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so since i was little ive had weird like scenarios in my head like my relatives dying is really something hard for me like when i lost my grandma it was a big step ahead but heart for my heart 
also i dream about my own death sometimes and cry but that was mostly when i was extremely depressed 
like i litteraly felt replaced by my cousin who has the same godmother as me 
i used to think i didnt matter in my family but recently my grandparents have been more including before they use to only care about my sister so now i also feel like i can have fun my family im not like no one 
my cousins helped a lot because they litteraly saved my life they are a joy in my life nothing else brings