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What are these lollipops called? My brother and I just had an arguement b/c he calls them "Sweatie Pops" Like wtf is a sweatie pop? I just call them lollipops, cuz i dont know if they have a name. Anyway, do u call the Sweatie Pops, or Lollipops?

we didnt talk a ton today except we texted a tiny bit in the morning and she called me at about 12:50 and we spent the night together, which was really nice:) she was feeling pretty bad today, so i tried to give her space. i wish there was more i could do for her or to help her when shes feeling like this. it makes me sad to know how much she has to deal with, but im glad ik how shes feeling. i love her so much. the stuffie she got me came today!!! omg its so cute! i love it so much. i fell asleep hugging it which was so nice and maggie said i looked cute:) 

hi i hate myself and my art, i hate how i look i hate how i act i hate every tiny thing about myself, ive rarely felt confident in myself and when i do it doesnt last very long. i have the worlds lowest self esteem, nothing could change my mind

i died my hair black lol 

melancholy:a feeling of pensive sadness, typically with no obvious cause.just finished reading jaden's blog. it was nice. i didnt realize it but it was making me smile. then i started to cry.i dont know why.im still crying.it was around the part where he was talking about houses that i started to tear up. its nice to have someone be so happy about anything. i still cant believe i can make someone so happy.i feel bad for him at times. it seems like in jaden's mind, his future with me is bright.i cant deny, it feels nice having my name next to words like "happy" & "love". never thought itd be possible.but since i can remember, ive always seen my future as something dark. i try, i honestly try to imitate his cheerfulness.sometimes i do daydream about us. our journey. the first time we meet, our first date, marriage, and whatever comes after. its nice. i dig deep inside and bring out happy maggie. ..but they never stay for too long.they leave. im left blank.im always left blank.thats when sadness creeps in.its always there. it comes when it wants to.like yesterday. i was having a good time talking to jaden. i was making fart noises for him. i was watching him laugh. he looked so happy.then it just creeped in. that emptiness and sadness came in. i felt it. i felt it take over my whole body. i wanted to cry. suddenly this little cheerful person i was watching on my screen was the saddest thing i'd seen in my life. i couldnt match his joy. its odd. he stares back, but theres nothing to look at. its empty. no one is there looking back at him. its gonna be like that when he sees me physically. he'll be looking at something thats empty. emptiness and sadness never leave. ive been feeling pretty empty since then. the feeling is bigger now. thats when thoughts come in. earlier today i was at the doctors office. 9th floor. all i could see was my hair flowing freely and me hitting the ground. the images wouldnt stop. they kept playing over and over...i try. ive always tried to make this thing inside me go away but it doesnt want to. its part of me and i cant understand it. thats why its so hard to explain it all to someone who loves me. "what can i do?"the truth is. i dont have the answer to that.ever since this thing has been with me, my job has been to search for an answer for others. but there is none. even if i found one, they wouldnt understand. they never do, they always fail. thats why i gave up on explaining.sadness is there. it'll always be there. it has no cause.its just here with me.its me.  

