VENT LYRICS YAYYY (will update) :3

TW!! Thoughts of death, self harm and really bad things!!

" like bike riding
It can be exciting
But I'm through with hiding
You're gonna think I'm crazy
Swallowing swords now, too bad I don't know how
I'm juggling knives, ow!
Three fingers that cost me"


"I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes"


"Do you ever get a little bit tired of life?
Like you're not really happy, but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread, but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive
Like your body's in the room, but you're not really there
Like you have empathy inside, but you don't really care
Like you're fresh outta love, but it's been in the air
Am I past repair?"


" wanna rip out my intestines
Throw them in the sea
I wanna raise the money to invest in plastic surgery
I wanna cover myself head to toe
With super sexy scars
Cause I mean
Aren't you supposed to burn if you're a star?
 
I want to be torn apart excruciatingly
I punish my body
Cause it's not good enough for me
The scary thoughts are spreading like a weed
The thoughts that say that I deserve to bleed"


"Cause we're so f***in' mean, we're so elitist, we're as f***ed as any church
And this bullsh*t West coast dogma has a higher f***in' net worth
I bit the apple 'cause I loved you, and why would you lie?
And then I realized that you're just as naïve as I am
Oh, you're so traumatized it makes me want to cry"



"One Black eye and bullet holes
Mom I've never been better
Dirty hair and torn up clothes
Mom I'm so put together
I tell the world that I'm fine
While I dive into the fire
Inject myself till I'm full of lies"


"Lost my job and then my hope
I f***ing hate December
 
LA's a graveyard for dreams
I buried mine six feet deep
And now I'm drowning into the scene"


"Sitting at a table
They wear suits and lies
They're shaking my hand
Lucky I got blue eyes
 
But they don't they see the kid who dreamed of this disguise
Lately it's been hard for him to watch me cry
 
Don't look in the mirror
Or I'll see what I hate
I'll suck up my tears
Cuz I think that I've gained weight"


"Regret what I've taken
Just please god don't let me-
 
Sleep for the moment
Maybe sleep forever
All I wanted
Was to be remembered"


"I can't help but repeat myself "I know it's not your fault"
Still lately I begin to shake for no reason at all
For no reason at all
For no reason at all
For no reason at all
For no reason at all"


"I'm leaving, Phil, I'm leaving now
I'm going to escape but you won't know how
Or where to find me when I'm gone
I'd drink myself to death inside"



"Tobi tells me lies when I'm sleep-deprived
Tobi says that I'm the worst of my kind
The voice that trails behind makes me petrified
Thinking I won't live to see twenty-five"



"
The sun is fun, the land is dandy
I only talk to dogs because they don't understand me
My teeth are yellow, hello world
Would you like me a little better if they were white like yours?

I need to purge my urges
Shame, shame, shame on you
Alibi to justify, somebody to blame
It's a halibut, party bitch, give it a name and say
Hey, hey"


"If I said I moved on (Moved on, moved on)
If I said I'm fine, that'd be a lie, f***
You're stuck on my mind
It doesn't get better, you turned off the lights
You left me a letter, but that won't suffice
Memories like leather, they last a whole life
I'll never get rid of them, trust me, I've tried
 
You left a hole right inside my ribcage
Chemicals, the only way to escape
Numb, I'm so f***in' numb
I've hit a wall
Nothing's been the same
"Time heals all"
Then why do I still feel so numb?
I'm so f***in' numb"



"Are you happy yet?
Now that you see my veins?
And while the vultures pick out all my splattered remains...
 
Will you forgive my debts?
Do you think I could be saved?
Or am I too far gone and all that's left is stains"