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a little rant
Current mood:
nostalgic
I've been listening to my comfort songs, relaxing, and watching horror movies all day today. There's something about the calmness I'm feeling - it's almost nostalgic like I haven't felt this genuinely aware for years. I feel calm and quiet. The thunderstorms yesterday night gave me a peek into what war probably sounds like, but there was a profound stillness that surrounded our home as soon as the thunder quieted for a few seconds. A stillness that offered some form of reassurance.The weather and feel of the outside remind me of a time I knew nothing but thought I knew everything. I miss these times when being blissfully ignorant was okay because it meant to me that I was safe and completely fine. when I didn't know bad even existed, and I was gullible enough to believe it never would. Weather like this, comfort hobbies, they make me realize things. I should be grateful for the little bit of childhood I was allowed to have, even if it was all a lie.
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