Gorr'Rylaehotep and  His WrathGorr’Rílæhotép okh Hjés Réíðú:ᚷᛟᚱᚱ ᚱᛁᛚᚩᛖᚻᛟᛏᛖᛈ ᛟᚲᚻ ᚻᛃᛖᛋ ᚱᛖᛁᚦᚢ:Germanic-English1 Hínaúbér ðí Wodsés,   Sínd Rétsíge af Bræúms.2 Okh hínaúbér jéné bræúms,   Ladŭlníér ðí Groʃé God dér Wodsérés  Wém wíértíér okfa hérrşé ínérkhalb   Þí Víérşté-Vald.3 Sogwol, şonsaí Hí és ðí Groʃé God,   Jéméno wér entsíérs læsért, ér entsíérs   Néğmén vortéílé gégén-Hím ínérkhalb   Þí Wodsérés: sol̄ séhén okh tréf̄é Hjés   Réíðú.4 Wol’ éúç maí-nŭl séhén Hjés anşkit,   For és ést līr af aúsdrúkhé, abér   Þír wíl̄é bí aktíoné fråné Hím.5 Ín Hjés aktíonés, Hí sol̄ éntféʃéln Hjés   Téntakélés gégén Hjés gégnérs,   For ðírér gífŭltérsé wíð ðí súbştansérs   Af krŭlkéhaín okh Têd.Germanic-English (Runic)1 ᚻᛁᚾᚩᚢᛒᛖᚱ ᚦᛁ ᚹᛟᛞᛋᛖᛋ   ᛋᛁᚾᛞ ᚱᛖᛏᛋᛁᚷᛖ ᚩᚠ ᛒᚱᚩᛖᚢᛗᛋ.2 ᛟᚲᚻ ᚻᛁᚾᚩᚢᛒᛖᚱ ᛃᛖᚾᛖ ᛒᚱᚩᛖᚢᛗᛋ   ᛚᚩᛞᚢᚢᛚᚾᛁᛖᚱ ᚦᛁ ᚷᚱᛟᛋᛋᛖ ᚷᛟᛞ ᛞᛖᚱ ᚹᛟᛞᛋᛖᚱᛖᛋ   ᚹᛖᛗ ᚹᛁᛖᚱᛏᛁᛖᚱ ᛟᚲᚠᚩ ᚻᛖᚱᛋᚲᚻᛖ ᛁᚾᛖᚱᚲᚻᚩᛚᛒ   ᚦᛁ ᚤᛁᛖᚱᛋᚲᚻᛏᛖ ᚤᚩᛚᛞ.3 ᛋᛟᚷᚹᛟᛚ ᛋᚲᚻᛟᚾᛋᚩᛁ ᚻᛁ ᛖᛋ ᚦᛁ ᚷᚱᛟᛋᛋᛖ ᚷᛟᛞ   ᛃᛖᛗᛖᚾᛟ ᚹᛖᚱ ᛖᚾᛏᛋᛁᛖᚱᛋ ᛚᚩᛖᛋᛖᚱᛏ ᛖᚱ ᛖᚾᛏᛋᛁᛖᚱᛋ   ᚾᛖᚷᚻᛗᛖᚾ ᚤᛟᚱᛏᛖᛁᛚᛖ ᚷᛖᚷᛖᚾ ᚻᛁᛗ ᛁᚾᛖᚱᚲᚻᚩᛚᛒ   ᚦᛁ ᚹᛟᛞᛋᛖᚱᛖᛋ ᛋᛟᛚᛚ ᛋᛖᚻᛖᚾ ᛟᚲᚻ ᛏᚱᛖᚠᚠᛖ ᚻᛃᛖᛋ   ᚱᛖᛁᚦᚢ.4 ᚹᛟᛚ ᛖᚢᚲᚻ ᛗᚩᛁᚾᚢᚢᛚ ᛋᛖᚻᛖᚾ ᚻᛃᛖᛋ ᚩᚾᛋᚲᚻᚲᛁᛏ   ᚠᛟᚱ ᛖᛋ ᛖᛋᛏ ᛚᛁᛁᚱ ᚩᚠ ᚩᚢᛋᛞᚱᚢᚲᚻᛖ ᚩᛒᛖᚱ   ᚦᛁᚱ ᚹᛁᛚᛚᛖ ᛒᛁ ᚩᚲᛏᛁᛟᚾᛖ ᚠᚱᚫᚾᛖ ᚻᛁᛗ.5 ᛁᚾ ᚻᛃᛖᛋ ᚩᚲᛏᛁᛟᚾᛖᛋ ᚻᛁ ᛋᛟᛚᛚ ᛖᚾᛏᚠᛖᛋᛋᛖᛚᚾ ᚻᛃᛖᛋ   ᛏᛖᚾᛏᚩᚲᛖᛚᛖᛋ ᚷᛖᚷᛖᚾ ᚻᛃᛖᛋ ᚷᛖᚷᚾᛖᚱᛋ,   ᚠᛟᚱ ᚦᛁᚱᛖᚱ ᚷᛁᚠᚢᚢᛚᛏᛖᚱᛋᛖ ᚹᛁᚦ ᚦᛁ ᛋᚢᛒᛋᚲᚻᛏᚩᚾᛋᛖᚱᛋ   ᚩᚠ ᚲᚱᚢᚢᛚᚲᛖᚻᚩᛁᚾ ᛟᚲᚻ ᛏᛟᛖᛞ.English Translation1 Beyond the Woods,   Are a vast of trees.2 And beyond those trees,   Summons the Great God of the Forests   Whom would also rule within the   Fourth World.3 Even though, since He is the Great God,   Anyone who decides to blaspheme, or   Decides to take advantage against Him   Within the Forests: shall see and meet His   Wrath.4 Though ye' may not see His face,   For it is empty of expression, but there   Will be actions from Him.5 In His actions, He shall unleash His   Tentacles against His adversaries   For they're filled with the substances   Of sickness and death.⊗ Héíl Gorr’Rílæhotép - ᚻᛖᛁᛚ ᚷᛟᚱᚱ ᚱᛁᛚᚩᛖᚻᛟᛏᛖᛈ - Hail Gorr’Rylaehotep (the Slender Man) ⊗

maggie said i looked cute today:) she changed her profiles on discord and twitter and they look really cool! she knows how to do cool fonts and stuff like that it looks awesome! she gave me a font to use for twitter and that was really nice. hacker maggie lol we played lots of cod today, which was awesome! we(mostly me) were kinda sucking in the morning though:/ she laughed at me cus i like kfc lmao. i talked to her for a bit in just spanish. i really want to get better. we talked about our house today:) and we looked up houses in washington and we saw some really cool ones! i cant wait to live with her shes so amazing. she made fart noises which were f***ing hilarious. maggie helped me practice kissing too. when we started i sucked but i think i started getting better. she has such cute hands. she wrote a blog yesterday and it was amazing! shes such a good writer. i hope she writes more cus i really liked reading it

I started a new job last Tuesday. Last week was all about training. Tomorrow is my first real shift. Since Friday I've been in complete sloth mode. I'm enjoying all the leisure time I have left.The job is fairly simple but demands a lot of customer service action if you know what I mean. The dress code is kind of sad. It is a company Tee with dark pants or jeans and your wonderful nonslip shoes of course. We get to wear aprons too so I bet I'll look real wifey in 'em.We can't wear colorful pants or pants with print on them. We can't wear any COLOR beside black pants. I don't have that many pants at the moment and I don't solely want to wear jeans to work. I'm planning on making some culottes, cigarettes, and straight-leg pants after a couple of paychecks. I was also thinking of sewing some long-sleeved shirts because that place doesn't believe in turning the damn AC off! I have to go and finish some partial derivatives.Until next time.

