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Lauren Eats Humans

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 22
Sign: Cancer
Country: United States

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October 14, 2019

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05/28/2021 05:10 PM 

I'm back and ***Saaaaaad***
Category: Blogging
Current mood:  anxious

I had these couple of friends a few years ago that i've been trying to get back in contact with the past few days & waiting/hoping for replies kills me. i distanced myself from them bc of my abuser & want to tell them what happened & how i've changed bc i miss them with all my heart.
but there's no knowing for sure if they'd want that & i'm scared of being overbearing/upsetting them
i hope they both know i love them 

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Lauren Eats Humans

 

Mar 3rd 2022 - 12:43 AM

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i never really got back in contact with them. i kind of did with one of them, the other tho, not at all.
and even then, I really wanted to talk to them one on one not just texting, and that's all they gave me the option to do so the convo went no where.
I've just been moving on with my life pretty much. Something I think is a little lesser known about long term abuse that takes away years of your life is the scope of the isolation you'll experience. My abuser isolated me heavily, many do in order to keep you under their control, and I lost a lot of friends due to the isolation from the abuse.
Once you're finally free you need a lot of support, that's normal. You're basically trying to reverse intense conditioning and straight up trauma. The downside is you do have to re-evaluate your relationships, and (the worst part) try to make/find friends as an adult.
Which feels impossible some times, but it isn't. You just have to keep trying.

I'm still in the just keep trying phase :,)

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