05/02/2024 12:04 PM  New job + SICK + future plans Current mood:  sick Soooo new people bought the store I work at and today they almost fired everyone besides me and 3 of my other coworkers but they were all gonna quit sh*t crazy it sucks cuz i rly like most of my coworkers (BESIDES BRANDY F*** YOU BRANDY!) but they walked back on that n now were keeping our jobs and the schedule " For now" i hope i get to go off on one of these pricks lol going to philly soon to party w some rich kids thatll be tight i need to get a new job lined up though idk how much longer they're keeping us on and if they end up firing everyone besides me n the other ppl who work max hours im quitting im sick as f*** too like wtf i feel a lil better now but for a second i was actually shaking i bought an acupuncture mat this sh*t is cool it Rly hurts but i like it its tight I went out last weekend it was tight didnt rly feel the same as it did back when i was on campus but it was nice seeing ppl i saw the homie manny that was lit hopefully im going out this weekend well see i was talking to this one girl whos gonna be roommates w the homegirl emma next year but like idk im not rly into her like that i was just flirting because its been so long since ive had any sort of physical intimacy she was into it but like i regret it i didnt end up sleeping w her i just ubered home but i shouldnt lead ppl on like that idk   shoutout the homie tho i look mad awkward here i didnt getenough pictures grr went to work hungover it wasnt that bad tho n i worked with anthony it was a fun shift shoutout anthony 0 Comments

01/26/2024 12:27 AM  Sober Current mood:  understimulated adderall shortage of 2023-2024 the worst thing to happen to mankind  if i liked smoking weed or drinking alone my life would be so much easier instead i have to spend hundreds of dollars on chemicals n i ussed to be able to tripbut now theres not enough positive energy in my life to outweigh the passively negative energy in my head so im not gonna trip idk im just distracting myself now 1 Comments

01/25/2024 01:01 AM  day off day in day out Current mood:  blah last nightwas f***ed up i fell asleep didnt take my meds had some crazy ass dreams bout my ex n all that As Per Usual anyway my day off was boring and uneventful all i did was drink teasmoke cigarettes record a song obsess about the past and play minecraft what has my life come to i just needa bounce back i got all of my downstate friends coming back up for college the 27th but i f***ed a lot of those friendships up n im sadabout it me n couple of my boys had plans to get an apt in the city n now we dont really talk cuz i went crazy for like a month sometimes idk who i am i wonder if im anything more than the culmination of everything ive lost idk if that makes sense i just feel like i put myeslf into other people and after losing them its like i lose a parto f me whatever im a soldier   1 Comments

01/24/2024 12:45 AM  Day in tha life Current mood:  nauseated welcome to my blog this s a strange lil website but i fw the premise, hope some cool ppl join ppl im more actually interested in talkign to type sh*t playing minecraft lately all of my friends r still downstate on college break cuz im a DROPOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 but i got a few of my online friends so its alright been reading this book its a collection of essays the first one by carl jung super interesting stuff imma write more about it later but im too busy playing video games n vibing rn listening to yume 2kki music i kinda dont wanna listen to it cuz ion wanna spoil the game but its so gorgeous lavender waters (profile page song) is Insane idk how a .ogg file can hold such universal power  life nothing crazy rn mostly just work work work work work work even music feels like work but today i closed w this one girl n shes the only f***in sane one at my job (besides this other lady but shes like twice as old as me so the vibe is diff) so it was nice to be able to sh*ttalk bout all the weird customers n ppl we work with (no offense to my coworkers) feeling kinda nauseous rn idk what it is i think i drank too much water or something gonna go smoke a cigarette good night   0 Comments

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