Short Vent About Insecurity
Current mood:  contemplative

Sometimes I feel so ashamed and humiliated of myself even when there is no reason to.  Positive feedback often worsens these feelings even though I do interpret it as genuine and warm. It's so odd.

I already know why I feel this way and it's pretty frustrating that I can't just logic my way out of deep emotional problems and instantly fix myself. it's getting gradually getting a little better each year, yes, but im such an impatient person.

Obviously, the day will come when these problems feel foreign, but wow I wish I could fast forward my life a bit.