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I hate being ignored and ugly and broke LOLOLOLOL omg new social outlet to sh*tpost? Facebook sh*tpost to insta sh*tpost to FRIENDPROJECT SH*TPOST?????????/????d/fD?fD?S?D?G? 

So i've been working on getting my bachelors of science in digital cinematography and its going really well, but i have this aching feeling that i dont have much to bring the table (so-to-speak) for the film community/industry and this new insecurity i feel will ruin my chances at making something im proud of,,,,,, idk,,,,, welcome to my word vomit of the day haha ♥ take care :///

Today's card is the judgement card.It seems pretty bang on for the times lately.JUDGEMENT...Let's get this straight unless you can HELP someone else with their situation you should keep your comments to yourself.The only persons actions and words you should judge are your own.Take these crazy times to use the pressure to become a precious jewel not just buried by the dirt.As cliche as it sounds we all need the sh*t times to appreciate the great ones.

I keep forgetting about this site LOLZ 

She was born a wild child Some would even compare her to the dancing flame of your favorite candle She was always off from one adventure to the next  She was a drifter Slowly floating on the empty seas we call pain and heartache Her heart was cold for she had seen first hand just how much damage to ones soul heartache can do  Little did she know  That one day She would meet another  Floating  He was much like her His heart bruised and torn But piece by piece they picked each other up And they both learned how to love again And soon the lonely sea they drifted in turned from a sea of heartache into an ocean of unexplored opportunities New beginnings

i went to my first assembly today. it was really fun:) and some of the talks were quite insightful. maggies mom was being mean to them :/ it makes me feel bad that maggie has to go through that. i never want her to feel anything but happy when theyre with me, and ill always do my best to make them as happy and comfy as possible. maggie was sewing today. they fixed a sweater that aliexpress sent the wrong item. i think its awesome how good they are at all the different creative things. its amazing. maggie says my facial expressions are like a puppet:) i like being their little puppet. we played cod today which is always suuuper fun:) they showed me how to change the button layout and it actually really helps me play better. they laughed when i showed them how bad the game looks on my phone though lol. maggie showed me pictures of what they want to look like as a man/after they get top surgery. i spun around a lot for them lol i got so dizzy:) i made them laugh so i had a lot of fun. we listened to music together and maggie showed me some clown pictures of them:) they were so f***in cute:)) especially they makeup around the eyes WOW. theyre so good at doing makeup i love seeing pictures of them its amazing. a little while after that we said goodnight to eachother and we went to bed. i really like going to bed with them and saying goodnight. it makes me sleep well. i cant wait to share a bed with them.

maggie went for a run this morning in their new shoes. they really liked them! they said they were super cushiony and they made them like an inch taller. that sounds really fun. maggie took a picture of the sky this morning and it was so pretty:) after maggie was done with some of their monday stuff we got to talk for like an hour:) (until 12:30) it was really fun! maggie showed me this video about pozole to watch, and it was super interesting. i learned stuff like there is a big japanese influence on food in some parts of northern mexico. i decided to start exercising and i did like 30 mins of stuff this morning and they said i was bsing lol. i got on video and was doing pushups and jumping jacks for them. it made them laugh really hard lol. maggie had a hamburger for dinner and carrot fries. it sounds really yummy:) while they ate i went into a csgo lobby and maggie told me funny stories to tell the people. the players got so confused lol. it was really fun but i think i couldve executed it a lot better. i wish i had more charisma sometimes. after that we chatted about a bunch of stuff. maggie told me stories about highschool which are always really funny. they laughed at a narcoleptic girl when she fell down the stairs lmao(not that i blame her id laugh my ass off too lol) and their friend daisys lame sense of humor. maggie has a great sense of humor. they always make me laugh. we talked about me a little and how lame i was lol. they say i sound really depressing sometimes lol. theyre not wrong.  we watched some funny dave chappelle videos! the clayton bigsby one is hilarious. maggies brother did impressions of dave and it was really funny lol. maggie let me hear them talking for a bit and i couldnt stop laughing. oh and he got them a really cute umbreon pin:) then after a little while, we played some call of duty and listened to ac/dc. it was really fun, and rn were listening to the chameleons and maggie is sleeping and im gonna go to bed as soon as im done writing this post. today was so nice:)

