+ weekly neb + issue 1
Current mood:  aggravated

hello ladies and genitals!
i've decided to make a blog (?) about teenage existential dread, life, and quarantine... lol idk i'm angsty  anyways im gonna do a post once a week on WEDNESDAY'S about my current life??? idk it's a stupid concept but welcome 
today i'm discussin - procrastination and how f***in FRUSTRATING it is!

so i struggle with procrastination an UNBELIEVABLE amount. i'm neurodivergent so the normal procrastination is x1000 for me because of my hyperfixations that come with my ADHD. (this sounds excuse-type I SWEAR ITS NOT) i want to do the work SO BADLY but i just can't.

i can't tell you the last time i did an english assignment, and there's a potential i'll get kicked out of the class if i don't do it. you'd THINK this would be motivation enough to just... f***in... DO IT. but i can't. i literally can't. it's the most frustrating thing in the world. like RIGHT NOW. im hyperfixating on this damn website instead of doing my work!!!!!

so that's why i'm FRUSTRATED. i also have to clean my room because i want to hang out with my friend but i literally cahgbfrhjgfhdj...... yeah.... that's the emotions i'm HAVIN right now  

okay i'm getting more aggravated with myself so let's talk abt what i'm doing this weekend!!! :) so i got in touch with this old friend i had all of 8th grade and the beginning of freshman year, but we faded. ANYWAYS she became very alt.... and basically she might be coming over saturday! :D we might go thrifting, we're gonna go to walgreen's to pick up some monster energy and snacks and makeup, and we're gonna do a mini protest with cardboard signs across crosswalks for BLM (since we arent allowed to protest). then we're gonna go home, i'm gonna do her makeup, and we're gonna have a picnic!!! she might even spend the night and we might go swimmin! i do be kinda excited doe.... 

also i had a really good idea (jk i literally saw this on tiktok) where they cut off the top of their monster cans and cleaned them out, then planted seeds in there!!! i've always wanted plants and i really really want to do this, i have too many and i feel like this would be a good way to put them to use... and then i'll use the tabs for a soda tab necklace!!!

if anyone is reading (which i doubt ) lmk if that sounds cool.... idk it sounds p cool to me  im considering it hehehe

anyways this was extremely pointless but i feel better!!

blessed be,
neb/kennedy