, but this isn't about her. I've always been codependent on him, it's just something that happens when I talk to someone a lot. When he had me blocked, I was able to seperate myself from him. It was difficult, but I finally did it. That's when I thought about everything. I'm sure he expected me to be like that with him when he came back, but I wasn't at all. For some reason, I find myself enjoying talking to him at times, but at other times I get incredibly upset at him for no reason. I think that's a sign I'm starting to hate him. This post could be 4 essays long, but I'm going to end it with one thing. Right before we broke up, he said "ily". I asked if he really meant it. He said "idk". That's all, have an idealistic day (I'm running out of words). 0 Comments

07/07/2024 03:30 PM  HONESTLY WHAT THE HELL Current mood:  weird WHAT'S UP GIRLBOSSES AND BOYBOSSES AND OTHERBOSSES IT'S YOUR BOY PAPERCLIP Don't you love it when your ex constantly says nobody cares about him even though you care about him and you've comforted him constantly BUT he blocked you so now nobody cares? I feel like he does it to himself at this point. WIndowsill is actually kinda hot but I've barely talked to anyone so I think I'm trying to just feel human again. The bedrotting body dysmorphia is too real. Monster is yummy. I have pink hair now which is cool but everyone keeps telling me I look way older than I am so that's kinda scary ngl. I don't know what else to say but I'm just trying to feel like people actually listen to me for once. That's all for now, have a glorious day!!! 0 Comments

06/04/2024 03:36 PM  GONNA BARK Current mood:  irritated WHAT'S UP GIRLBOSSES AND BOYBOSSES AND OTHERBOSSES IT'S YOUR BOY PAPERCLIP Isn't it soooo fun when you comfort your ex (who you found comfort in too) and then his new girlfriend who is the one who he left you for starts hating you because her boyfriend is talking to you??? Like girl what. AND they don't even like each other. They complain about each other to me and it's so annoying. ESPECIALLY HER she complains ALL THE TIME about him. She's NOT treating him right omg. Also I don't like Windowsill anymore cuz he called me the N word after I gave him my number BUT there are a few guys I'm kinda into I think. THAT'S ALL Have an exceptional day! 0 Comments

05/05/2024 12:20 PM  BEANS BY KURT COBAIN Current mood:  ecstatic WHAT'S UP GIRLBOSSES AND BOYBOSSES AND OTHERBOSSES IT'S YOUR BOY PAPERCLIP Beans Beans Beans I'm so fancy and I think I'm high ngl I gotta get a new binder and I really wanna sit in windowsill's lap or on an actual windowsill or something I don't know I have a friend in my grade and he is 6 feet tall And I have a friend in the corner of my room who is 8 feet tall but he's nice Mostly That's all :3 Have a SPLENDID day  0 Comments

05/05/2024 12:01 PM  IT'S BEEN A WHILE, SAY HI Current mood:  rockin WHAT'S UP GIRLBOSSES AND BOYBOSSES AND OTHERBOSSES IT'S YOUR BOY PAPERCLIP It's been a while. A lot has changed. So my boyfriend with the Christian mother and I didn't break up for a while. Then something happened and blah blah blah I'm single. I sorta like this guy and we'll call him windowsill because why not. Windowsill and I don't talk a lot but he's AMAZINGGGG. Also that ex I was venting to hates me because he mentally hurt my friend so I made his life a living hell for a bit . Also ex boyfriend with the Christian mother and I are so bestie omg he's amazing. We're still kinda flirting but not dating cuz that's a nono.  That's not all but I have no more words so THAT'S ALL BESTIESSSS Have a supercalifragilisticexpealidocious day (or however you spell it). 0 Comments

03/15/2024 06:05 PM  VENTING TO MY EX Current mood:  cynical WHAT'S UP GIRLBOSSES AND BOYBOSSES AND OTHERBOSSES IT'S YOUR BOY PAPERCLIP For context about my ex, we dated for like a month (and it was so awesome) then we broke up and he dated my friend a day later. They're still together, but that's not the point. I've always known I can sort of trust him, he's been through a lot of sh*t and he knows how it feels when you pour your heart out to someone and they show their friends and laugh about it. So I asked him this morning "if I vented to you would you listen or no" He responded with a simple "ig" and i wrote an entire paragraph about the situation I talked about in my last blog. He hasn't responded yet but honestly it feels nice knowing that someone is reading my thoughts and I'm not just screaming into the void. That's all from me, have a stupendous day! 0 Comments

03/14/2024 02:38 PM  GUESS WHO'S (MAYBE) SINGLEEEE Current mood:  jolly WHAT'S UP GIRLBOSSES AND BOYBOSSES AND OTHERBOSSES ITS YOUR BOY PAPERCLIP (the current mood is very sarcastic, i am everything but jolly) So as you might assume from the fact that I'm gay and taken, I have a boyfriendddd  But recently his conservative Christian mother (no hate to the good Christians) found my Discord account. It's theme was "#1 [boyfriend's name] lover". Long story short she found out we were dating. I'm not allowed to talk to him online or hang out with him anymore and since we're on spring break I can't really talk to him at ALL !!!!! So I don't know if we've broken up or if we're going to defy his mother more (which I'm down for) I hope we didn't break up because I love him so f***ing much and he's been taking my mind off of exes that my brain can't get over. Basically he's my escape and I'm his. Or was, anyways. That's all from yours truly. I'll update when I actually get the news and stuff but idk when that will be because I CAN'T CONFRONT PEOPLEEEE :P HAVE A SPECTACULAR REST OF YOUR DAY 0 Comments

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