hard vent

Vent again (about many things because I bottle everttgng up and never say anything to anyone ever) 

Tbh I feel annoying.
I dont really belong with my friends (that Ive known since before middle school so thats prob why were friends now)
I also feel very dumb around them.
Some are like, numbers and science smart, others are more like literature and philosophy smart, wtf am I smart at dude

I also dont like how I look at all man
Hate how happiness reflects on my face
I look better after crying
Today my class posted a picture on its insta acc and I look so bad Im going insane
Why are all my classmates attractive, I feel like a bug
Really hate when I say a specific feature is looking bad today (example my hair) and they say Thats how I look everyday like wtf????? Do I really look this bad everytime you see me? gosh.
I hate when they post me on their accs without asking others if they like the pictures they are posting cuz wtf man :l, also when they take pictures I look like I got ran over by a mining truck, but If i say anything or ask to retake the picture then theyll get annoyed at me and hate me and talk badly abt me but wtv
And I never say anything because then theyll hate me 

I dont really like venting, It feels annoying when I do it, like a burden, but no one is going to look at this so its fine to vent here ig? #NewHobby Hobbie? hobby? idk lmao

Listing sh*t 
I hate my voice so much.
(bad features + facial disarmony is a potent combo)
My nose is too big
My smile is ugly ASF like god, worst thing on my face is my smile bro is so BAD.
My eyebags look bad and my eyes poop even when im not smiling
Everytime I pass a reflective surface I HAVE to see if i look good (ofc i dont but wtv) I spend most of the ttime thinking if i look good rather than something useful, I shoukd be f***ing studying rn but I need to let this stuff out because I CANT ANYMORE

I want to kms so baddd

I hate myself so much
I want to kms

My personality is so ASS
I have 0 positive traits
I bully my friends cuz its funny but rlly its annoying (if i find it annoying they do too by deafult ofc) 
I feel like thay pitty me
Did i alr say I hate my voice? like its so loud I hate it. When i was a kid i was always shhushd but yeah



Goodnight gotta do school stuff