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Living or Existing
Current mood:
 contemplative
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Dear No One In Particular, For 19 years I’ve simply been existing and it’s so exhausting. I want to LIVE. I want to get up and travel the world, experience other cultures, try new things, meet new people, and enjoy the things I’d never fathom I would. I’m tired of living this mundane life of getting up, going to a sh*t job, eating, coming home, and going to bed. This is NOT how I want to live this restricted existence I have been given. I want to feel alive. I want to die knowing I lived a full life, not just existed, and contributed to the corrupted economy and live like a lifeless drone. I want to pack up the essential, get a van, and just leave. Drive across the country. Sleep under the stars. Wake up on the beach during the sunrise. I want to just disappear and live. I might send postcards and check up on those i love as often as i can, but i want to leave everything else behind. F*** the fake friends, f*** the social media, f*** work, f*** these a**holes, f*** this small ass town and small ass lifestyle. Right now feels like a dreadfully tedious, leisurely walk to my grave. No. F*** that. I want to f***ing throw myself into all the luxuries life has to offer. I want to jump off into the unknown and go through life with a middle finger up. Because f*** it, im not gonna be scared of living no more, because as the latin phrase says, “sedit qui timuit ne non succederet”.
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