04/04/2023 10:01 PM  Poetry Music   I turn to music to escape The rhythm drags me away And I feel like I’ve drifted far far away The lyrics hypnotize me  And pull me out of reality Why run away when I can disasociate    Am I here or there? Sometimes I wonder As lyrics flood my brain And I began to fall back away I never seem to be able to live in the moment One of my sense always cut off I can’t hear anything but my self assigned soundtrack   Life seems so vivid when you’re coating it in melodic colors Yet like a water color painting that was rained on it all seems to mix and fade I choose to let my hearing go I choose to not take in the meanings of the words people say to me Nothing can call to me like a song   Let life be a blur So I can listen to music So I can associate feelings with lyrics So I can relive the dreams that blur with reality Let me get high off music Because it is my chosen hallucinogen  It is my drug of choice Let me use it and never lose it   Sue me cause I don’t listen  It’s not like I care I’ll just escape to a place you can’t follow With the beat of a drum  And a riff of a guitar   0 Comments

03/30/2023 10:08 PM  Poetry Current mood:  angsty Discarded and Drowned I get attached quick I fall fast and hard Yet I’ll tell myself its just a fluke, just a crush But then your arm will brush against mine and I feel it all again   It rushes back like a tsunami drowning me in feelings I’m suffocated by a side of me I choose to push away and deny myself of Drowning, in feelings of you too scared to swim up to the surface   You would never like me back I tell myself I don’t deserve to flourish in love I don’t deserve to love anyone How could anyone love me?   For I am broken an beaten Sure I have worth, but who holds onto torn money for long before spending it Nobody wants a taped up dollar bill And nobody wants me   I’ve come to live with this I’m fine being forever alone because i’m too scared to tell you Youre my achilles heel You bring out the best and worst in me You keep me around despite my countless flaws I’m not sure if I care for you like a brother or a lover   My feelings so broken and deep Denail soon becomes reality Fake it till you make it they say One day I’ll make it So I no longer miss you like hell when you’re gone So I no longer get butterflies when you compliment me So I stop playing out scenes in my head So I stop liking you   So Id rather drown then swim up to the surface To face the reality That Im in love with you when I shouldn't be. 0 Comments

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