life update / thought stream

just wanted to touch base with myself, and share a little with you all.

basically i'm just thinking out loud lol.

life can get really difficult, can't it? i've definitely been struggling lately. things here in the US with the pandemic are in total disarray, and it's been a lot to take in. it's been scary. it's been exhausting. but i just try to hope that on the other side of this, we grow as a people. i'm not sure how, and maybe that's too optimistic, but i'm trying to hold onto that ♥

christmas is right around the corner, which is always kinda bittersweet. i always feel a little lonely at this time. this year it looks like traveling back to my hometown is out of the question, which is definitely going to add a new layer of loneliness. i always look forward to seeing my family, even if we drive each other crazy sometimes. i'll really miss seeing my friends for our annual christmas party, and seeing my friends' families too. it's a major drag. maybe i can start some new traditions or something. idk. it could be liberating.

i know everyone says this, but wow i can't wait to go to concerts again!! D: live music is going to be so much sweeter after this. i don't think i'll take it for granted ever again, even those small local bar shows. especially the local bar shows! how exciting that day will be.

anyway, sending everyone love during these tough times, and thanks for reading ♥

xx
jace