Confessions part 1
Current mood:  disappointed

Confessions of a dumbwhore part 1

I think I'll problem do multiple of these but, here's the first one as of my time on friendproject.

I am way more (currently) attracted to my coworker than my partner. Not to say I don't find my partner attractive and not to say I don't feel very very guilty about it, but it is what it is for now. I'm not going to act on it but it's annoying. Like I feel like it's partially because me and my partner are so busy we don't get to see each other much and I see my coworker at this point more than I see my partner. It's still upsetting. I think it is also partly because it's around the time of year some very bad things happened in our relationship and I feel distant. Anyways. 
I mean they're is also being very nice to me at work, like nicer than any coworker (unless they were interested in me sexually) have ever been? Like checking on me because I looked overwhelmed just saying nice things idk. It just feels nice. Not to mention they're very pretty. Like they aren't my time but everyone is my type after I get to know them enough but like they are very very conventionally attractive and it's nice to feel like I'm getting some attention from a very conventionally attractive person. Especially, because I do not view myself as conventionally attractive or any kind of attractive. (I know some people do but I do not and that is completely okay). 
It just feels nice and I hate myself for it. 

Also I only feel okay posting this because I have two jobs so no one will know who who is except me.