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Geez, im really sad now, it looks like M has gone. I cant find her profile and our Group for Myspace Nostalgia is gone.M, if your reading this I hope you are ok.Good luck with everything.

I took coding tutorial from Microsoft certificate instructor and made my profile layout entirely updated redesigned and renewed. Im very happy right now and very high at the moment. I went to click homeschool in Yaotome asked for html/css coding techniques for friend project. www.friendproject.net/xX18210605Xx

I have so much stuff to do today. I need to wash me and Kenny's cloths at my parents house, do the dishes, bring my cloths to Plato's clothset, set up our new coffee maker, go grocery shopping, and do our taxes. That is a lot to do in one day. Good thing I am up early so that I can do all of that. I added more music to my Ipod. I have a 32 gig and then I found my other sd card that was also a 32 gig so now I have 64 gigs for my Ipod. It's not a real ipod though. It is the knock off brand but it is better than a real ipod because it has and sd card. I can put way more music on this thing than I could ever put on the real ipod nano. I just call it an ipod because it looks almost exactly like the ipod nano. When I found that sd card I was so happy because they are expensive the higher the gig. I was looking for it before and I couldn't find it so I had to buy a new 32 gig so now I technically have 64 gigs for my music. I bought an mp3 player so that I had something that I could keep my music strictly on one device. This way I can add more to it without needing to have an itunes account or anything. It is super easy to get music on it. and put all my favorite songs onto it. I am a big rap fan but I like a lot of different types of music. I love to jam out to music because I love music haha well I should go so that I can get ready and take care of all this sh*t that I need to do today.. 

it creeps across the desertwith a head held lowand hands clutching tearsthe desert is vast and barrenand the sun dances a colorful mamboacross the horizon at sundownbut when the cool release of evening comesit realizes that tears are saltyand indelible in the sand

Im working on layout design after this would be codingthanks everyone on my FP friend lists

yeah. i might design my FP profile layout.i like interpol obstacle1 bass lines.im aiming my sound somewhere between linkin park with the bled break down tankblast. right now saving money to get my own residence. 1 kitchen somewhere around Tokyo metro with shower and bath. and continue my artwork and music activity. usually my rigs setup is down to line level basis and alter the tone using COSM at the end. i saturate gain with tubes using circuit board basis digital tone.this is how it goes. line level basis speaker sim signal flow to resonate to tweak locut and hicut equaliziation or to make my signal array with order then to COSM effects which makes the generated tones to more effective shape. this is the way i set up my rig for recording with MTR. for gig and stage performance basis i exclude COSM and use dynamics equalization with powertubes of VHT series. i bring all the signal flow down to line level basis then to altering device to shape up the tone out of poweramp equalization excluding COSM effects if im shoving it to poweramp. because it wrecks the sound if im trying to generate tone out of speaker cabs. for recording with MTR i shove COSM at the end.fender japan jaguar sunburst with single coil pickup interests me to mount rear pick up to active EMG. definately v30s.

I don't care what your color is,I don't care who you screw.I don't care if your Christian, Muslim, Hindu or a Jew.The only thing I care about, and all that I expect,Is that you treat your fellow human beings with respect.

Sherbert has hurt his foot. He severed a tendon in his foot and he might be lame for the rest of his life. He had to have 3 layers of stitches, my poor baby. He seems okay at the moment but I don't know when the anaesthetic will wear off..He can't go out for two months and he can't walk properly or move his toes or foot. It's horrible, they think he fell on glass or something. I'm really upset about it.

Tired :3

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i've spilled ink i've made mistakesi've ran my mouthmy eyes, made my own heart and head achenot anymorenot for youonly tonightonly one more timeyou're a ray of sunshine on a grey day...that reflects directly into a magnifier and sets the whole forest on fireyou're beautifully destructive, cute but oh i hate you soyou used to be the person i despised the mostshut me up when i'm having funmake me ashamed of who i amvicious on the insidepresented with careyou've taught me to see past youand all i see is broken broken that doesn't want to be fixedbroken that wants to cut and break everything out of sheer rageand well, for someone who spends their time wallowing in self-pity, i guess it's hypocritical of me to saybut you know what, i'm gonna say itstop it stop making everything about youthe world doesn't spin to make you dizzythis guy didn't go out of his way to ruin your lifethis teacher didn't change the rules to make you failown up to your mistakesi know your life sucks but dude you're making it impossible for it not to.

I had a pretty bad day yesterday.The rest of the week was alright enough but yesterday, I had what was quite possibly the longest panic episode I've had - it lasted around two hours. I'm exhausted even after getting nine hours' sleep last night.I just want this to be over tbh

Wassupp? First blog post, 'ey.

Last night, Kenny came home and told me he wanted me to stay the night at my parents house. I don't really understand why. He told me it was because he wanted time to himself, but I was planning on working last night and would have been out of his hair. I kinda took offense to this because I never acted like that towards him. I ended up hanging out with my friend Korri and drinking wine. We hung out for hours. I'm surprised at how well I slept here. Lately my anxiety has been horrible at night. It makes no sense to me sometimes. When I'm sleeping in my own room at my parents house I sleep really well, but when I sleep at Kenny's house, I don't sleep as good. I know it's going to take some adjusting for me to feel completely comfortable and safe there. Eventually I will get comfortable and not constantly ruminate. That could also be my problem. I haven't been telling myself to stop ruminating like I did before. I had to constantly remind myself not to do that so I wouldn't freak myself out. I get the most anxiety at night time. I think that is because I would have sleep paralysis happen to me and it scared the sh*t out of me. My mom said I used to have night terrors when I was a child. That could be it too but whatever it was it freaked me the f*** out. It's very frustrating sometimes because I won't have a single worry in the world, and then all of the sudden out of nowhere my anxiety sneaks up on me again. I just wish that it would totally go away and never bother me again. I just want to be able to go to sleep without any anxiety. I should probably leave to go back to the house so that I can spend some time with my cat. Even though I was offended when Kenny said he wanted some alone time, it was kinda nice sleeping here. It turned out to be good for me. I slept really well last night. Probably because my mom was home this time around and I felt really safe. Sometimes when I am at Kenny's house and I have anxiety at night, I have to think of my mom to try and calm myself down. I don't understand why this is, but it works. Well, for the most part. I got to hang out with one of my friends though and have girl time. That was really nice. I enjoyed spending time with Korri. We even talked about that argument that we had had a few months ago and we squashed it. When I go over to Kenny's I'm probably going to read another chapter in my book. I love reading. Reading relaxes me and I feel like I accomplish something big whenever I finish a new book. I think I am going to start making daily goals for myself. Theres this other website similar to this one and facebook mixed together and I might use that website to set myself some goals to reach at the end of each week. It would be lovely to reach those goals! F*** it! I am going to do it! Well, it's about time for me to leave and head over to the house. I want to play sims for awhile and read a book. Time for me to pack my sh*t and head back over. I'm getting kinda bored here. I'm not used to be here alone with no one around. It's super lonely feeling. Talk to you later!