10/19/2021 12:21 AM  the feeling of being lost Current mood:  okay hello friend project.. i wanna talk about the feeling of being lost... the feeling of wandering throughout aimlessly. as i sit back in my seat and happily pet my cat, i cant help but wonder... i'm currently 18, the life expectancy of a human is around 50-70 (i dont remember the exact number), and that seems like a long while away.. what am i going to do during that time? will i die? will i lose people... gain people.... what will i say, what will i do? so many feelings, yet i feel empty. i continue to aimlessly wander the world throughout the days and nights, figuring out what the meaning of "purpose" is. what the meaning of "living" truely means..   0 Comments

09/17/2021 02:50 PM  moon Current mood:  okay hello again friendproject. the moon looks so nice out tonight, i've never seen it this clear in so long! it's so weird to think that so many people can / are staring at it at the same time i wish i could buy a camera to take a picture of it, its so pretty. 0 Comments

09/12/2021 12:56 PM  existance. hello friend project, i have returned to throw out mental feelings. today i wanna talk about existance. do we exist? how do we 100% know? i've had constant moments where ive sat at my screen, looking through previous precious messages of mines, wondering who i am, what was i like, what am i like now.  its so weird seeing everything ive done in the past right infront of my face, and knowing things have changed. hell, its gotten to the point where i feel as if the thoughts i think of currently don't even seem thought about. who knows if we exist, who knows if i exist, who knows the current, past, or future......  im just happy to be here now :) 0 Comments

09/21/2020 09:54 PM  schoolsucks Current mood:  tired hihi everyone! so, school starts inna few moments, and i quickly wanted to rant a lil bout this year of high school being a senior in an online school is soosoo boring, I barely even get to see my friends unless we make plans. oh, and don't even get me started on how behind I am on school work, ever since the move to online i've been extremely lazy, which I need to fix somehow lol. anyways, school starts rn, check with you all soon! 0 Comments

09/20/2020 02:57 PM  im here Current mood:  curious ok, soooo uhhh no idea how this works hi, im matsu! i make music on soundcloud, and am a whooole lot chiller than i look. if u wanna check it out, or pop in and say hello, just tell me!   0 Comments

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