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Storyboard of Kerberos unit my DIY music activity Ashes to bones will be reflected to my pulsesignal site along with pictures and DIY CD.Along with MI6 Kerberos unit map fortress coordinate systems.I like film steamroller and violin by talkovsky and Fellini Satyricon Nothing in matter of anime.Anime sucks..My DIY music activity will be short British military horror film. Story board of Ashes to bones. After riot and activist genocide in London UK. Peace negotiating was declined by capitalism. Politic were waiting for time to execute system with controlling brains using Military spec Resulted reduce of population. Against military side stating From Ashes to ground they kill all. City was nuked successfully. Tokyo 5times LA USA Self detonation. More than Coup de tat NSA/MI6 was onto.. America turned out virus attack from China. Parasite Japan was coordinated by GHQ to nuke each region to wipe-out Japanese next to Chinese both onto hands of islamic terrorist nations. Biological Warfare in China caused themselves to be dominated by own.. Somewhere Euro and UK. Program was Already simulated. Rest of the hands bloody cultures from volcano and tidal wave they deplete rest except UK/EURO LONDON UK Kerberos unit. SS White gang wipe-out youth. Dressed black military arms loaded. Self feed. Onto reconstruction Project. Kerberos favor necro play shooting dead bodies acclaiming ugly art results.. Playing with deadbodies and hitech western military firearms with no shame they slang to deadbodies. MI6 direct is Kerberos unit. Feeding information. Military build or uses castles and defense mainly operated. Fortress Kerberos unit acclaims it. To the defunct fortress restore to secured supply route.. DATA Assault is Kerberos unit objects. And Myself Yuto Hirata was successfully deployed to meet Kerberos unit. Seeing SS White genocide joys in Manchester after trashed Japan with GHQ Genocide mode with nuke... Step by step Yuto Hirata came up with Anti terrorist assault proto. With online opensource to MI6 molse signaling online himself was not sure they are obtaining information from himself or not. By the time I am deployed myself GHQ in Japan Semper FI. Wipe-out all Japanese race breakout I am loaded with mossad assault handguns and it would blow and detonate head if close range. 1British SS white and 1JFK white was Nazi kill rush along with MI6. You two received my info. Yuto Hirata craving for love from Manchester girl ... whos skinny black messed up hair with glasses very skinny pale. Fury one stating blonde took my emo boy away.... Military Airstrike coordinate we can report and if London is restored. We Kerberos unit must make salo.. for fortress soldiers brave acts of patriotism. Our selfeed onto MI6 Kerberos unit Yuto Hirata with direct senses. To the direction of Vatican.. where beautiful and romantic is... After making salo... To Italia.. from UK coordinate. Report top secret military Project UK to Vatican.. ... Where our love and romance are... this place will be buried... 3Kerberos unit member including one Japanese Yuto Hirata .. are onto coordinate to Vatican Italia.. with love...

I'm tired all the time, I'm either super happy or things are just bad and I don't feel like doing anything. There's no reason, there's a bunch of reasons, none of them are bad enough to justify it. I've been thinking of going back to stuff I know is no good, I can't talk about this to anyone because they look at me like I've gone bonkers, and I haven't gone bonkers. At some point I thought I had, I went to talk to someone about it, a counselor, but it didn't feel good, it didn't feel good to have it out there, it felt like it wanted to make it's way right back into my brains, so i pretended everything was normal, I don't even know what I'm up against. Sometimes I think I'm making sh*t up for attention, I go full weeks where I'm fine, where nothing happens. I don't want to promote feeling sad.I don't want to promote aching.I don't anyone, ever, to think that this is cool.So I can't describe what I feel without risking it, I can't talk about the things I want to do, but it's there, in my mind, and i feel so powerless.sorry about the rant. i just needed at least some of it out.goodnight, my dms are always open if anyone needs help thru tough times ♥

MI6 Transmission Over... Our coordinate near by Manchester.. Guns loaded. Food supply route coordinated. Report us directions to other remaining Fortress. We obtained DATA from Germany. Air to Ground Full ammunition and Firearms supplies dropped. London zoned out. All fortress down in London. Kerberos Unit Ready.. Yuto Hirata...

