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hiii its me felix! sorry i havent been active lawl but im starting school pretty soon so i might take some time to be active but yeah! :D ill post some stuff soon when i can :P

I don't know how to feel my emotions are a mix of everything all the time 

i have,, no clue what to use this for but hello, friend requests welcome

burned a lot of calories today working out & walking. i hit 13k steps! brb googling how to lose 50 pounds, TONIGHT!!

Man. In 3 weeks I start public school for the first time ever, after being homeschooled my entire life. That's exciting but slightly terrifying. But isn't that just what excitement is? Afraid but looking forward to it nonetheless.I hope I can reinvent myself and my world somehow, it's why I wanted to go to school in the first place. I'm sick of being the person I'm expected to be and I'm sick of this sheltered little homeschool community. I'm sick of being in a place where my friends learn to hate the very thing I am.Bright-eyed tweens turn into homophobic teens and I can't even hate them because it's not their fault and they don't know any better. And from an outsider's perspective I know they'll probably be called bigots and I shouldn't be justifying or apologizing for anything, but if I wasn't queer I probably would've been one of them and for that reason I can't really hate anyone who hates me for my sexuality, for my gender. I can't hate them, but I can't stay with them any longer either. Hence, public school.I don't know what to expect. Sleep deprivation and stress, probably, but I hope I can find something in it. Something better than friends who don't know me and teachers who teach hatred to them.Everyone acts like I'm heading to the Wild, Wild West, a lawless place where God is dead and children swear like sailors. And maybe that's partly true, but there's more to it than that. There's different people, different experiences, different opinions. I think that's what they're really scared of. That I'm going to learn to see through the bullsh*t. I started doing that a while ago though.But I can't abandon my friends for good. I wonder if they'll find out that I'm queer somehow, I couldn't care less. I wonder if they'll still like me after that, I wish I could care less. I guess I'll send them letters from what they call hell. Still keep up with them, hang out with them on weekends. I know they'll hang on to my every word and story. Letters from the damned. Stories of the wicked.So yeah, I'm excited but terrified of what'll have to happen, they're terrified but excited to know what becomes of me. I'll do my best to not get swept away by it all. -Jed

So I haven't even made one of these since coronavirus started, and now that year and a half (I know right) is finally winding down, I guess. So that starts off the explanation for that title.You see the thing that it taught me was even when you think you have everything planned out, financially, emotionally, logitistically, it seems like more likely than not your life will not go down that pathaway after all, and that's just fine.If I went by my pre-covid plan, right now I would've been in Long Beach instead of Newport Beach, I would've been closer to gratuating, I wouldn't have found a side-career from my aunt's store liquidating, that can be really hard (I got chewed out at 4am today), but really rewarding, and through that I would've never found Kelly's Pub (miss you guys), and if it wasn't for my career fiasco right before covid I would've been still chasing a career I'm really unfit for.So my plan as of now, finish school in Long Beach by 2023, while being a background actor on the side, and move to Yuma, Arizona working either/or a job in radio, my carrer, or warehouse workIs that plan going to change? 2 years ago I would've said not a chance... now? More likely than not... and that's the spice of life

How'd I become such a loser?How'd I get here?And why?

So, I'm in an accelerated math class, which means we learn two courses in the time of one, and we're doing stuff with like sin, cos, and tan. Anyway I had Captain's Call stuck in my head so I was humming and sort of skipping to the beat. Anyway I got all my work done really fast because I understand it all pretty well and when I understand math I tend to always do it right. There was a kid in my class who missed a lot of days of school, and he had no idea what was going on. Let's call him Absent Math or Ab for short. So he had like, none of the work done because he wasn't there, including the bit on similar triangles. Which I forgot how to do. So I'm awkwardly re-teaching it to myself and I know this kid is thinking "Wtf are they doing" because I was meant to help him and I didn't know it anymore. I felt so stupid!!!! So now I have to actually relearn it all because the teacher doesn't know I forgot and thinks Math is my favorite subject now!!! It's a thing. I'll also likely be recruited to teach him if I finish my quiz on Tuesday early, which I probably will. So, I am super anxious about teaching him wrong. Also since I was doing them really fast and answering the teacher's questions and mentioned that it only takes like five seconds after that and some kid made one of those sexual comeback things and it made me really uncomfortable. The teacher got onto him for it though, so there's that.Also!!! I've gotten to the fluffy ending bit of the third Mysterious Bennedict Society!!! It's so sweet and it makes me really happy! But I do feel like Constance ends up a little overpowered? Like, no spoilers, but yeah. We've also started reading Lord of the Flies. I also almost forgot to do my lit homework and then realized I had already done it. :) It's the little things. I've also started rereading Homestuck. I forgot how many lines were actually really cool! But I also feel like the amount of r-slur there is is entirely unnecessary and if I wasn't already so attached to it I wouldn't finish it. But it is fun, nostalgia and all that. Anyway, that's sort of the end? It doesn't really feel like it but that's it. Bye!

