erh umh december update ???
Current mood:  angsty

i always forget to post on here or even log in but its all good. update on me is that school is over tmw after my final exam kinda worried cuz i suck at studying oh well tho. 
ummmh soo the girl. I'm currently talking to is still going well kinda shocked lowkey cuz i never thought it was gonna get this far. she had mentioned us declaring it official but i kinda continued it and didn't really say much. but honestly, I'm not asking her to be my gf i already decided that. i just don't know how and i never don't that before. i think I'm justly utterly terrified of relationships idk why i just cant be in them they're scary. sooo i will only be her gf if she asks me in person. I'm afraid that after i accept will my perception change of her will i overthink it until i completely destroy our relationship. I'm really trying to not do that this time and so far its been good i haven't completely destroyed this talking stage. 
if any ones is reading this I'm sorry i know ur not here to hear me just ramble but if u made it this far just follow me shoot me a message ill try to respond once i log back on to this