I'm really depressed. It seems like nothing goes right in my life. If you don't know my current situation, I'll explain.I was living with my sister until September. She went through a divorce and lost her house to her husband, leaving me with nowhere to go. My friend invited me to come stay with his aunt and uncle temproarily so I could get on my feet. So, I moved in with my friend, his aunt and uncle, and his cousin. in early-mid September. I'm still here 10 months later.In October (about a month after I moved in) me and my friends cousin hit it off and started dating. And we are still dating, 9 months later.Anyways, In the 10 months I've been living here, I worked for only 1 month (the month of December.) At the end of December, I called out of work and went to the hospital because I was feeling very suicidal. And I've attempted suicide in the past, but now I had a good boyfriend who cared about me, and I didn't wnt to end up killing myself and depressing him. So I went to the hospital, which resulted in me being putt in the 51/50 ward for a night, and then transfered to a mental health hospital, where I ended up staying a few days before I voluntarily left to go back home to my friend's house (right before New Years.) This resulted in me losing my job (I had a hard time getting the paperwork I needed to prove I was in the hospital.) Since then, I've been applying to Jobs with no luck. I've had a few interviews, but that's where it always ends. So I'm going to a temp agency my friend's aunt recommended this coming Monday. My friend's aunt and uncle (I'll just refer to them as my bf's parents from here on) are planning to have a talk with me about the fact that I haven't been working and am not paying rent (my friend pays them rent every month, so it's absolutely unfair that I've been here 10 months without paying rent, and I completely understand that.) I told them that I'm going to the temp agency on Monday, but they still wanna have the talk with me.I think they are also upset because I've been mostly staying in my room (my bf's room, really) ever since he left for school. But, to be fair, this last week I had a really bad sunburn and was trying to rest to recover from it since it was incredibly painful to move. But anyways.....now that you are all caught up...I'm so depressed. I've been having suicidal thoughts again and I dont know what to do. I've also thought of self-harm, but I dont really wanna do self-harm or commit suicide, but the thoughts have been prevalent in my mind anyways. I don't know what to do. Because of how I act and seem on the outside, therapists just tell me I don't really need therapy because I'm already mature enough to understand where my depression comes from, and because I have no intention of harming or killing myself regardless of the invasive thoughts. So basically, I'm a high-functioning depressive, so I don't need the therapy, apparently. But it's so hard. Even though I know the invasive thoughts, like that I'm worthless and pathetic, among other things, even though I know those thoughts aren't true, it's still really really hard not to listen to and believe them.Especially with all the things I've been going through, not just recently, but over the course of my life. I don't know what to do, besides crying when I'm alone at night and telling myself the nightmares I have are just bad dreams. Anyways, I'm just so depressed and I needed to get it out. If you read to this point, thank you for listening.

If you're reading this, repost it with your own version of the alphabet and a blank version!! Don't give any same answers as the person you've copy/pasted this from!(made by May Skelly 220780 - taken from May Skelly)xleohonorx's version of the alphabet!A is for ApathyB is for Betrayal C is for CheatD is for DemolishedE is for EnvyF is for FakeG is for GoneH is for HardshipI is for Invincible J is for JealousyK is for KilljoyL is for LonelyM is for MacabreN is for NumbO is for ObsceneP is for Pessimistic Q is for QuitR is for RevengeS is for SarcasmT is for Tragedy U is for UglyV is for ViolenceW is for Watercooler < Google water cooler romance, I don't mean the objectX is for XCY is for YawnZ is for Zealous

I'm trying to figure out if I am going to pull an all nighter. Sometimes I do that on the nights that I have work super early because I know that I won't wake up for work. Once I fall asleep, it is hard to wake up unless I have at least 12 hours of sleep. Last night I only had about 11 hours of sleep. I am tired as f*** because I didn't get 12 hours of sleep. I don't know what is wrong with me. How am I tried after 11 hours of sleep. I don't get it. I'm tired like I want to fall asleep but I don't want to be tired as f*** tomorrow before work. Ugh. I can't make up my mind. F*** it. I think I'm going to just stay awake. I might take a nap I don't know god I hate not being able to make up my damn mind.

