Goodbye My Sweet Teen Years
Category: Real Life
Current mood:  awake

 When I was 17 that was all that mattered to me. Nothing else was really a concern to me, at least not in any real way. It's strange turning 20. I'm not this week, my friend is, but in a few months I will and honestly I'm dreading it. I'll be 20. Imagine, I'm one year off from being able to drink legally, smoke legally. I'm getting older. 
  "Yeah no duh, we all are."
 Yeah and it sucks. Every time I watch these teen, coming of age, romcoms it makes me realize that I won't be able to think that way. Getting caught up in the drama of highshool. Of course I can't, I'm not even in high school anymore. My friend and I talk about how it sucks getting older and having all these new worries. Bills, rent, our future careers are all things that just feel like they're coming out of nowhere. I mean I'll be turning 20 this year and I still haven't fully decided on a major. How am I suppose to choose one thing to do for the rest of my life? How? 
 I wish they made more coming of age movies/shows that take place in college. It's always high school this, senior year that, but they never show what happens afterwards. What happens after you graduate. Some of you move out of state, some of you don't, some still stay with their parents, some become parents themselves. I want to see, teens should see that. I was so swept up in being seventeen that I didn't even feel it when I turned eighteen. 
 You know I was a terrible student in highscool. I was ditched, constantly. I ditched a whole month just going wherever with my boyfriend at the time. Why? Well because I didn't care if I'm being frank. I wasn't worried about what would happen, just that I looked at him and wanted to explore the city. Being seventeen, it sure is something. 
 You know my friend and I feel so old, but we try to remind each other that we're not. I mean, 20 compared to 30, 40 or 50. I can't imagine being that age. I can't imagine one day waking up and feeling tired getting out of bed. Mm, I should make sure to stay active so I minimize that. I did hear how elderly people who stay active feel young and live longer. 
 I don't know how to end something like this. I guess I hope I live everyday, just living and enjoying it all. I hope whoever is reading this does the same. Enjoy being seventeen, enjoy being 20, enjoy just being.