I'm pushed into a corner, I'm going out shooting (myself) [wip]

I don't want to fall in love with someone who doesn't love me back, but I'll do it if I have to. This gun is loaded mother f***er and I have my finger on the trigger. Be honest with me now, do you love me or do you love complaining about something? Cause to me you never care what I have to say, unless it's me consoling you, other than that I'm so f***ing boring right? I'm f***ing useless, right? I'm just a sack of sh*t you complain your petty problems with. You should be over it by now, but I won't say that. You're selfish but I can't say that cause I'm not.

It's so awful loving someone that will never feel the same way, especially when they're an a**hole. They crash and burn, they come to me. I console them, I empathize. They love me and cut me off. They act like talking to me is a chore, just so they can return to me on a dark night. For a little moment in time, you let me in, you let me feel what you feel, just to drop me off and leave me where you were.