One million miles away and somehow you still manage to wrap your hands around my heart and squeeze as hard as you can. Didn't you hear the news? You're so last season. With sheepskin on my back and blood on my palms, I tossed you into the well, fed you to ravenous beasts, and sold you for coin to men I knew not. Despite my efforts, you climbed the ladder and reclaimed your throne. Mr. Geppetto, could you cut the strings from your fingertips? I promise I'm a real girl. I think you branded my brain and left prints on my medulla as a calling card.  You're the stain on the bed sheets that never washes out. But I'll be damned if I stop trying.   abby 

currently playingi have 2 things of homework due as term has started up again. one of these is 4 days late, which is 40% off the mark im going to be getting. i emailed the teacher about it and she said it matters more that i research the guy the task is about than me getting it into her, which is probably to get me to actually hand it in unlike the other time we had a task like this. im mostly done with the actual research, but one section of this task we need to do is analyse two of the guys artworks. this is easier since i can look up what its meant to be about and what other people think it is and stuff but that's where my motivation's faltered. this isn't even the only task i have. the other over-the-holidays thing that i did not remember and thus didn't do was an essay task in english lit. it's about australian literature, the best kind of literature to think or do anything about, clearly. it's only 1000 words but i probably need to do the art task first (which i am stuck on) before i should do this one. it's due tomorrow, so at least it's not late. the teacher says she cares about me but she also said it in a way that feels like she doesn't really care about me. she said to ignore my marks that i got last semester cos they're in the past (cool, works ok) because i'm going to work way worse if i'm feeling super bad like i was because i got 10/25 on a spoken panel discussion (which i mostly blame because i was unable to get a word in because everyone else is more confident than i am at the things i know about). the marking key itself (which the teacher said she didn't like) had a guideline of 12 marks as the minimum score, as the "limited" section had it as the lower bound of marking if you gave all limiteds. it shouldn't have made me so distraught, and i was berating myself for crying and stuff and i'm not entirely sure if my self harm was genuine or attention seeking, but i was just a mess at that moment.anyway. she said i wouldn't be able to do work as well if i was as distraught as i was (which is true) but because of how she said it it felt less genuine and more a push to do something so i could be a good student. thinking of it like that makes sense in the background but putting it into words like this makes me question what her motivation should be? does she want me to be a better student because she cares about me for some reason or is it that she wants a better average for her class to show off how good at teaching she is or what?whatever it is, i still feel like im a lost cause for any help.anyway can everyone yell at me to do work

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Hope this collection of pictures will give you a neat perspective of some science topics (Yes I know it's imgur, too modern, but you will like these)>Pythagorean Theorem (math): https://imgur.commoDHTKh>If a giant disco ball at the same distance of ISS revolved around Earth (astronomy): https://imgur.com/FTeAKrr&gt;Visualization of when you take a photo with a phone (engineer): https://imgur.comoC8j4Kn>How many people are born vs. how many died in history (Statistics): https://imgur.com/cpHrPyQ&gt;Laminar flow (Physics) ignore the caption to avoid a spoiler: https://i.imgur.com/INKrGUS.gifv&gt;Cross Sections (Earth/Chemistry): https://i.imgur.com/4n7hroi.jpg&gt;Re-framing Perspective (Reconsidering assumptions): https://i.imgur.com/gz4R6ty.gifvThat's all I got, hope you enjoy.

Yeah, Cain broke up with me pretty fast.He told me he couldn't see it working out, and that he needed to be by himself.If I'm being honest then I'm pretty heartbroken, but I guess it wasn't a great relationship anyway.

