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exploring
Current mood:
hopeful
I just got home from a late night walk and i feel good. It was really cold out but i liked the cold. It was scary... and dark and i was so close to calling up a friend to walk with me or talk to me or something but i didnt and im proud of that. Every time i hang out with them i see who they really are. They arent on my level and i know i sound like a b*tch but they are so.... so... so.... closed minded. Every time i hang out with them i understand it more and more. They dont think about life the way i think about life. They feed into societys standerds. They arent really the people i need in my life. I love them but i think its time to love them at a distance. And tbh i dont even know if i can say i love them. They were just people who made me not feel alone at times. I dont think i ever loved them, i just loved the company they gave me. We're growing up and i dont want them apart of my life anymore, and i was so scared of saying that but i think its true. They just arent the people for me. Ive known them since i was very young. Its time for me to think of myself for once and learn to live with myself. i came into this world by myself and i will leave this world by myself. I know that i have to live my life the way I want to, not the way society or my "friends" tells me to. This is all apart of my journey and realsing what i really want in life is okay, people change they grow up and need different things. peace out girl scouts. (this is just a little diary... thats open to the public lol. dont mind the grammar mistakes and things, i type fast. but i thought it would be cool to have a blog.)
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