!VENT!recently i've been so much more depressed n i dont know what to do, it seems like all my friends are leaving me.

recently my best friend of like 3 years has been ignoring me (only me, they still talk to everyone else). this has happened before and there wasn't any explanation. it makes me feel like sh*t & recently they've only cared about me when it's convenient for them. i know they're tired of me but i'm afraid of being alone. 

UNNAMED when i am asleep i am freefree from the reality that holds meit grabs me by my wrist and pulls me in closeit whispers sweet words in my ear until i am completely its ownsuddenly its face changes and it strangles mei fight but im too weak to break freemy efforts in vainit puts me in a choke hold, and as i gasp for air it tells me to breatheit tells me to fight yet forbids me from the warit kicks me to the ground and beckons me to standand as the life drains from my soul, it begs me to live.

I got into show choir!!!! I was one of the 15!!! I also aced my bio test!!! And drama club was so much fun!!!! We played Snapshot and had ice cream and I knew a lot of people from there!! Like GW and Y and GL (she even said hi to me!) M2, B, L1, L2, B2, E (whose name I finally know!!!) and more!!! Even MF was there, though that was slightly upsetting considering I was sort of hoping to be able to go by my actual name instead of my dead name :/ but Y and M2's friends asked me my name and I used a shortened, masculinization of my dead name. However, I think some introductions are in order!!!!GW is someone I've known since elementary but only started getting closer to recently. She played a Wickersham brother in Suessical Jr., the Troll Queen in Frozen Jr., and was the replacement Jesus for Godspell Jr. She's been doing theater for her entire life and she's a freshman like me! She has a big voice, a supreme sense of fashion, the most bi energy of anyone I've ever met, and is an extremely talented actress.Y is two years older than me I think? They played the Sour Kangaroo in Suessical Jr, and that was the only play I've seen her preform in, but he entered every musical available to them. She has big parent friend vibes. He is also extremely kind and makes almost everyone around them feel incredibly safe.GL is one of the most talented people I have ever met. She's funny, pretty, and has one of the best singing voices I have ever heard. She played The Cat in Suessical Jr. and Anna in Frozen Jr. While I wasn't there to see her play Little Red Riding Hood in Into the Woods Jr., I am aware she got that role in 6th grade. She is one of the Drama Club officials.M2 was the first new person I met in my drama class. He's 17, a TECH kid, and another one of the officials. He's emo and a cosplayer.B is one of the only cis guys I know who is openly supportive of queer people but he is also like, really easy to make fun of. He's the only person I'm actively jokingly mean to. He played the only actual guy Wickersham brother, Weselton, and he was the narrator for my scene as Elder Brother in Godspell. His personality tends to revolve around his interests and currently that is the Dream SMP and musicals, but mostly Wilbur Soot and Lovejoy.L1 has the same actual name as L2 so it would be easy to get the two confused even if I wasn't simplifying them to letters. Until you actually get into who they are. L1 played a bird girl in Suessical Jr. and the Queen in Frozen Jr. She's a year older than me. She tends to be a bit snobby in the way she obviously thinks she's better but instead of being mean to you will treat you like she's much older than you are.L2 played Elsa in Frozen Jr., and was in Reading Bowl with me my first year of it. She's sort of reserved but incredibly kind.B2 is in my drama class and one of the kids I routinely give mints to. They're pretty cool and I think that they are either dating E or really really close to them because they're really affectionate in a way they aren't with other people. They're a tech kid.E was in my mentor class with B2 but I forgot their name. I think they're a tech kid. I'm not sure, they aren't in my class. They're pretty cool though!MF is someone I met at the same time as M, in my seventh grade science class, sitting at the same table. She's incredibly Christian but also really sweet and I can't tell if she's homophobic or not. I think that if she had an actual understanding she wouldn't be but you know parents can be terrible about letting their kids figure things out for themselves. Anyway, yeah! I've had a great day!

or type in the LULU search box Zemvoria or Pikatoise and Mihilus click for exception 18+up Dominic Homan in search box has alot of books now maybe Lulu did into Ebooks. 

i dont look like that anymore LMAOO