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10/20/2004 - A cloudy evening.Dear Diary, yesterday, I walked in school, earphones plugged in, wearing my brand new black striped hoodie, sneakers and Bleeding Star shirt, and some black eyeshadow with red, to make for a very dramatically awesome entry. Even though I heard someone yell something at me, but couldn't quite make out what it was. But that wasn't the most awesome thing that happened today! There's a new, cute guy at school! I'm kinda shy so I wouldn't go talking to him but the teacher placed him next to me and he started talking to me and it turns out, he likes the same bands as me! He has some kind of really colorful and happy style but has some kind of bleeding monster on his shirt and spiky belts! It's quite different from everyone else so I love it! So far, he is very kind and I'm quite surprised, he even spoke up when someone bumped into me and laughed when I almost tripped! Oh no! I need to finish my science homework now, I'll tell you more!11/08/2004 - A Windy NightDear Diary, I'm sorry I haven't written in a while, I was quite busy. A lot of things happened these last weeks, and I don't really know how to feel about it all, but I am still very happy. Let me explain it to you. Up until yesterday, me and the cute guy only got closer, I got  his name, number and know where he lives now. His name is Evan, but there is one detail he hadn't told me, but I'll get back to that later. Anyway, we talked a lot in class, and even Lisa noticed me getting closer to him. He has bright blue eyes, and I've honestly tried to keep myself from constantly staring but I just couldn't. He didn't seem to have picked up on it though so it's alright. I kept wanting to be as close to him as I could at all times, so eventually I realized I had a crush on him. Ofcourse me being me would not want todo anything about it, I'd just jump to conclusions every time he did something nice for me. And something of that sort kinda happened. He was busy this weekend he'd told me but he asked me if we could "go to the park on monday? We could goof around and eat icecream". A date you'd say, well, not exactly. I said yes and today was the day. I went to school and saw him in a few classes but he was gone for the last 2 classes. That fact made me excited as I thought of how he may have been putting up some kind of romantic picnic,or maybe looked for something nice to wear. Later, I went to the park. I had put on a nice dress, striped tights and Converse, and had nicely done my makeup. But when I got there, I was introduced by Evan to Izzy. Evan then explained that he was quite scared to tell me and he took his time to get to know me and to be sure... That he could admit he was gay and has a boyfriend... Izzy. Because I would accept him and his boyfriend.But, I guess the good thing is that I now have two new friends instead of one. It was quite a wild day. To think he had skipped the last classes to make out with Izzy. I mean, they are pretty cute together though. I'm just a little taken by surprise, and I'm not sure how to act. Enough for now, I'll keep you updated!

10/15/2004 - A windy and cloudy yet not too cold afternoon.Dear new diary, I'm April Lily King, I'm 16, and I live with my parents. They're quite rich, and very kind although my mom can be quite intrusive and my dad a little absent most of the time because he loves his job, and his precious car. So, I'd say I'm living quite a good life, except at school. You see, I'm not the one to have lots of friends, except for Lisa, but she has other friends too, while I mostly only have acquaintances, so she's often with them instead of me. I don't mind, although when someone insults me, I'd like someone to have my back, but I can deal with it pretty well on my own anyway. I get bullied a lot but it's never really gotten to me, since I quite like being what they'd call the outcast. Most likely I've been called emo before by my classmates, and even by Lisa, except she didn't mean to hurt me unlike the others. I do have an edgy look, but I'm quite proud to be different from all the others. Lisa usually gets in a lot of fights over people pushing her around for her pink hair, but she doesn't know about how much I get pushed around for my jet black hair with blonde highlights, covering about half of my face. (I'm surprised I haven't turned blind yet, but I just won't cut my hair.) The only time it gets to me is when people criticise my art, which is why only one of the teachers has seen my doodles, along with my mom. I can't trust people about it. Or when I got beaten up, but that only happened once and the boy had anger issues, I've been told. I still don't know why he hated me as much as he did, but he did. I also have a dog called Cinnamon Roll, Cinna for short. I love her the most in the family, and she got her name because she actually looks like a cinnamon roll. She's a daschund (a wiener dog if you prefer) and she's very fat, but healthy. She's a spoiled dog but all she wants is affection and she will eat about anything you'd give her, but don't you DARE touch her precious green carrot toy or she might bite your hand right off. I like music a lot, I love nature and walks around town and in Central Park (Oh yeah, I live in New York!), I like the rain, autumn, the cold and hate the warm, I like complaining although I'm happy, I like my family and my dog and drawing. I don't really like school but my grades are alright. I think that'll be all for now, I'll tell you more about my life some other time!