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I'm having a gloomy day today. Not too sure how to turn this mood around, but I'll be starting off with opening all of the windows and painting for a bit. On days like this I have a nasty habit of playing music that'll drag out the pewp mood for way too long, but that's okay as long as I get up and moving a little. Writing On The Walls by Underoath is currently blasting around the apartment as I sip my coffee and type this out.I'm here. Trying my best to be present and avoid goin all stresso depresso. I guess this post can be a rest stop for anyone else reading it who needs it. Drink coffee and listen to music with me, I guess? The gloomies won't win this time.  

i totally forgot about this profile.anyways.there are some things that hurt to much to even think about. like a physical ache in my heart. i don't know if anyone will ever really know the truth. i've been told to shut up so many times it feels like a lie whenever i try to tell someone. didnt mean to get deep. also, there's this dude on my sm server who keeps messaging me. he's really nice, i don't think he goes out a lot. i guess he just wants a friend to chat to. ofc i hope he doesn't get the wrong idea and thinks i like him or some sh*t. i dont do online dating. but hes cool to talk to, i guess. im gonna get fit and hot. i promise. 20 pounds by next year! 

literally all i've done in the last 2/3 days is listen to music okayi want to do something actually useful but then i play the drug in me is you (the entire album) for like the 3rd time in 1 dayactually f*** it i'm gonna still do nothing else this is fun-emo_trash04

maggie didnt feel good this morning :/ they made bracelets:)) they looked super cute! we hung out for a couple hours and that was really nice:) my planner got here today:) its so cute! they did makeup today, and they really liked how it came out:) i cant wait to see it, cus theyre really excited about it so ik its amazing:) after they were done they went to take pictures and a shower, so we didnt talk until the evening. when we started talking maggie sent a bunch of funny pictures lol. maggies back was hurting :/ there was a spot they couldnt crack. they put icy hot on, and i think it helped so thats good. we went to sleep right after

maggie had oatmeal for breakfast, which sounds really good. i talked in my meeting today:) maggie was really proud of me:) that made me feel good, and i hope i can keep participating more and more. ill be sure to record myself if i ever give a comment so maggie can hear. maggie went out and got really good looking food o: they spilled a bunch all over them and their brother lol. they burned themself :/ the food looked really good. we watched a bunch of yt together:) lots of shows and stuff which is really cool. maggie knew some people in one of the videos though lol. i told maggie about how i went to ohio for a pokemon tournament and they thought it was crazy. i mean it kinda is tbh lol. i mean, who goes to ohio haha. we watched wrestling! its really really cool. we watched videos with the ed edd and eddy soundtrack added over them lol. we watched some cool shows that maggie went to, but they didnt show the crowd >:( i wanted to see them lol. the band(ig) was called egrets on ergot, and they were super cool! the music was cool and the frontman was really cool to watch perform. maggie made jokes about how i used to be a fag lmao. its hilarious, and i cant believe that that used to be me tbh lol. theyre the funniest person ive ever met 100% it rained really hard by maggies house last night:) there was thunder and everythign!! 

today was so much fun:) maggie called me while they were waiting for their mom to come out of the store! it was fun, and then after a bit when they were home we talked more. we did this cbt app called bloom together, and it made maggie go to sleep haha. it was fun, and we watched videos about relationships, and we really didnt have anything to work on, which makes me really happy:) we went on ig together for abit, and maggie showed me tons of funny videos, and cute cat stuff:) we talked about clothes, and maggie picked me out an outfit:) im gonna get it and hopefully i look good. the way maggie would like me to dress is pretty awesome, and i cant wait to try stuff out:) itll be really fun. maggie taught me tons of stuff about bras lol, theyre good at teaching me in depth about lots of stuff, and its always fun. we looked at funny ebay posts of cheetos lol. and i got maggie cheezits:) and cookies! we talked about more serious relationship stuff, and some of maggies concerns, which hopefully i made them feel better about since ik i wouldnt feel that way. i love maggie so much. they left after a bit to go make food, but they didnt eat and they started to get sad :/ after a bit we went on twitter together and we watched tons of funny clips from reality tv shows. it was hilarious lol. there was this one clip of a midget brawl at a pizza restaurant lmao. and tons of fight videos, and some of the girls were throwin hands lol. its really fun to watch stuff with them. ik itll be even better when i move down to la and we get to spend time together irl. i cant wait:))

I CANNOT  EXPRESS HOW MUCH I LOVE POE AND HIS SON KARL !!

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 cutting off your "friends": it's easy, it's free, and it's f***en liberating! i know that title is weird and scary but hear me outi recenly cut ties wit a guy who was just always mean to me, always makin fun, always negative, always a pity party. and sure he has problems himself-- he's got trauma, and for a long time i used that as an excuse to still be friends with him. but NEWS FLASH: A) fixing him is not my job. and B) his trauma does not excuse his actions.so i cut him out. easy as that. left the one last gc i was in with him and i feel so much better for it.so yeah anywayz tl;dr i'm gonna be stickin wit just the best and closest for now and maybe even make some new frens while i'm here :)

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I was upset last  night so I took down every single poster in my room and started packing my stuff away.Why?Why would I do that? Cause I woke up and was so annoyed cause now I have to unpack and put everything up. 

why are no good games free to play >:((( im not playing $40 for cyberpunk man

oKAYY GUYSSS EEEEEE let's just say that ever since i started listening to these foos i have felt nothing less than magical. not many bands can do that!!! very f***ing happy to experience these feelings again; it's like... they can't make a bad song (like current joys hellooo). words can't describe it. i feel soooo nostalgic it's like i heard these songs in a past life or something. sooososo glad the first time i listened to deftones i was high; made everything 10 times euphoric. anyway, can we f*** now? did i persuade you enough? this isn't directed to anyone in particular. or is it? ;) peace.p.s.currently ascending n going through every emotion 

ughhhhhh hi. i'm tired of writing in edgy poetry format right now like i'm trying to be the next pete wentz or something, which is like, impossible to the nth degree. life f***ing sux right now. i removed my tumblr from my bio but if you've been on that you know that already know lmao. my anxiety is being totally awful and i'm still in love with the same person. i'm glad i started listening to pop music again though. i got a drumkit for christmas, and doc martens! i think i'm gonna need a whole cd rack soon for my collection. i've got all of tai... (well, not the first ep, but that's crazy rare yk), and 2 cobra starship albums, and a bunch of other stuff too, like whisper war and the cool deluxe version of infinity on high, like with the tarot cards. i'm gonna try to be more active on here. my hair is also getting longer and i wanna get it cut like 2007 hayley williams

was watching old clips from warped tour (while i was looking emo as hell) at like not even 1am. can you be nostalgic for something you never experienced. anyway who cares. it's a ridiculous f***ing time i cant sleep and don't wanna sleep so i'll just find some sh*t to do-emo_trash04