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how is everyone?

school's almost over. which means that I'll b able to go home & get this profile set up correctly bc I like to decorate 

Hm so well... my last blog post was right about some things ... anyway summers over and I started school this week. really love the campus and everything is great here! but it does feel weird with the whole thing how i need to understand everyone else is LITERALLY MY AGE here! love that part sm id have 2 say.. the people are very nice but dont seem like they want to be, whats the word, friends or at least talkitive to me unless i do it first like cmon thats literally just based on appearance then 🙄 but its fine its wtv still making a lot of good class friends! but i need guy friends bad. i have none. and while its true there are DEFINETELY more girls here than guys i could still put in some effort. i love the library sm. theres 3 stories! every chair comes w a cushion, everything is rich and expensive and everyone is nice and pretty good looking its so nice! i dont feel too out of place at this school. currently need to get my damn ID! those bitches r taking long w it! my photography class is going well! i got to keep my own film camera from it! gotta buy the film and stuff by myself tho later on.. my 3rd day here is going good! eating some popcorn chicken and str8 chilling 8) i thought id dislike having a long break but i actually kind of love it! need 2 meet more ppl asap tho.. keep u updated (i may follow through this time:) 

I'm currently in school rn but I'm tryin my best on how to use this site. idk what to do T T

so, i'm kind of stuck somewhere between 2007-2010, despite being a young child who had no idea what myspace was back then. i'm here to make up for not being on myspace during its golden years.

beep boop boopity beep boop... HELP ME I'M BEING KIDNAPPED AHHHHHHHH I'M IN THE TRUNK AHHHHH ITS A RED NISSON LICENSE PLAE AK643P SEND PO PO PLEASE AHHHHHHH

Well, another day of the holidays. Another day of lockdown. Now I wrote a slightly longer post about this but it got DELETED, so here is my second, impatient attempt to summarise my day. My Mum and I were going out to the doctors so I could, among other things, get up to date on my shots (for some STD vaccine I'd missed in school). I had to get a shot in each arm, so now my arms are deadened and tired and aching, especially the right. Horrible. It's not the sinking in of the needle that hurts- that only took a moment- but the aftermath. Oh the terrible aftermath. Anyway. While we were waiting for the Nurse to return with my shots, and as we were admiring the small, robust storage of COVID vaccines in a fridge opposite, the world started shaking. When it first started, I thought it was me. Was I having some strange, mild form of PTSD from sleeping next to a laundry and getting rocked to sleep by the washing machine every night? But then everything started rocking harder, and the nurses evacuated us out of the building, at which point the tremors swiftly stopped. It was a level 6 earthquake according to the Richter Scale, which makes today the most exciting day in what feels like a bajillion years. Hooray. Except for the property damage. Hooray. 

so basically ctizuudlnoeszrpa2ganyways goodnight team

hii i dont know what to put on here but yeah im starteing to get into my depression again and im trying to cope by doing unhealthiy things and im starting to not do homework anymore and not being home alot and not really talking to my dad and starting to start up again with my unhealthy eating habits but yeah everything just kidna sucks right now  

it takes its time in eating me.

why am i like this ? i need to feel the consequences of remembering. i just need a reason. any reason. i can't stay focused. everything has hoarded itself into the 

i yelled at someone today. this is my joker moment.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

dear alice,     i wrote about the same thing twice now. i wanted to get it off of my chest yesterday. i wrote it when i was out with my sister. i liked how i wrote it and was pretty much ready to send it out but i deleted it. i didnt want to, my phone slipped out of my hand in the car and boom it was gone before i could post it. and now i wrote it again, wondering why i even had to. i feel like throwing it out there makes it feel like ik've actually told people about this but i think i've only told like 1 person but its just been eating away at me for a moment now so its just better if i get it out. maybe later once i think about it a bit more

I AM GOING TOO GET MCDONALDS IM SO HAPPY RN HHEHEHEH

it's so crazy how a year ago things were so much different and i was so much different. that's crazy too me. i'm happier now tho. i think, i just feel happier