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so the guy in my posts when i think of him i get sad a bit because i still miss the feeling i had while talking to him and also the fact thta i cant handle being rejected but i dont care about him anymore if he cae back i would hold animosity tbh its just different now and in the aftermath i learned stuff that made me realize it was not that real for him anyway i realize now that i overeacted a lot a lot about him but it was my first what felt like real relation ship u know and the first person i actually let myself fall for blindly to my desavantage he felt real because he knew people i knew u know that matters later but i got over him yayyyy

so rquick recap before i got on the real problem i got over the boy on my post found another one he left me got a crush on a class mate didnt work found a new guy was trash found the guy i lost my virgiity to he cheated and left me unloved and now what 

i- am i doing something wrong like damn 

so hello everyone how is everyone doing ? ive been better than today bu ive hit another low and now i feel like i should come her and talk about it so lets continue shall we ?

Just putting this here so I remember to make a parody of Queen of Mars I was just a holy manLeadin' life without sinI turned water into wineand walked on water just fine.I'm the king of kings and i amalso lord of lordsIt only took a resurrection to show that i was God ignored.12 disciples came to meand they followed me to RomeMankind's sins were now mineAnd the cross became my throneI'm the king of kings and i amalso lord of lordsIt only took a resurrection to show that i was God, restored. 

when he listens to tyler the creator

I went and watched the demon slayer movie with some friends after work today! I was kind of iffy on actually going because I didn't want to deal with two of the people who were going, but it was really fun experience nonetheless. The movie was great, I actually got close to shedding a tear. I hated the dubbed voice for Inosuke though, I really couldn've went without that. I'm not a fan of either subbed or dubbed more I will watch either but I just couldn't stand his voice in this.I had an actual cigarette too, menthol at that.I wore my techwear fit out too. I haven't had a chance to actually wear it out anywhere since I got it because I only ever really go to work.I'm not sure if I want to lay down now or if I want to play a game, I'm kind of tired but I slept until noon today. I dunno I'll decided in a bit.My cat wants my attention I should give it to her ~

I just want to hear your voice.. but I can't hear it love.. where did you go?

I was so productive today lol, it finished my psychology revison. My test is soon T-T. I also hit a transphobe with a shoe today HAHa. Im probably going to get an hour detention.

I spent time with my gma this morning while I made coffee. Sat with her and played pokemon red while we had some. I like getting up and sitting with her, I just don't do it as often as I should. I was doing it daily but I've kind of fell away from doing it especially with work and having to get my permit. I'm just making excuses at this point, I can do better. I'll do better.Played eso with my partner some before I had to go into work. He hit level 50. I decided to make a new character specifically for crafting, one for running dungeons, and one for just questing. My dungeon runner is a healer because idk I just like being a healer most times. Quester is a dragonknight, and my crafter is a nightblade. Not that I'm gonna use my crafter for much other than dailies though. I'm installing some mods for Morrowind right now, I planned to play it some tonight but considering it's almost 1:30 and I have to work at 1 tomorrow I probably shouldn't.I also bough Danganronpa on steam, it was on sale for $7. I may not have because I only had around $25, but it was on sale.. sales get me.I was asked to come in an hour early but I just ignored the text, not that I had any issue with doing it I just didn't want to. When I got to work I found out it was because someone came in and said they couldn't work their entire shift. Doesn't really make sense. Their nerves were shot, they said. Which I totally get, but this particular person has been calling out at least once a week lately. We hired someone new and are looking to hire someone back, but we're waiting on them to put in their application again bc they're out of the system from being a seasonal worker.Whatever, it's fine. My eyes hurt and I need to be sleepy. I don't think anything else interesting happened today. Not that any of this was interesting, I've just come to enjoy talking about my day to the void. 

Ah, today was nice. had a friend over, had some good food, lots of coffee, and a good time. i did her nails for her and they came out so good! so excited to do my nails when my stones arrive...my nails are so grown out loldrank a bit and watching the sopranos before i go to bed. might read some.overall, nice day. : )

nagito komaeda !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate f***ing homework with the life of me and my brain is going into overload mode and I'm saying random stuff and talking about whatever hots my head. And my friends are no help I want special attention no one is giving to me.  and I have no clue what the hell is wrong with me ya know? I literally and saying stupid stuff for no reason and now I'm typing it for what reason I don't know. I just want attention and no one could give it to me and I even have discord and still feel nothing this sh*t sucks.  what is wrong with me. I don't know what's going on. 

I decided to disappear from everything without telling my friends or acquaintancesnobody missed me :)