hi i forgot i had an acc here lmfao

Reading further into Warning by Miles Taylor, a great comparison came up for the current admin as it makes it's exit. Hopefully into oblivion, but never know for sure. Cleon came back only to do more damage to the Athens people, and ultimately pitting it's people against one another among other neighboring societies that disagreed with them. Cleon was just like what is happening now, and the comparison is uncanny. Although, we have the power to dictate what is next to come..."From David Clifton of the Harvard Crimson, link below... Make Athens Great Again! By David F. CliftonMarch 1, 2017 Donald Trump is nothing new. His ilk have been around since the inception of democracy, and since then they have wrought havoc on democratic societies. Our ancient forebears have warned us about them in no uncertain terms. When the demagogue Cleon rose to power in Athens, the cradle of Western democracy, the ancient sources were explicit about the danger he posed, testifying to future generations of the necessity of opposing such figures. And yet, Cleon rises again and again to terrorize democratic societies. Now, he occupies the Oval Office. After the death of the visionary leader Pericles, Cleon achieved political supremacy through the textbook tactics of demagoguery, flattering the people and promising them small benefits as distractions from the corruption of his regime and the calamity of his policies. “I can fool the [Demos, the people,] any way I please,” says the character of Cleon in Aristophanes’s play “The Knights”. “I know what food he is accustomed to.” In return for the scraps and empty promises they received, the people followed Cleon blindly. Now Donald Trump offers worthless promises about a border wall, a ban on Muslims, or making America win so much we’ll get tired of winning. In the process, he insults whole nations, ethnicities, and religions; tramples on the civil and human rights of immigrants and refugees; and does nothing to address the real problems facing the country. Yet his promises won him the presidency and still receive support from millions of Americans. Cleon also used the Peloponnesian War (Athens’s great war with Sparta) to shore up popular support. By riling up the Athenians against an enemy, he could unite them behind himself. Now Trump uses apocalyptic and deeply misleading rhetoric about crime, immigrants, Muslims, and the economy to create a climate of existential fear in which he positions himself as the sole source of salvation. Why did Cleon want power? For power’s sake, no doubt, but also to enrich himself. The comedies of Aristophanes are replete with accusations that Cleon embezzled money from the state coffers and perpetuated the war to extort money from weaker cities. In just his first three weeks in power, Donald Trump has created countless financial conflicts of interest; White House Counselor Kellyanne Conway promoted Ivanka Trump’s product line; Eric Trump cost taxpayers nearly $100,000 on a business trip to Uruguay; Trump’s travel ban notably excluded every Middle Eastern country where the Trump Organization does business; Trump hosted Prime Minister Shinzo Abe of Japan at his resort, giving it free international publicity; and questions fester about the extent of his business ties to Russia. The mixing of public power with the accumulation of private wealth was a hallmark of ancient tyrants and demagogues, and the pattern evidently persists today. Cleon and Trump have also demonstrated the same weakness: a thin-skinned inability to endure ridicule. Aristophanes wrote play after play mercilessly mocking Cleon, driving Cleon into a rage and even prompting him to sue Aristophanes. Trump has shown a furious obsession with Saturday Night Live's portrayal of him and his administration, becoming upset about each new skit. He has also, like Cleon, sued a comedian who mocked him: Bill Maher. Most striking, however, is Cleon and Trump’s shared disregard for the norms which form the bedrock of the democratic process. Plutarch describes Cleon’s worst sin, saying, “Cleon stripped the bema of its decorum, setting the fashion of yelling when he harangued the people ... He thus imbued the managers of the city's policies with that levity and contempt for propriety which soon after confounded the whole state.” Trump’s mockery of a disabled reporter, his condescending midnight tweets, his disparagement of critics and the media, his casual incitements to violence at rallies, his lewd remarks about women, his attacks on federal judges, his unending boasting and unparalleled hyperbole, his pathological mendacity, and even his tendency to speak in rambling or incomplete sentences all subvert the basic standards of civil discourse necessary for the healthy functioning of a democratic society. He has stripped the American bema of its decorum, and the nation risks being confounded. The uncanny resemblance between Cleon and Trump is a shrieking alarm bell. Cleon’s reign was disastrous for Athens. His “Athens First” policies anticipated Trump’s “America First” platform: He prolonged the Peloponnesian War in the hopes of Athenian domination and harshly treated subject cities in Athens’s empire, leading to Athenian defeat. He also replaced bluster with wisdom in the deliberations of the Assembly, enabling additional power-hungry demagogues to rise to prominence and sustain Athens’s decline after his death. ADVERTISEMENT Athens never regained the power it once held. It was surpassed first by Sparta, then Thebes. Athenian democracy returned, but the damage to Athenian power had already been done. Like the rest of the city-states, weakened by almost constant warring, Athens finally lost the independence it had enjoyed since its foundation to the conquering armies of Macedon. Will the United States go the way of Athens, unable or unwilling to stop a demagogue from undermining its democracy and ruining its international power? Will liberal democracies go the way of the independent Greek city-states, crippled by internal chaos and nationalist tensions? These questions are too big to answer by analogy, but analogy demands that they be asked. History sings to us of the triumphs and follies of civilization, bearing the combined wisdom of millennia of human experience. At this moment, it screams at us to heed its warnings. Yet there are none so deaf as those who will not hear. https://www.thecrimson.com/article/2017/3/1/clifton-make-athens-great/

