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I've been in quite the mood. A depressed mood kinda stew of kindled emotions. I guess I better write it out before it spills over. It's supposed to make you feel better so hopefully, I feel better. Hopefully, this causes me to stop thinking about these sordid things. As inspiration and motivation to continue doing so, I called on the phone to hear the voices of those who hurt me, found out I was blocked with one. Dunno how I feel about that. I called the other, it rang and rang. Possibly cause he's busy, or it's possible I'm blocked from him as well. I called again...heard his voice and hung up. Couldn't face him, didn't know what to say anyway. Pain is gain in one way or another. The pain that he gave to me will be my gain somehow? I don't know. All I know is that I'm sitting here sad listening to the Stone Roses and getting high. Do you know what I do to get high? The whole process of it all is painful really, both physically and mentally. I've been sad for a while though, over things that I either have no control over or that has happened in the past. As we all know, the past is the past, can't change nor go back and that is that. I wanna get into more detail as to why and what is making me so sad, so I'll make a separate post about it.