always
Category: Poems
Current mood:  miserable

when i go to sleep i wish it were really you that i saw before me, but it never is. i always open my eyes and I’m back in my bedroom that’s betrayed me a thousand times before. and now i know it's not possible for a little while longer. 

a few hours ago i thought it were only two days i had to wait. now i know how quickly things can change. i wish things got easier. it feels like they never do. all i want is one more day, frozen in time, where you're wearing my red glasses, and telling me how different the world seems, like i had never thought to take a look through them before (in my heart, i think i was wearing them too). and sometimes when i’m at work they’ll play a troye sivan song, and the lyrics always remind me of you. 

i would give anything for a day where we can just be together again. it really feels dumb to say i miss you, especially knowing its been just over a week. but god, does it feel like a lifetime. especially with these thoughts i’ve been holding. I think about you every slow and unrelenting day. and you're always busy and im always busy but i'll always sneak the time in for you. always.