family issues

hello guys and welcome back to my blog its day two and i already feel much better from all your beautiful and amazing commentry on yestardays topic ,i just want to thank you all for the help and you know making me feel assured that i always have someone to talk to cuz its hard keeping  these things to ur self ,anyways today i wanna talk about something big that happaned a few days ago so bassically my dad he has been away from like my family for a preety long time scince i was like 2 according to my mum ,so he diceded to call my mum a few days back and ask if he could talk to me and my big sis so that we could go see him  after all those year of abandoning us never came to visit or even call  or even try create a relshonship with us so i felt pretty doubtful about this whole talk thing. so yeah he  talked to my mom a bit just u know talking about co-parenting after 12 years of not being in his kids lifes finshes talking then asks for my big sis they talked about her stuff in school how being an adult is a big responsiblity entering her med school and all dat she was preety happy and i also felt the same cuz she is my most favourite person in the world i would die for her , it came to my turn my hands trembling shiver down my spine i heard his voice for the first time i felt like crying i couldent cry out there at the spot but yeah it was emotinal, asked me how i was doing and all that stuff and i felt pretty gud to talk to him we even planned on when to meet  our grandparents and his sister so i felt loved and appricated for being a human in this world a child for that sake i felt like i had a pourpose in this world than how i felt before like my fathers wound, aboundoned and u know unloved i finally let it go. the  part came he asked to talk to my mom so i gave her the phone she put it on loud speacker so we could hear everthing he said idk if she did it on pourpose or not but yeah they talked about my relatives and all that then my mum asked if he wants to meet us asap (me and my sis) then he said he wanted to meet my mum asap more than his own kids my heart dropped at me hearing this he just wanted my mum he did not want us he just used us as an opportunity to get closer to my mom never loved us his wounds his bardens never wanted us ,all of that just to get my mom we were no more than his tools to get his romance up