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I think i need to start doing makeup. This girl is not me. But i love her a lot. 

mornin yalls!! it's nice a chilly in big bear right now and we just got mcdonald's to eat outside and such!! but bummed cuz i get to have no fun in this trip.😾😿

YAGAMI YATO IS SENDING ME!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHH HELP THIS IS NEXT LEVEL BULLSH*T ABBY LIKE AHHHH I NEED TO BE STOPPED

so i recently started losing weight, and, it's super hard, like, for one, i can't stick to my diet, cause there are always these foods around in your house that look great and taste great and when you do eat them you end up eating more than what you have planned, and exercising is kinda hard, since you start off ok, then you end the workout being covered in sweat, and you have to do it again tomorrow, and  it feels repetitive.

F***king message me hahah I need new friends 

im sorry im so sad all the time.i dont mean to be, i don't want to be. you're so f***ing positive, how do you always stay so positive?sometimes i just want to get you angry. i just want you to get angry with me, i want you to understand and share my pain. i want you to wallow with me, i know, im sorry. i want to be happy, the world is just so so sad,and my brain is always so mean to me. it tells me you hate me and that you've changed your mind. you found out how f***ing depressing i am and you're leaving while you can. it doesn't help that i isolate myself and make everyone think that I don't want to talk to them anymore,i just don't know how to talk to people, that's all. my head gets in a fog and i can't concentrate on anything,i can't think straight, i can't comprehend the world around me. sometimes the fog gets so thick i can't see,white rings around the sights of my eyes and the world glitches in front of me and i can barely get myself to put a string through a bead or a pen to a paper. sometimes i just want to talk to you but i can't get myself to do anything. i need to prepare for all of the possibilities before everything,and when i can't i get scared. im so sorry that im scared of everything. im so sorry that it's so hard to be around me. im sorry that i can't be any fun to be around. i'm always coming around with bad news, i've got a negative for every positive i manage to squeeze out of a conversaiton. i'm such a f***ing buzzkill, i know. i'm such a f***ing buzzkill.

Does anybody wanna talk? Anything really. i got nothing to do (besides my world history hw but we just gon ignore that)

Why did everyone leave myspace for Facebook?It was clearly the superior site.This brought back a wonderful feeling of nostalgia. In a time where there's so much unknown.A time of very high anxeity and depression for me.It's nice.

im not even gonna review it this album just f***ing sucks especially zip gun boogie and space boss those two tracks shouldve stayed in production

$0M30N3 K1$$ M3

So things are picking up which has made setting up an office mandatory. I started the day with an eye appointment, then picking up my Mower from the repair shop, mowing the jungle, and setting to work finishing a small piece of furniture I was restoring. Then my daughter and her fiance' showed up and painted the bedroom I am converting into an office. Then I began building work station counters to put in the office. Finally called it quits at ab out 10pm. Tomorrow, We will start moving my office out of storage and setting it up in the house. 

Life goal: Make a band

Hi fans, I just started my new blog on this popular website named myspace, don't know if you've heard about it. If not you been living under a rock. I coughed in public today. People were giving me weird stares, don't know why. Anywayssss up in big bear rn. Cool beans. Thanks fans #myspace #forevef

So like. Ugh okay. I guess I'm make a serious post for once. I really just want to be pretty. Like so so desperately I can't even look in the mirror with a bare face without getting legitimately upset. Like and it's not even that I want validation from men. Like idk people thinking I'm pretty would be nice but like idk I just want to find myself pretty. Like I know other people find me attractive and I'm just not my type and I've been trying so desperately to be okay with that but I'm just not. At least not yet. I look at myself with make up on or dressed more feminine and it feels wrong even though I like the way it looks, probably because I was punished for being feminine growing up despite how much my parents sexualized me openly. I just want to feel desired without feeling objectified. I want to feel pretty without spending a lot of time on my makeup. Idk I'm just sad and ugly. So please gaslight me and tell me I'm pretty so you all can cringe at any new found self-confidence. 

next time yall see ice cream buy it and eat it cuz this stuff slaps🍦this strawberry shortcake ice cream just solved all my problems🙌