no words can describe how much I hate religion class hhhhhit's such a pain, i stg, and for what? the teacher is definitelu out to get me or sumthin, no joke. she's constantly belittling me it feels like, and then just says i'm confused???!! like no, you literally are failing the whole class, i don't think it's a ME problem. 

Does someone know if I can traffic tortillas to Korea, without that I'm gonna die 

it was nice to see you last night.i know it was just a dream, but i think theres a part of you that comes to visit me,wants to visit me. i'm not mad at youanymore. i used to be, but i want to believe it's not your fault you left this way. i'll blame it on your mom and on the world and on your sh*tty boyfriend.anyone but you. no, im not mad at you. i can only remember every good time we had; to me it's all we had. our final moments just a blur of confusion, a bad dream that i could never comprehend. maybe one day i'll run into youin the isles of a department store.twenty years from now,you've moved out of your mother's house,and maybe if i wave at you, you'll wave back.genuine. white flags in the middle of a Target frozen food section. then maybe both of our ghosts could rest. 

I hate school I hate school I hate school I hate school I hate school I hate school I hate school I hate school I hate school I hate school

what is this, why am i doing this, im sitting in school rn, being a part of this corrupt system. i know the truth but yet, im not doing anything.. what am i supposed to do, im trying to wake everyone up, but they just want to stay asleep, im being called crazy and insane while im just telling the truth. why dont you wanna wake up? dont you wanna see what all this is really about? how am i supposed to do this, i cant do this alone, i want someone to understand me, think like me. but how am i supposed to escape from this system, from this ''reality''. i want to escape but then what? what am i supposed to do, i'll be alone with no one who understands what im going through, being awake really isnt easy, but it is helpful in seeing the truth in people, and the truth in life. i want to find out whats behind this world, whats really going on, im tired of all this fake love, popularity, money, fame. give me something real.

just wanted to touch base with myself, and share a little with you all.basically i'm just thinking out loud lol.life can get really difficult, can't it? i've definitely been struggling lately. things here in the US with the pandemic are in total disarray, and it's been a lot to take in. it's been scary. it's been exhausting. but i just try to hope that on the other side of this, we grow as a people. i'm not sure how, and maybe that's too optimistic, but i'm trying to hold onto that ♥christmas is right around the corner, which is always kinda bittersweet. i always feel a little lonely at this time. this year it looks like traveling back to my hometown is out of the question, which is definitely going to add a new layer of loneliness. i always look forward to seeing my family, even if we drive each other crazy sometimes. i'll really miss seeing my friends for our annual christmas party, and seeing my friends' families too. it's a major drag. maybe i can start some new traditions or something. idk. it could be liberating.i know everyone says this, but wow i can't wait to go to concerts again!! D: live music is going to be so much sweeter after this. i don't think i'll take it for granted ever again, even those small local bar shows. especially the local bar shows! how exciting that day will be.anyway, sending everyone love during these tough times, and thanks for reading ♥xxjace