Today I woke up with yesterday's makeup guess u can tell how my day started from THAT  so then I went downstairs and made coffe in my pijamas and then went upstairs again and watched "skins" all day , then I cried about ..... well into small words how great f***ing life is  after all of those many things that I did I went and showered with cold as f*** water just to take my mind of things, cause I think to much  and after that I got ready while listening to The best song "lovers rock" by tv gir ( very underrated) and then went and ate an ice cream cone  PRETTY DOPE  ! and went back home and watched moreee "skins" …… ohh and I also watched Tim burton  corpse bride , again that's a really cool movie , soo yehh that was my day pretty interesting …… anyways bye losers imma sleep  GN

i want to be more active on here. write a blog everyday. but im kinda boring tbh.jaden writes everyday...everyday. its always about me. he includes other stuff but the main focus is maggie. its cute. it makes me smile.(he's singing to me rn lmao. blood and tears by danzing. hm...i may be wrong but i have a feeling. i feel like he sings it but his purpose is practicing for the next time he has to sing it to me. idk maybe im reaching.)anyway, (i get distracted a lot) i try to keep up w his blog and leave a comment behind (im also dyslexic. illiterate too ig). ik he appreciates my comments. (lmao hes singing mother by danzig now. lmao. hes putting a lot of emotion into it. hes so dorky. its cute)so yeah. i hope he sees my comments. he can be slow sometimes lol. its funny.  ik he'll find my entries. he likes stalking me. he'll be here (hi jaden) i hope he doesnt feel bad if i write something that seems a bit off.i just wanna use this ig to express myself. when i want. bc lets be honest...imma forget about this in like 3 days. so yeah, if i use this to express myself, i wanna be honest you know...ig my problem is not know what to write about. idk....i have to make dinner but im not hungry. maybe i'll  just eat a salad today i dont want to eat meat anymore. thinking about it makes me want to cry. idk why i have to have such a hard time w food. like i have enough already. i always say that...but its true. i dont need an ed. my whole life has been a huge f***ing struggle w food and i hate it. im over it. completely over it...ig me being "over it" doesnt really matter bc its still here. itll always be here. crap, i needed 2 more games! i need coins on cod. ig i'll be back later. imma tell jaden to stop singing now lol we have to get back to gaming.ok bye! 

Friend Project DONT SHUT DOWNDONT discriminate Dont Ive been injured twice my brainwas on stimulants Years! agomy eyes had small tears the tissues luckilu i noticed what the heck i was doing, didntgo any farther. I had Jaundice I had a sickness though it was hard for me to gain weight so thats good. its a sickness. 

today was really fun. she was busy until like 2:30 doing stuff with her family, so i missed her quite a bit. we played so much cod yesterday it was awesome!! shes really really good, so its fun playing with her. i like following her around and watching her, even when we play gun game and i can kill her lol. i dont like killing her. we played ranked a lot and i kinda got destroyed, but it was a lot of fun. this entry was kinda late because i was at my first meeting:)i adore maggie so much, shes perfect and i love her to the moon and back. shes f***ing gorgeous too

hey this is a test post to see how a blog post existing affects the layout!currently struggling with the background. my thought would be to put a solid color underneath the element that has the posts themselves but i dont know twhat the elements called and everytime i look at the source for the page i get brain worms.UPDATE: it has one ! its a nice dusty bluelike this!but the comment has a different stinky color that is nice but doesnt match.

hi im new around here!  was wanting to make a page for a while now since i never got to experience myspacealso, gonna dye my hair soon! i'm going for blue and purple :]  my fashion style takes inspiration from tradgoth and scene a little bit. but tbh i dunno what to call it except for my own lol 

today was fun as hell. we talked a lot today:) maggies sneezing a lot:/ she thinks its cus of her brother rn. i bet it has to suck sneezing so much. she told me a hilarious story about an old lady who couldnt figure out how to turn on and log into her computer lol. she has so many funny/interesting stories. i really boring compared to her. we watched coraline today and that was so much fun:) we played lots of call of duty today! i love playing call of duty with her, and shes SO GOOD! shes awesome. we talked about our future more:) maggies idea sounds really nice. going to the beach in the winter with her and just laying on the sand until the sun sets sounds fantastic. and hearing about the process of when we start dating is interesting. i hope covid doesnt last too long though, cus i really wanna see her! and i got to see a picture of her with no makeup on  shes so f***ing pretty. shes the prettiest girl in the world