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thots on me mental luv
Current mood:
tired
theres alot i could bitch abt on here lol im feeling very physically and mentally tired. i dont remember the last time i didnt feel this way. im constantly worrying abt everyones feelings, and it gets to me that i simply cant do nuthhhhhin but be there. i cant solve peoples problems. energy is a very strong thing. if someones energy is off, it comes directly to me. its like i feel their pain in every way. its a good and bad thing. good becuase i want to know when someone is upset so i can try to help, but bad bc it literally affects me that i cant read whats going on in their mind. i like to be alone for that reason. i get so caught up in others feelings to the point where its like, did i do something? can i genuinly not make someones mood any better? why is this a constant thing?
I surround myself with very hurt people. we are all looking for validation, but my efforts are never recipricated. i just dont know. i l want to be there, and make you happy. thats all.
this was very messy, i suck at putting my thoughts into words. but theres so much going on up there.
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