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FIRST POST
Current mood:
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thinking about stuff that happened in the past makes me feel so sick. I took my meds and now I feel numb-ish. Its annoying. Its like hey! choose to feel sick and sad or nothing at all! :))) I have to study but I can barely eat. at least Im finally living my myspace dream feeling nothing is like waking up and staring at the wall. Im TIRED of staring at the wall. like, I try to do things to reintroduce a routine in to my life but everytime I try to get up, I start thinking and go back to bed. I feel useless, like a waste of space. then, what right do I have to feel sad when I have a house and food? the world's going to sh*t and I have the audacity to feel sad over my middle class american life. its moments like that when I realize im such a loser :(maybe I should start walking my dog or try skating again. I bought my board second hand so I kind of hate it. It's like all jenky and stuff. I guess writing out my thoughts is a way to bring things back to normal but normal never existed tbh. Im gonna start linking my playlists although nobodies gonna read these or listen to them. Im also gonna start writing my advice on boys, music, tv, weed, school, and other stuff. Or i'm gonna write this one post and forget I made this account.
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zoloft, myspace, snookie
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