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   I just realized this is going to be my last blog writing here in Texas. My dad is back from Illinois and yeah It's official we're moving on Tuesday and tomorrow is my last day of school.  I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be an emotional day. I know I said I am not going to miss anybody and I hate my friends but deep down I'll miss everyone. I'll miss the last 4 years I had in this place. I really didn't do anything but just cheer everyone on from home. I'll miss all my teachers especially my 6th-grade year. That was the best year I had, it was so much filled with drama and hot boys. That was also the year I had a little confidence in myself. I've made many mistakes while living here so it's needed that I have to move for a fresh start. I'm especially going to miss this 8th-grade year. This year was fun, I wish I stayed long enough for me to get a yearbook. I'm still going to keep my tabs on Dumas ISD, So I could see if I could order my yearbook. If not then that's okay I still have memories in my head.    I really hope FriendProject.com is still around so I could read all these blogs when I'm older. I'm really hoping the schools in Chicago id not as bad from what I've read.    The best friends I had through the whole last 4 years.: Monicah Mijack, SaHeeDaBee, Kailey Kelsey, Shamim Kabengenyi, Meagan Encinias, Lesley Garcia, Gisselle Lopez.   The biggest crushes I had the last 4 years: Jacob Shackelford, Imanol Marquez, Xzavian Sartain. Medium crushes I had: Ezven Venzor, Johnny Marquez, Kennon Walker, Joel Lozoya, Gisselle (Emiret) Beltran. ( She was hot okay)  I just realized this is going to be the last night I use this Chromebook                                                  CRINGE WARNING ALERT. Dear Chromebook you have always been good to me and always will be the best device to watch movies hope the next owner treats you well. 

i f***ing hate people >3

I have school tmr 

The internet is a vastness and lawless void, really it's just a group of subsections in subsector groups policing other weaker groups who don't know whats going on and who don't question a thing

saw this rly .pretty black kat today >.< i think it wazz a demon n took my soul o.O gna covr myself in jelly nowww

My neighbor came out to me as homophboic and called this kid a faggot, she doesnt even know im pan lol.

i have no idea why im bored im playing mincraft ♥  .....   

    My dad said we are living in the same place we did before we moved to Texas. So yeah I  searched up the same school I used to go to and do you know what I just found out. It's a school where all 1st- 8th graders are all in 1 school. I f***ing hate that idea so much why would I want to be paired up with those kindergartners, I hate that idea so f***ing much. So I did some more research and that school looks like a strict ass school. They don't even have a football team only soccer or their own Instagram page that keeps up with all the events that are happening in the school. That school looks like it belongs to special needs kids. And I am nowhere near special. I just know this school sucks ass. It looks depressing as hell too. If I found out that nothing fun happens in that school, I'm switching to online school during covid and wait till I go to high school. I'm really hoping that the next year I go to high school it's more fun and has a lot more opportunities and clubs than this suck-ass school. And if Chicago sucks in general and they are no cute guys for me to have crushes on and no sports games like these Texas schools, I'm killing myself, HARD. I just now realized Texas is better than any other state. I like how texas still does what it used to do during covid. I just don't like drama-free, and mostly happy schools in general lol. That school looks lame and I'm hoping high school in Chicago is SO MUCH BETTER>

Wish this place was more active tbh :<

I forgot i have school on monday and now im terrified lol but only 3 more months including this month till summer break! 

idk wtf this is but its  cool  lols 📟🔩🪄🪅🪞

everyone drop ur ig so i can add you and i can have new online friends :)) luv u all

everyone drop ur ig so i can add you and i can have new online friends :)) luv u all

i want to get moer drunk but i have no more alc :((

Well it's been over a month. Dealing with the sudden shock of m,y father passing away right in front of me while I was visiting him in hospital. Having to notify family. All of us crying together and talking about the old times. Organising a funeral. Attending the funeral. Talking with family and friends about our favorite memories of him, about hard times he went through and overcame, about how he had been such a smart, witty and intelligent man all his life until he suddenly developed dementia overnight and became delusional, childlike and dependent and needed me for everything. How he deserved so much better than the hand life dealt him.In addition to all the above I have had to deal with my difficult and demanding boss at work. My job with long hours and low pay plus more and more demands being put on me by my money grubbing boss. Coming home at the end of the long day and dad not being there. Depression, anxiety, frustration, anger. I have had a whole range of emotions to deal with and I have not enjoyed it. I hate feeling. I prefer to feel nothing.I don't really believe in an afterlife, but I can't help but wonder. Maybe dad is in a better place. Maybe he is concious and happy, but I doubt it. Either way he is definately no longer suffering, and I take some comfort in that.