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𝘁𝗼𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘆. 𝘁𝗼𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗴𝗼𝗼𝗱. 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗹𝘂𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝟮 𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝘁 𝗮 𝘄𝗮𝗹𝗹. 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝘆𝗲𝗮 𝗜 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗸 𝗴𝗼𝗱 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗴𝗶𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗺𝗲 𝗮 𝗰𝗮𝗹𝗺 𝗻𝗼𝗿𝗺𝗮𝗹 𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝘁𝗼𝗱𝗮𝘆. 𝗺𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝘅𝗶𝗲𝘁𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝘀𝗻’𝘁 𝗮𝘀 𝗯𝗮𝗱 𝗮𝘀 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗱𝗮𝘆𝘀. 𝘀𝗼 𝘆𝗲𝗮

I didn't post my daily blog yesterday bc after work I hung out with some friends. Ironically, the same ones who haven't been inviting me to dnd. Maybe I'm just thinking about it all too much, idk. It's easy for me to get in the mindset of everyone actually hating me and just lying about it. I feel like that with everyone right now except for Bun. I just get in these moods. Another friend of mine, or someone who says we're friends, moved 4 hours away recently to live with her boyfriend. She said whenever she came back to visit she'd come see me, but she's here visiting now and didn't even text me. I shouldn't expect much from her though she's also the one who just randomly ghosts me for months on end, especially if she gets a new boyfriend. But it's fine, I'm vibing. Sad vibes, but still vibes. Other than that today wasn't too grand. I went to work in a good mood, but didn't leave in too good of one. People just bother me. I'm also having withdrawls from not being able to smoke or have caffiene. Headaches and irritability. I'll deal, I got a new pack of cigs yesterday. Just can't smoke them yet. I also saw my little brother tonight bc my dad took me home from work. He was excited to see me when I got in the car. I love seeing him, he's fun. He's only four but I hope he loves me and continues to.Hm, nothing else interesting happened. I wanted to drink last night but I have to wait until my mouth is completely healed to consume alcohol. Too worried about dry socket or it not healing properly.We're having a babyshower at work tomorrow for one of my managers. I got her some diapers and a little robe for her and a matching one for her baby. That's what she said she wanted, so hopefully she didn't get it for herself.Once again I'm so glad no one subscribes to my blog, it's become my daily diary type thing. I had a physical journal but it's a lot of work to write in daily and I end up forgetting about it. It's easy here bc I'm on here anyways for the other aspects.

Suprisingly I haven't gotten the detention yet for hitting the transphobe. School has been boring but interesting, people keep getting into fights but i guess thats what happens when you give students 2 weeks of back to back exams and expect no tensions. I'm a little worrie about my math score because I feel I didn't do too well. My next exams are in 2 weeks aiming for 7 and above 

First blog post! I tweaked the CSS so my age isn't visible...at least on my profile and blog. Now I just need to figure out how to make it look better, haha.

If you eat someone's ashes, are you considered a cannibal? 

sh*t, how many calories are in a bag of popcorn

tw // swearing and mentions of body imageokay so i use he/him pronouns and also they/pup/clown and im a trans guy but like my dysphoria is rly weird ;-; ??also i have trouble accepting my body but idk if its bc of dysphoria or bc of my confidence ghhh >:///on a side note !!!! I GOT MY FIRZT BINDER AND IM SO HAPPI :DDDD !! MY FRIEND HELPED ME BUY IT ON SECRET SO DAS KEWL♥333 ANYWAYZ BYEE LOL 

the energy in the house has been weird lately. maybe it's because i haven't been in it as much. lot's of good things and, now, equally not so good things have been happening, which is why im not used to this feeling. is that was normal life was like? has it really been that long? a year and some months doesn't seem that long, does it? too many questions, i apologize. anyway, to put it short my grandma might not live for much longer. the shock is still there so i feel numb at the moment. i don't want the kitten anymore, the timing is too sh*tty. i've been binging sooo much lately man i love my friends dearly but holy f*** i don't wanna eat anymore. my body is so out of wack now i'm late on my period once again (surpise surprise). normally i don't start out with the bad news/updates first but the bad things are pretty much the only things on my mind right now. it would also seem selfish to gush about the good things. hmm. i'll save that for another post. peace.

listening to blink 182 for the first time, they do be good

today isn't as bad as it has been in that past. math was pretty okay. digital diesign (which im in rn) is also pretty okay. i'm kinda excited for lunch but i honestly don't have much for it. i'm always excited for science bc ms.harbottle, my favorite teacher, teaches it. but yeah, i have a goof feeling abt today. 

currently done with life ♥

hey everyone, still in school but we should be friends 

currently at school. godd why isthere no hot ppl here, i want to go home, now.

So, yesterday I didn't go to the mall, sad I know. I did go to barns & noble and get a few mangas. I got The day I got reincarnated as a slime and the 3rd book in the Danganronpa despair girls :DDD I also went to red lobster with my family:)))) But I'm going to the mall today! :))

   Sorry, it took me this long to talk to my blog, I just didn't have the energy to come on here and vent. Yes, I'm here. I hate it here.  I hate the way we're living right now, every day is the same routine. Wake up, take out the trash, open the windows, scroll on Tik Tok for a while, brush my teeth and wash my face, go on my phone for the whole day, wash the plates, go on my phone (or shower), pray, sleep.  The same depressing routine I do EVERY DAY. I know past me would've expected me to be in school by now. BUT PAST ME IS WRONG. I'm depressed, I feel like sh*t every day, I also have a mental breakdown sometimes in the middle of the night. Overall, nothing is happening just the same old, same old poorness.