why this feel am i
Current mood:  bummed

my dad is here visiting us for the weekend. so that's good. i applied for five guys yesterday, and interviewed today, and i got the job. that's good. so why do i feel not good? why am i feeling upset? this sucks. i get to see my dad and i got a paying job, so why do i feel so sucky? why do i feel upset and feel like i might cry? i'm not even on my period.

first of all, i didn't really do anything to get the job. i applied and they quickly called about an interview within like 30 minutes. then, the interview was barely an interview. like there wasn't really any questions about me like i thought there would be. i guess i'm not complaining, it's good that it was easy. but it's weird and somehow it feels wrong. maybe not even for that specific reason, this whole thing just feels wrong. they must be very desperate to take anyone in.
also, when i first got there, i was like i am here for the interview. and then she said they'll be out in a minute or so and i can just sit at the table by the door. then i went to sit, and then i sat and the girl i talked to and another girl came to the counter and peered over the wall at me. i know that they were looking at me because i am so small. i look like a child. i don't think they are bad people you know, like i am not bothered by them i guess you could say, but it just reminded me of how small and little i look to everyone. i just forget that that is something that other people notice about me. 
also the manager guy said that it can get stressful and emphasizing that it's fast and things need to get done fast etc etc. of course i said i could handle it, but i am very very worried that i won't be able. literally, i am stressing about stressing. bruh, i don't know if i'll be able to make it. i really just want to quit. and i haven't even started yet!

but anyway, that's it. i dont know why i don't feel "normal" or happy as i should be. it sucks, but hopefully i'll be fine. hopefully