I finally met Korri's boyfriend last night. He does not look 40 at all. I think he looks younger than my boyfriend even. I don't know though. I could have sworn she said he was 40 but I could be wrong. He seemed pretty chill though. He was able to pass my crazy friend test lol. I was f***ed up one night and I was having a moment where I was acting really funny and weird and he seemed to take it pretty well. So far, he has survived the friend test. Now he just needs to hang out with me and Korri when we are drinking, because thats when me and Korri get weird in a good and funny drunk and high sort of way. My nick name is Snooki if that explains anything.

       I've been really feelin myself lately. Ever sense I got out of jail, I have felt a huge amount of confidence in myself. I feel sexy now. I don't know what caused me to all of the sudden feel like a million bucks every day, but it is a good feeling. I mean, I know I am a pretty girl. I have always been that girl that guys wanted really badly, and my dating history is a long one, but sometimes you still get insecure. You could be the hottest girl on the planet and still feel ugly at times. Now that I am out of jail, I feel much more attractive. I have cloths now that actually fit me properly, and I just look really good. 

       I feel like ever sense I started smoking weed again, my life has been much better. Me and my boyfriend hardly ever fight anymore. I mean, we have fought a couple of times sense I have gotten out of jail, but not the the point it used to be. We used to get into fights every single day. Now, I am always so chilled out that the only time we fight is once in awhile. I wish it would completely stop though. I can't deal with fighting so much. I just want to get along. Kenny really needs to work on picking his battles sometimes. Fighting is exhausting and just negative bad energy that I don't want or need right now. I just got out of jail a week ago. I want to enjoy life. Not be miserable in it. 

       I am totally obsessed with this new song called "High End" by Future and I am f***ing crazy about it. I love the song and the music video is super trippy. I like it a lot. Chris brown looks so f***ing dope in it. He looks like a sexy demon. Its like super dark. The dark energy around it is super f***ing black! It's so dark that you wouldn't be able to see a thing if you were inside of the song lol. I can't help but like it though. I keep listening to it over and over and over again cuz I just like it that much. 

       I was thinking about bringing myself back to being really out there on social media again. This time around though, I will not be posting negative sh*t for attention. This time it will be good stuff. I don't know though. I might not. It is a lot of work being liked on social media. People expect the best out of you all the time. 

        I love getting high. I wish I could smoke 100$ of weed in only a few days lol. I would love being high. I was pretty much sober for like two years besides drinking once in a blue moon so I think my body feels like its deprived of smoking weed. I just want to smoke and smoke and smoke and never stop. Sometimes I smoke so much that I smoke myself sober. I hate it when that sh*t happens. Total f***ing stoner problems. I smoke more than I drink. I have defiantly grown out of my drinking phase finally. I would rather smoke weed than get drunk. I still drink some times but nearly as much as I used to. I used to get drunk almost every single night for like a month. 

       My hair is getting healthier and healthier. I can just tell by the way it feels when I touch it. I think that I look super good with black hair though too. It is a lot less damaging to your hair if it is dyed black vs being bleached until it is almost white. I do plan on going back to almost white hair, but I don't plan on doing that any time soon. I might end up really liking having black hair. Regardless of my choice, it will still look good.  I can pretty much pull off any hair color. My favorite hair colors are black, platinum blonde, or brown. I decided that I am no longer dying the ends of my hair. I will only be dying my roots. This might change depending on how the ends of my hair wash out. I am hoping that they will wash out into a brown color. It might look really cute. I have never had my hair ombre before so it would be a totally new look for me. I think it could end up looking really cute. I mean, eventually all of that hair is going to just get cut off anyways, so why should I care about the way the ends of my hair look? As long as most of my hair looks good, then I don't really care. I am really not into dying my hair like I used to be. I used to want my hair to be all these cool different colors. Now? I hate having to take the time to dye my hair. I don't mind doing it, but I no longer do it for fun. I just dye my hair to keep up my on point appearance.   I don't dye my hair anymore because I think it's fun. I have had my hair every single possible color you can think of including yellow and green. It just got old. I got sick of the hair dye not staying in my hair and washing out within a week. I want something that will last, and is also a normal color. I feel like dying your hair funky colors at my age is childish now, because thats all I did when I was in high school. I thought I was so cool with colored hair because no one else was doing it at my school. Now several years later people are dying their hair crazy colors? Get read people. My old friend Deandra just dyed her hair these two vibrant purple colors and to me it makes her look childish. She looks less mature. I don't know. I guess its because doing that stuff was cool in high school back when I was doing it. Now, its just stupid to do. The colors never stay in long enough. I mean, it would be one thing if she had a normal color and a funky color together, but not two funky colors. Nothing personal to her at all, I just I just don't like her new hair color on her. She should of dyed it red again like she used to do all the time instead of doing those colors. I always liked her red hair. It looked super pretty on her. I don't know why she stopped. Red is such a pretty color. 

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(The Song I Mentioned)

       Ok, back to the discussion about my hair. I really think it will look cute. It gets kinda annoying having to recolor your hair every month. The ends of my hair don't hold the color very well because they have been dyed a lot. I don't know how old the ends of my hair are, but I know they are old enough. I kinda feel like trying something new with my hair too. I don't necessarily want to dye my hair a different color, I just want it to wash out to like a brown or some sh*t. It could look really f***ing cute all faded out and everything. Underneath all of this dye is almost white blonde hair. I could probably let that sh*t fade for a really long ass time until it no longer holds any color in it. I am going to start dying my roots once every inch of hair that grows out. I am the type of person that likes to keep up on my roots. Basically, my plan is to just keep dying my roots and let the black wash out at the ends. This will cause it to have an ombre look and eventally all that dead hair will just be cut off and the black in my hair will stay in my hair much much longer because all of that hair will be super healthy. Get the point?

       So sense I have been gaining some weight, I have been having to go through my cloths and get rid of stuff that doesn't fit me. I plan on getting rid of all the cloths that are too small for me and then replacing them with a new one that is brand new from Hollister. They took down the store they had at the east towne mall, so now I am forced to just order what they have online. I like to go and try stuff on and then decide weather I want to buy it or not. I am looking forward to getting a brand new Hollister wardrobe started. It is going to keep growing and growing over time. I don't know why I didn't start doing this awhile ago. Screw goodwill! I mean, I still shop there and probably always will, but sometimes its nice to get a brand new shirt.